you know there was a guy that was
sending me
Western Union Grahams like $200 a week
for food men would send me pizzas so I
knew that you know if I ate on camera I
would get more money and it was my thing
it was like that's what she does and it
was I cater to that fetish
I'm on oh I got it okay when I was five
years old I started gaining weight
picked on horribly ten or eleven after
my mom passed away
my stepmother came into the picture and
it was very important for her that I
lose weight so she took me to the doctor
and I was on diet pills from 10 to 18 I
was like oh he can't be fat this is not
going to happen not into the wine I like
playing channel chandeliers and fellows
okay Deb I want to we need to find a
lunch meat and avocado
so let's find them I was caught up in
the whole trend you know I need to be
thinner I need to be thinner
the whole drug scene it was like hey you
know you don't see people on drugs fat
so let me try that for a little bit but
all it did was make me clean my house
real fast it lose any weight so I've
tried everything that you can possibly
imagine
excuse me sir where are your avocados
yeah you like to okay Jack let me put
this in your bucket yeah you know the
cabbage diet this diet and rice diet
didn't work so I was trying everything
I've tried you know everything but it
just seemed to make me I will lose
weight and gain more back lose weight
gave my back I meant Devon's dad and he
would bring home steak and lobster baked
potatoes and so I started eating but I
start gaining weight he seemed to be
okay with it and I thought you know what
good I don't have to work at this
anymore
so I actually went from my 350 to 600
pounds in nine years he just like all of
a sudden one day left us and it was like
oh okay I can't move
Wow I can't get out cuz you know
strollers sometimes won't go through
this one yeah I didn't think about it I
have to do yeah well round
baby honey you don't have to do that
sweetie Tommy can do it okay baby just
like all the wheels okay it's okay babe
the most part I thought me and bigger
was always beautiful in my eyes it was
just everybody else I was changing for
after that I eventually discovered the
online community all these men that like
big women and they had a chat room I
could even keep up with the amount of
people trying to talk to me and I was
like wow there's a whole bunch of men
out here in love big women and there was
a whole fetish about gaining and I
thought well I'm good at that all these
guys had money so they would fly me out
send me out put me up meeting all this
guys all over the country I made a trip
out to New Jersey to see him and I kind
of have package I brought back which was
Jacqueline so I moved to New Jersey and
he was married at the time and he said
that as soon as I moved to New Jersey he
was going to he was going to leave his
wife
but as our relationship progressed he
said why don't you be a web model so he
kind of talked me into it in the fat
world big community there's a few
fetishes that men really get into with
big women
one of squashing and one is eating so I
knew that you know if I ate on Tamra and
ate large amounts which wasn't hard for
me to do that if I made the videos that
I would get more money so along with my
pictures me posing in bikinis I would
also post videos of me eating Ho Hos or
pumpkin pies just whatever whenever I'd
eat sometimes Phillip would just capture
it on video if we go to a buffet
sometimes you just let the camera roll
and we put up a 15 minute video or you
would just go on get a membership the
unlimited videos for I think it was like
14 dollars a month and did you have a
lot of followers well I'll just say that
there's you know one point thousands of
subscribers so just add that Ted 14 I
would probably say I've made about
probably about 40 videos spend probably
five to seven hours a day answering fan
mail answering hate mail you know where
can I send pizza can I have her address
where can I give you this what do you
need can I send you about one guy sent
me 72 Hershey bars you know one guy from
Germany he spent like $200 like send me
sit like 200 hours worth of sushi he
would call it and give him his credit
card have him delivered to me and then
fans just saying oh I love you I would
have marry you tell me about how I dress
a UK magazine got hold me in once know
if I would do an interview with them
about being a big woman being confident
I made a comment and I said I wouldn't
they said you like being big
I said I like being big I'm comfortable
with it I don't care if I'd even be a
thousand pounds so when the story came
out that I wanted to be a thousand
pounds all of a sudden this boom the
media just took my took me and made me
what they wanted me to be a lot of
people have a lot to say about it death
threats and you know just you're
psychotic and people call the Children's
Services they actually call Children's
Services to have like children taken
away and all the misconceptions that was
very hard my life was just spiraling out
of control it was just basically me and
the kids sitting in the woods doing
nothing for a long time so I had a
sedentary lifestyle because I was kind
of forced into it and he was still
married and he never divorced his wife I
wanted more I had another vision for my
life not this vision and Philip went to
work and I packed all the stuff until
you Hall and left
don't can get my wheelchair
it's lit I was in Jersey I didn't know
anybody I was tired of creating this
fantasy for somebody with no gain to me
except for Gayle on pounds which made
meat more mobile I was tired of it
we just actually moved to Barberton
three weeks ago we're saying people are
nothing against Jersey
when I was in Jersey I wasn't able to go
out like this because I was in jail
I'm actually trying to lose weight so I
mean so I'm more mobile and then I'm
able to do things like sit places Devin
I'm gonna give this hey how you doing
all right I'm Donna here everybody you
know I'm Who I am here
I'm not some person created on the
internet you know in Jersey I'm Donna
here comes Barbie here's a Barbie so I
mean in a way it's like I feel used a
little bit but you know I knew the
nature of the game so I can't like you
know totally blame everybody but you
know Here I am
isn't bison supposed to be better than
beef so lean or cleaner I really need
like a whole system I need a village to
help me and that costs money and I don't
have the income come in like I did when
I was doing lean on the internet so I'm
on my own
it kind of makes me feel like wow you
know you were there when he wanted me to
be a mobile and you were all for it
giving me money and everything and now
that I want to change my life it's like
you're not doing anything to please me
so sorry the minute I left I completely
stopped I mean it wasn't like even a I
don't know should I stop it or should I
not as soon as I left it was over with
and up went my my blog and changed
everything immediately we took all those
pictures down and just put up pictures
of family turned it into a blog turn it
into me you know wanting to lose weight
people paid to help me gain weight and
now it's like can somebody help me lose
weight I'm just basically in the public
eye now
you just smile shoes spa you just smush