What's up are you I'm good how are you and you want come on in yeah sneaking
over to see Colton tonight without having to worry about any girls being
around perfect for me I'm ready to take that next step with him who is this
really yes race is it I have been feeling so
many things for Colton and I'm falling for him
you look nice thank you so yeah I am interested in a life with him I feel
like if you were to know how serious I felt about him it would really be a
breakthrough again in our relationship what's up and I've been missing you
mm-hmm wanted to see you I know like last night was really hard for you so I
wanted to check in and see how you were doing yeah it was tough but you know I
had a great night tonight so that's pretty good yeah yeah me too you know I
feel like you give me so much and every moment that I spend with you like it
leaves me wanting more yeah and you know Singapore was like such a breakthrough
for us and then Thailand we had another amazing moment together yeah and I
didn't think I would ever feel the way that I felt about you the way that I do
now and I never thought that it would be this real for me yeah um it's really
scary for me to even say that because you know like what I've been through but
I feel so confident and so happy with what's going on between us and like I
now feel like I am falling in love with you
I just want time to be able to like enjoy each other and to just like let
myself fall I appreciate you saying that to me and I I really do yeah it means a
lot and you continue to make me feel special
you know with you saying that you're falling in love with me like you know
brings up some emotion to me because I do think about you a lot
and I do think about us but there's a part of me that just that just doesn't
know if we can get there I just I don't know right now if I can see myself with
you at the end of this I can't sit here and after hearing that tonight and put
you through a rose ceremony
I wanted you to know that thank you for being honest
I don't want to say right now
you're incredible you're gonna make somebody so happy there's certain girls
here who seem like a safe choice but at the end of that it's not actually gonna
be safe because you're not going to end up happy in the long run
shit
your work here
it hurts
this is why I haven't wanted to be in a relationship for a really long time
because of this feeling
I'm leaving
being hurt is just the story of my life nobody has ever left me back you just
didn't feel the same way
I just feel like I'm not good enough I hate that feeling
does they know that I am
you