two years ago i lost my son eduardo that was 18 years old all the meditations that i've
done here i have already done six meditations are related to my son beautiful meditations i
really saw myself like how can i describe not physically but like particles in the
space floating in the space this was already the first meditation that we've done here
and i saw i imagine i don't know this came to very fast like like i would be particles and my son
would be other particles and we were like dancing in the space like making different movements up
and downs and different different kind of uh shapes and forms in a beautiful way it was like
i could say maybe a kind of meeting a kind of you know to show that we can be integrated
and without being physically at the same place another meditation
i saw myself exactly at the period more or less the month that my son died so i felt it was
not my physical body like a spiritual body i don't know but like lying down and very weak
without forces to stand up and two of my friends that helped me a lot
that they became like angels i don't know they appeared like angels in this
in this meditation helping me to stand up giving me support to stand up and continue
so while this meditation happened i kind of understood that this part is still inside me
and that i had to work on this part transform this part do something to
heal this part of me that still exists of course because
it's part of my life part of my experience so in a way or not it's printed in my soul i think so i
felt that i had to do something related to that something was going to happen
and i started i think opening myself because it became clear that it was still needed so
this was one meditation another meditation was my heart my heart appeared in the space
and i felt the whole time that i had to heal my heart that i had to you know send
energy different colors of energy that i had to um make it inside you know alive
and so i all the time in the meditation i felt that i had to put my hands on the heart and some
meditations were all of them related to to that so taking care of the heart and today earlier
i felt really very very like a physical pain here in the middle in the the the teemo point
of energy it was like i touched it and it really hurt and i told my friend that she and i said
i don't know it's really hurting and it was after the meditation i i knew that it was an emotional
it was emotional but it was physical hurting and i started started questioning myself what i had
to do to to work on that i got very tired during the day so i had to sleep so i couldn't attend
one of the meditations i really felt that i had to rest that i wasn't ready for the next meditation
so i rested i slept for three hours and then after lunch i felt i was ready that i could go
again and that was really when the it was the most powerful transformation meditation experience
that i had so before the meditation it was still hurting here a lot actually when i pressed and
i started a meditation listening to to dr joe dispenza we were already talking about
what we wanted and why we wanted but in the meditation it for me was really healing totally
focused on healing i again saw these particles imagining that it was me and my son and like
and sometimes we mixed the particles me inside him he inside me and sometimes separated and like
dancing like a dance in the space a space with nothing dark and we were the lights
dancing it was very beautiful but then suddenly i imagined something like i was going up up up
up up up like up and then i'm imagined like a place i entered like a place like it was like um
white everybody white i don't know like a healing place and i was lying down in this very similarly
the image of how i was before when i imagined that one year when um you know that when my
friends helped me to stand up it was very similar in this situation lying down all in white like
really needing needed to be treated so there was like a light
around me and i couldn't i don't see like faces or anything like that but like there's something
creatures i don't know i don't know but it's like light and it was like very clearly that
that i had to pass by a healing session i think it was like more or less like that and in this
healing session what appeared to me was that i should let let it go let my sun go i had already
done some process with that but it was very strong because in this moment um like they cut
the connection in english i think i don't know umbilical connection i don't know how you say
that in in english but they could like the connection to to spiritual connection to my
to my son so this was cut and in that moment he was like liberated uh in particles always
in particles i didn't see his body or anything like that just imagine that it was him really
he was like flowing away flowing away and i had to see him flowing away and when i saw that that
was when i got very emotional very emotional i started crying because it was like you know
i started missing him a lot and a very difficult life
to say goodbye or it was very like emotion so i got very very emotional at this moment
i felt that i had to hold on something so i hold it on the chair that was in front of me and i
did like that and i hold it with all my forces and i felt that this light that was around me
they gave me strength to sustain this pain because it was a lot of pain a lot of pain a lot
and i felt like i was i don't know i had to you know the pain was so hard so strong that
i had to hold this chair with all my forces and it was like i was liberating something
from my body liberating liberated liberating and i was crying and liberating liberating liberating
and then suddenly i started getting a bit more calm i started to call myself
stopped crying i still felt that this energy was around me sending me good energy to you know
to energize myself and i started you know to to feel that and more calm
and then i saw because we had talked about the mandalas i saw me in the mandalas in different
you know frequencies colors and you know beautiful and this is the new you and i i started getting
more calm and more connected to this lighter energy and i was thinking about
what would be this new new what i wanted so uh love happy i think gratitude so i i really felt
this connection to this new view because i was having a lot of difficulty in creating
a vision of the future i was living day by day and i was doing what i could do
but i could not you know dream about the future i cannot really look forward and imagine something
and i feel that uh after this meditation something really got transformed inside me after
we finished the meditation i started feeling
how was here and it didn't hurt anymore like it hurt before or heard earlier