I don't think anybody has a method for getting over breakups.
If they did and there was some sort of cure for feeling terrible, then they'd probably
be really rich.
I don't think there's any easy way to do it.
When you genuinely care for somebody, I don't think the feeling ever goes away.
If you actually like them and you really cared for them, then on some level you always care
for them.
I had my first relationship when I went to college.
There was this one record that I listen to right before we started dating.
It was the demo album for Death Cab for Cutie, 'Transatlanticism'.
Every time I listen to that record now, which is weird because it's one of my favorite albums,
like I only think of her.
So I think that's what inspired the whole thing.
That moment of feeling completely helpless and at her mercy, just being like, "yo, if
you're gonna leave, just be cool about it, please.
Cause I'm fragile."
I could actually feel her physically like leave
Also even while she was there it kind of felt like she wasn't there anyways.
That feeling of even with you're with someone and they're getting cold and you can tell
that they don't want to be there or their feelings are changing towards you.
Our apartment was really small and she was walking back and forth from the kitchen to
the bathroom sink, deciding whether she was gonna stay or leave.
I like to see what happened in my head and then just narrate the story.
I don't know.
I have this weird thing and I'm kind of getting over it, but if you get broken up with, sometimes
it's a little a little embarrassing or something.
Sometimes I feel ashamed of myself.
So I was like at least give me something to hang onto and don't leave me here all by myself
so quickly.
Just give me a minute so I can figure things out first.
When I do go out on dates sometimes, if the person calls you back and is like, "it wasn't
right, but thank you."
It's good to know.
It's good to know why.
When someone leaves you like that and they cut you off and there's no explanation and
you don't know why, it could drive a person crazy.
In my head I was like, let me down down let me down down.
I don't know where it came from and I don't even know what it meant, I didn't question
it, I just thought it was kind of cool.
I was thinking about when someone scratches a record or something like that and it just
come out and I left it there.
I never even really thought about it.
I was just looking for an open door into a conversation to talk about what was going on.
Sometimes you have to wait for the right moment and I guess a right moment never came for
the conversation.
So I'm not even really sure what happened.
That's why that moment sticks out in my mind because it was such a weird experience for me.
There's no way to easily get over something and when you really like someone and when
you're really feeling like you're falling, whether that's like falling for someone or
free falling because you don't know what's happening in your relationship.
There's really nothing you can do to control it.
It's like a sick feeling you get in your stomach.
I've never gotten it from anything else except from a relationship or when you like someone
and you're not sure what's going on.
That was it.
Again, just feeling helpless.