First day with crystal outside of
paradise one of the main things I want
to do tonight is tell crystal how I've
been feeling lately
coming into paradise I never thought
that I would find someone who I can
connect from all levels
I'm nervous because it's really hard for
me to become that vulnerable and I don't
know how she'll respond
it's our first one-on-one date outside
of paradise we needed this
tonight I want to tell her that I love
her some beer drank my life is a crap
about to take this little guy out that's
the way he ridiculous we laugh so hard
do you body with me or too bad oh my god
I needed this I wanted no distractions
like I thought there's so much stuff
still like just to talk about we have
really taken me by surprise I know I
can't imagine if I wouldn't have come to
paradise it just really made me realize
how important it is just to give someone
a second chance like how important
second chances are because if we
wouldn't have had that like we wouldn't
be here and honestly like I can't
imagine I think if you were in my life
right now
we are on the same page in so many ways
that's hard to find it's incredibly hard
to find like I'm about in it how do you
not looking right at it I really really
love what we have going on
I know not too long ago I expressed to
you that I was starting to fall in love
with you
he said beginning the beginning did I
beginning to fall with you and since
then there's been nothing but amazing
memories amazing conversations and being
here right now sitting across from you
wants to say that Oh what is that it's
not cool oh my god it's cute go get out
of here
mom dude that's a very cocky raccoon all
right laughing no but honestly like this
whole experience so far has really like
changed me in a lot of ways and and
after seeing Jade and Tanner today with
Carlene oven it made me realize that I'm
not actually beginning to fall in love
with you I am in love with you
I just want you to know that
I'm up with you - I'm a little scared to
say that I'm head over heels for you I
can't even think about anyone else
can't wait to see what happens for us
I've been afraid manalo been and I've
been on fire flying high yes
this is private concert for us then
rector is playing and my heart is just
inside
I'm all into this relationship and to be
able to express that without any fear
reservations it was incredible
in the bar
just being out there with Chris it was
just the most throughout me a dick
moment I've ever experienced with
someone there's other people in paradise
who haven't been so lucky and really
have a kind of chance at finding love
you