anyone with the right practice can attain some of the highest stages of
consciousness and abide in what sages and mystics
have been talking about since the beginning of time. There are infinite
numbers of ways to get there as i document my entire journey from the
first sit all the way to the 'Big Bang' The objective is to dissolve every speck
of solidity that separates you from the rest of the
universe and merge with infinity i suspect everything we do in life are
keyholes to this end
every day i wake up in the morning i feel like shit you know why? and i'll do
anything i can to acquire this consciousness. How do you advertise your
brain evolution is psychology and philosophy mostly. I've replaced my
fapping sessions with meditation sessions "don't you want to see
what is like beyond your mind" There's a space
outside of the yang/yang circle. (Spirituality) is a self-destructive process. Now the body is
a hologram, that's vibrating moment of moment as sensation. Gone is the
mind-body muscle duality. As a matter of direct
experience the mind and the body are in consciousness
we flip ourselves inside out. We create an avatar of ourselves. I've dissolve that duality
between inside and outside at first you can catch one sensation
every five to ten seconds with your Awareness
but eventually, five, ten, fifteen sensations a second. "Everything's God"
i just had my kundalini (exploded) to my crown chakra. Every particle of my being are exploded like nuclear bombs it was like
death x divine orgasm. It feels like i'm floating inInfinity, sometimes it's
scary sometimes i get a little vertical holy shit but
there's no height there's no width there's no dimension
there's no form no limit...that's your true nature, that's your true face the
mirror with no reflection. You can access states of
consciousness that is as powerful as DMT natty with
just the sober mind or even more right. i'm almost
at the point of cessation or Nirvana, or Fruition which
comes after the eighth and final Jhana... or Samadhi, where your whole universe
disappears
before a Fruition usually you have a 'Kundalini Awakening' where
all your "chakras" open up. After that spiritual high usually you fall into a
"Darkness of the Soul" we're dying before we die. You're
peeling away layers after layers of the 'false self'
it's hard to lock glimpses of Awakening into a permanent shifts.
to abiding in infinity
each macro Fruition perpetuate
the character into a new dimension
i've just unhooked Awareness from inside the head to everywhere and nowhere and
the body the mind even the world are not just inside it, as tiny clouds of
sensations but the modification of it and it's aware as
itself by itself and of itself. I'm perceiving
everything as like smoke "paper thin feather light" but it's super
heavy. When i skin i'm automatically scanning this whole
Godmind. There's only One Awareness. They're all looking through the same
looking as my looking. Like a Witness it's the last thing that
is to be dissolved. "I Am Awareness. i'm Consciousness
that's not your True Self. There's no screening to Consciousness
META is loving kindness meditation
all suffering comes from separation but then there's still a little
speck in the center, and you go through a threshold where...Time is a fake natty
NATTY. Spaces is a fake natty. I'm collapsing my
Awareness my attention into this tiny little point smaller than
an atom the next moment i can expand the body
mind to the universe so i'm doing the two simultaneously
"contraction and expansion" if infinity does not include paradoxes
and contradictions it's not infinite is it? when i look at a cup
it's completely holographic. I can penetrate through it on and on along with all the
other objects in this room and sensations, along with, sound, thoughts, body
emotions, whatever and it's like this luminous Boundless hologram 360 degrees
and it's just perceiving itself in unity simultaneously without any
delay "without the separate Watcher the
distinction between a subject and object collapsed
there's only reality where the Source experiences itself"
see the point is to access every stratum of the mind or consciousness
and then disidentify and dissemble from them all for max effort freedom
so it's like 4 right now and for the last
three or four days i just can't sleep at night
had another '"Kundalini Doownload"
The cycle ended
with a few "Cessations". There was never an ego to kill there was never a
meditator in here. There's no process to dissolve anything there was
never anyone in here. Now there's no center at all.
