Hi lovely people!
Welcome to my office
and this wall paper is one of the first things that we did when we moved in.
It's a cupboard, guys.
I love our house. It's like... it's just the best thing.
So... today let's talk about body confidence.
I think it's something that we all struggle with, really.
We all have our ups and our downs
and feeling good, feeling bad...
I don't believe that there is such thing as the genetic lottery.
Lottery
I have no... I... I... I can't do this.
This comes from a girl who has a genetic disability, okay?
I just don't think that you can win or lose based on how you're born.
Someone could be the perfect picture of beauty
but still have problems with the way that they look.
And, equally, someone else has a part of their body that is off-putting to other people
but that they fully accept and they love, even.
I have a double scoliosis
I don't know the sign for it, I'll be honest.
Is there a sign for that?
But that's a double curvature of the spine.
At the top, here, it goes to the right
and at the bottom it goes to the left.
Can you tell?
No?
That's because they are both exactly the same.
So, 45° here and 45°... here.
My ribs at the top go this way
and at the bottom, here, they go this way.
In...
This side goes straight down.
So the right side of my body has a little waist
and lots of muscle here on the shoulder.
And then, the left side of my body just goes straight down
and has lots of muscle around the back here.
And that's... it sounds pretty painful and... it is pretty painful.
I take lots of painkillers every single day.
Sometimes that feels like having a really hot poker
like... jammed in my shoulderblade and someone's trying to wedge it off.
But most of the time it's just like an ache
similar to having a big book dropped on your foot.
That kind of, like, bone crush.
If I had to have my spine straight,
that would mean having a metal rod attached,
and they would have to break all of my ribs
and then reattach them.
And as tempting as it is
to become the female Wolverine...
... no.
I just don't care enough to actually do something about it.
I have much bigger problems...
my hair is naturally straight.
I always try to be aware when I'm dressing and
choosing my clothes
to try not to have it show too much.
That's just my personal preference.
And altough maybe you can't see it right now
if I walk around in a little bikini
then, yeah, it's pretty obvious.
But I'm happy, very happy, to walk around in said bikini.
Just, please, no close-ups of my teeth.
I also had a mini stroke
so now I can't feel the left side of my face.
Plus, I find it that it moves quite slowly
This one sided little smirk? That's paralysis, I'm not actually flirting with you.
Or am I?
My point was: we all have body issues
different types, whatever they may be
and no one really cares about your particular problem
because they are all worrying about their own.
So my thing is to take one part of your body you can control
like your hair
and just channel all of your issues into that.
World peace solved by good haircare.
This video is for Emma, who asked me about body confidence
and being confident when you have a disability.
So these are my thoughts, but what about you?
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