baby what if i drank out of this could you slurp it you think hello welcome to day four
of daily vlog slash what i ate today slash calories slash i don't know what this is
but welcome i am trying to decide what i want to eat so i'm on uber hmm what do i want to eat
what about the calories what type of vibe am i feeling and then i look over at my girlfriend
what do you want to eat what type of vibe are you feeling and nine times out of ten we kind of just
go back and forth with that i don't know what type of vibe do you know what type of vibe
not the slide like for a minute there i was looking at the pasta moments
and then i was like oh but chinese sounds good and now i just don't know
ooh baskin robbins hi ma'am do you guys like cracker barrel i'll tell you one thing their
chairs are tiny so a girl with my type of butt no if i'm going to the restaurant oh my god am i
going to break the chair or a guy with my type of butt or a non-binary you know we can't sit there
it's not comfy it's not fun and the food is not worth it at all oh babe that place that we had
the other day they have it here the maggiano's italian classics
that's what you're thinking i didn't but they have it here
you know you love me okay so something we're never gonna get no absolutely not ooh a pokeball
i don't know last time i had pokeball the crab had like a really weird taste to it and i said no
no no they tried to send me to rehab i knew you're gonna look at me like that so i had to
oh wait my way in okay we'll get to tell it we'll get to it
okay i'm gonna decide sushi how do you feel about sushi she's a winner
so she's a winner oh we decided okay i'll show you when it gets here
okay you guys so here is my meal i got some edamame which i'm so excited to eat this is so
good and then here this is a shrimp i've never had before it was like sea bass and crab and
um i think some avocado and then here is just like my go-to which is just like a
crab mixture which is so good and then we have soy sauce and of course my favorite
ginger yeah this is my first meal for the day so we love a taste test and i have never had
this sea bass sushi i don't know what's happening here so i'm gonna dip it in my
soy sauce and we're gonna do a taste test i'm actually kind of nervous so let's go into it
um that's pretty good um
i feel like there's something missing wow that's spicy
oh yeah there's also like shrimp
so crab shrimp uh avocado and then the sea bass is on top but i already took a bite of it
delicious
edamame though
i call them chef's salty chocolate balls this restaurant is the best restaurant for sushi
anyway i'm gonna go enjoy my food okay so i am finished um this is how much edamame i have left
how much edamame i did eat i did finish the sushi wool but i did not finish this one i
mainly ate it because like i was just like hungry but the sushi that was here that's like one of my
favorites so when it comes to the calories it was 600. i do have my goal set to 2000
but that's not my actual goal and yes it is 5 30 p.m as you can see the time right here
i got a very very very late start to eating after like the weekend of eating pretty bad
if you ask me so look at this cute little uh water situation type deal it's like a set that we got
what i want to water some can i water this one baby look oh
isn't it so cute we got it off of amazon
she actually got it i love it it definitely goes with our aesthetic aesthetic so baby what if i
drank out of this could you slurp it you think wait can we try it yeah is it just water yeah
not scared i think we're too weird all right you guys we have a torrid moment so this is a shirt
which is a size six a lot of people ask why do you say size six instead of like 6x it's because
i always go based off of what it says right here and torah does go off of sizes like that i don't
know it's just what the tag says so this is a really really pretty pink it's like a dusty pink
it's just like a tank top situation type deal so i'm not sure how this is gonna go from the
looks of it it seems like it's gonna be a little see-through um let me put you guys down here all
right let's try her on oh this is definitely nice and airy for the summer it's super thin and like
i said it does look see-through for some reason i thought it was gonna be too small on me but
it's not it's pretty loose a lot of people also ask why i pluck insecurities honey i could be the
skinniest person in the world and still do this bit like it's just an insecure little tick that
i do so this is what it looks like up close there's like a little lace moment down here
i don't know so yeah this is just like a low-key tank top that i'd probably just
wear like a black cardigan with you know i'm gonna give this like a four out of ten i kind of
doesn't do anything for me okay you guys it is time for my next meal i have two cups of white
rice which came out to 400 calories we have some bourbon chicken came out to 200 calories and i
just have a little bit of light soy sauce so this meal is 600 calories so hungry i actually just got
off the phone with my mom and my aunt i know a lot of you ask like how's your mom doing phenomenal
this year actually november 1st will be seven years that she has clean and sober i never
would have thunk it now celebratory bite for her anyways bourbon chicken have you guys ever had it
it's amazing and bad judgment i had three slices of pepperoni pizza for 6.90 and three servings of
baked cheddar and sour cream chips for 360. and my weight today was 495.2 so after this weekend
there was definitely a gain so this is the last thing i'm gonna be having it's the halo top red
velvet which is the best hi everybody's she knows i got ice cream she's obsessed with ice cream
but this is the last thing i'm having look okay so when i showed you guys this halo top i noticed
this right here it says now creamier in my head i was like oh that's cool so it's gonna like
be just as great just creamier like everyone loves a creamy moment that's what she said
okay that sounded weird but you guys no i'm recommending this to you as the one without that
do not get the one that says now creamier the one that i prefer is 10 calories more and
it tastes better i'm very sad um i've taken a couple bites i like to like mix it and turn it
into like this like creamy moment i don't want to steer you guys wrong i never want to so i'm
letting you know this one is not as good um and if you want to play a little game get one with this
and then get one without it try it let me know which one you prefer because this ain't it says
like halo top what are you doing no don't do this to me i'm devastated this one tastes more like
there's like fake sugars happening like there's like a protein taste the other one doesn't have
that i know it's like over something so freaking dumb but damn um let me tell you how many steps
i took how many calories and we are gonna just end the night okay calorie wise oh honey 2 610
okay that's not happening again tomorrow no it's not as for steps um i didn't really try
oopsies um that's also not happening again tomorrow i need to get back to like really
trying with my steps i it's just like friday through sunday i become a different person
i wake up and i do great throughout the day like amazing once night hits it's as if i'm a
completely different person that's not normal i forget about routine i forget about walking and
health and like eating less calories and stuff like i hate it i need to like learn how to like
get out of that for steps i only did two thousand one hundred and thirty eight
that's horrible um no tomorrow i want to do at least 4 500 i'm thinking 4 500 between 5 000.
so yeah um i'm gonna end this video i hope that you guys have been enjoying oh oh god
sorry i just glanced over at my binder i have a lot of like um therapy homework that i'm doing
it makes this like whole therapy process just seem more real and it makes it seem more like
something that's truly gonna help me i feel like because like what my therapist or psychologist
um wants me to do and such so i know a lot of people think i'm faking seeing a psychologist
i don't understand why i might want to start being like more open and talking more about it but it is
supposed to be just like a personal thing i don't really know how to prove that to you guys it's
kind of weird um i don't know why anyone would lie about something like that anyways i'm rambling
i'm gonna go and i'll see you guys tomorrow bye i feel nauseous believe me never had a lot of [ __ ]
come easy had to work hard struggle just to be me had to rise up just so they could see me
did what i had to do just to feed me and what was left over i put towards my dreaming
but the only thing in life that has meaning are the things you gotta work for believe me