Death is inside space and time the furthest reaches of the universe
is literally the extension or your Being. The edge of the universe that's
inside space and time this thing transcends space and time. People think
this is something you imagine. "The New Operating System" is like this vast,
boundaries, timeless... like the world is moving through IT. The body, the mind
even the world seems so far away that it's like they're just barely hanging
on by this non-existent thread, that's connecting all the other
holograms through infinite webs of conditionings. And when i
cycle my legs they feel like it's the doing
of the entire universe but that's what's happening to everyone by itself and
there's nobody doing it. The body, the mind, sensations, perception
Source, Awareness, the world, the skies they're
all the same One No-Thing to me right now see
thoughts were never inside the head and you were never inside the body
it doesn't feel like my eyes are looking out through the world or my ears are
hearing anymore. It feels like there's just one singular Sense Door
"God's Sense Dooor" and it's comprehending itself. Whatever
is rising is passing away simultaneously and everything is free falling in
the center of infinity ss infinity so nothing has a center
total sense of compassion for all beings understanding that
even though we could be instantly fully enlightened and just disappear
from this world
we're going to have
every particle in this field contains the whole it's like totally aware
and awake the future and the past even now are all condensed
into this Singularity
literally every nano corner of this room...Not even the room
extends outward infinitely it's it's me and you
like how did i even believe that i was this little thing in here
"frank yang" this is f*cked up this is so f*cking
crazy like there's no mind there's no
Consciousness even it's just this is f*cking
i thought the shift I had before was huge this is
this feels this feels total like every little points is connected
is connected that there's no points anymore
like before there's still some subtle solidity
here here there there that sometimes i deconstruct
and then there's no separation during meditation but now it's just
it's just it's just full it's just it's empty and full it's just like what the
f*ck it's
it's like i can't imagine ever going back to the ways I was before like
there's no way that this is not going to be permanent this
space her it's just like it just...i can't explain it
it's like when i meditate before while i was doing the Vipassana, I was scanning my body
like this but now i'm scanning like the way i scan it's
like infinite it's like I am scanning the whole universe going like this
and then like and i just have to close my eyes and it's like
it's like and i don't even have to scan actually i can just sit here and then
it's like it's really hard to describe it's just
like it's the world is going through me and
out of me but that's not even the right description because there's
this meatsuit is part of that emptiness
it's Hologram on hologram. Void on void. Infinity on
infinity which means that there's nothing to say.
But there's so much to say, there's a billion words that could be used
to describe this and it's still not going to touch it but then
it's
but then words are just empty too. This this makes LSD and
DMT even, seem like babies. It's not an experience
it transcends experiences the whole universe eating itself through
and through like a Cosmic Snake, like one of those symbols you
know biting its own tail Strange Looping to Eternity
it's infinite infinite infinite infinite love infinite
pancakes infinite god you just get swallowed out by the Void
my body, my thought
of course you're not your mind there is no mind there is no mind
of course this this eternal stillness even if you have a million thoughts
a million sensations a million sounds a million bodies
they're they're in completely still, and silent, and empty
or they can be completely loud it doesn't even matter
there's no there's no mind to silence
there's no body to say this is not my
body
what the f*ck
meditation, books, yoga, all that stuff is techniques or tools for the character
even Kundalini for the character to ejaculate himself
out of the dreamscape out of the Matrix but at that space when
you look back into the circle of Yin/Yang Duality meditation
makes no sense. it's a different order together
good morning everybody i just woke up literally
four or five hours of sleep almost every day
i can perceive every sensation inside my body and outside stretching
all the way, to 360 degrees simultaneously all at once
see we're condensing infinity into finite forms to pretend we're separate
selves but the two are actually identical
because "form" and "emptiness" are the same just different waves in the same ocean
the Absolute is the Relative
Awareness gets unhooked. 2nd or 3rd Path it gets bigger and bigger
infinite towards that direction. But i didn't close the loop because that spec
was still blocking the way you're closing the circuit so you go all
the way and then back again like like a strange loop like the
figure 8 and everything you look at is like...Infinite.
every sensation is like. Infinite. And the whole universe like...
you're just like part of that let me tell you there are awakenings
and there are awakenings and there are enlightening. And Enlightenment Experiences then "ENLIGHTENMENT"
all that congeal and convert into a
singularity of Enlightenment and that moment you just know
you can't deny what's right here perfection
perfection. Enlightenment and Non-Enlightenment all the same. The difference
between the full thing and 99 % is like quantum. There's gonna be
a moment where everything just syncs up as One. Reality synchs up to Itself. Zero
zero synchs up to Zero it's kind of like Omniscience almost. This whole Field
is totally Awake See even Consciousness it's dependently
Originated, with, through, and as everything else so it's not the Ground
of Being. It's not permanent~ see even emptiness is empty and when you
try to find that "True SELF"
you can't locate it even though it's manifesting
the universe right now through each and every one of us
um basically i'm permanently headless now. Sensations when you
Vipassanalize them down to the microscopic components
it's all just empty space, just like physics says. And this empty state vibrates into form
moment to moment to moment and this form could be anything could be
Oneness or it could be my middle finger lololol
I Am Loving Awareness. Nope, don't get stuck there
always changing always changing always changing always changing always changing
absolutely no separation everything is connected you feel like you're
flexing the entire Reality and the way
the character responds to an enlightenment is different for everybody.
From Stream Entry (1st Path) to 4th Path is like moving from 720
to 1080 to 4k to 360 degree 4k
may all Beings be happy