- Markis.
Why are you so hard on yourself?
Wow.
Why?
Why does it have to be somebody's fault?
Everything happens for a reason.
Where are your children?
With their mother.
And where's their mother?
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And so what was all this upheaval conflama wahala going
on around your kids that sent you to the razor
blade and your wrists?
What was that about?
Talk to me.
I can't help you if you don't tell me.
No heat, no judgement.
I kind of, like, made my own decisions when I was younger.
Put me in a position where I really
couldn't-- my babies' mother didn't really
want me to be every day in their life type thing.
OK, let's clean that up.
Let's clean that up because I got to stay with you
and elevate you moment by moment.
Not your babies' mother.
No, the children.
- Your children's mother-- - Yes.
Didn't want to be in a relationship with you
any longer. - Right.
OK.
Which is just the life I was living in.
Because of the life you were living, right?
Didn't want kids to be in danger.
And as I was living that street life, you could say,
a bunch of bad stuff was happening
to them that I didn't know. - Like what?
What kind of bad stuff?
It's bad stuff to the children.
Let's put it like that.
You know, abuse.
Abuse.
I just don't want to put, you know, exact--
Physical abuse.
I'll go with abuse, though.
And that's what sent you to end it all.
You felt guilty.
I've carried that guilt already.
Like, seeing the way my son is now--
How is he?
Violent.
You mean like you were this morning?
Like that?
How old is he?
12.
Yeah.
10-year-old and 12-year-old, both violent.
Are you afraid that it can't be fixed?
Yeah.
Let it come up.
Afraid that your sons will what?
Say it again.
Be just like me.
Afraid they're gonna be sitting in the same chair
telling a worse story.
No.
Because we can make it different.
You know how you're gonna save your sons, Markis?
You have to be willing to see it differently.
And instead of looking at what you haven't done,
you've got to stay focused on what you're doing
and what the goal is and what the intention is.
The vision.
Without a vision, a man will perish.
And you've got to bring your boys into the vision.
How do you know it's not too late for them, though?
How-- are they breathing?
You have to make a choice, Markis.
If you got to wash dishes, clean somebody's
dirty ass to feed yourself, you're not going in the street.
Because you're not going to set that trajectory for your sons.
That you're gonna be there for your sons in a way
your father wasn't there for you.
You have to make that choice now and be willing to do whatever
it takes to get you there.