Lil Loaded was one of the most promising up-and-coming rappers from Texas
before he took his own life earlier this year.
Let’s take a look at the career and come up of Lil Loaded.
Lil Loaded is a rapper from Dallas, Texas
best known for his breakout track 6locc 6a6y.
He was born Dashawn Maurice Robertson in San Bernardino, California.
He moved to Dallas when he was 10 but went back and forth to Cali when he got older.
He was raised by his mom, while his pops was locked up.
He was one of five kids and was the middle child.
He had a brother who was eight years older
and taught him everythinghe knew about the streets.
Growing up in Dallas, the rapper said he had to quickly adapt to his environment.
He was from the Rollin 60’s Crips, one of the oldest and largest gangs in LA.
When he was 15, his older brother got killed due to gun violence.
At the time, Lil Loaded wasn’t even in Dallas,
his mom had sent him to Cali because he was getting in too much trouble.
But his brother’s death really changed him and pushed him deeper into the streets.
His brother was the man of the house
and after he died, Lil Loaded took on the responsibility and made sure everyone was straight.
Around that time, he started getting into shootouts.
At one point he got shot in the hand.
He held it up to prevent the bullet from hitting him in the face.
He was lucky he reacted quickly because if the bullet aint hit his hand,
he probably woulda got killed.
The crazy thing is he aint even go to the hospital after he got shot.
He aint want them to report the shooting to the police,
so he had someone in the hood fix him up.
The wound wasn’t that deep, and the bullet aint even make it through the back of his hand.
So, he went to one of his homies mom’s, who was able to stitch him up.
She pulled out the bullet with no meds and he was back on the streets the same day.
After that, he decided to start moving smarter, so he wouldn’t end up in the same situation.
That was around the time he started rapping.
He took the name Lil Loaded because that’s what everyone in the hood used to call him.
He used to show up to basketball practice high as a kite, so the name just stuck.
He dropped his first track B.O.S. in June 2019.
It did alright for his first song but only got about 5 or 600 views the first week.
He followed up with 6lock 6a6y, which became his breakout hit.
He found an NLE Choppa Type Beat on YouTube and freestyled the song in two takes.
Then, he filmed a video in his hood and dropped it on July 26th, 2019.
A Polish YouTuber named Tommy Craze who does reviews of rap videos on YouTube
came across the video.
He does a segment on his channel where he watches music videos with 0 views.
He came across 6lock 6a6y right after it dropped and thought it was fire.
This helped the video go viral
and it racked up hundreds of thousands of views over the next few days.
Lil Loaded became an overnight success
and within 24 hours, he was getting offers from labels.
The next day, he flew out to Florida to meet with managers.
Tommy Craze gave the song an alley oop to push it to a bigger audience.
But part of what made it an overnight success was that the song was raw and unique.
Lil Loaded had a sound that blended Southern and West Coast hip hop
with his cold flow and hard bars that made it an instant hit.
Things happened so fast that he barely had time to process what was going on.
He continued to capitalize off the success of his viral track by dropping more music.
He followed up with songs like Smoke Today and Gang Unit, which both did numbers,
proving Lil Loaded wasn’t just a one-hit wonder.
He later signed to Epic Records and dropped his debut mixtape, 6locc 6a6y in December 2019.
So, in a matter of months, Lil Loaded went from being an unknown rapper
to one of the hottest up-and-coming artists in the game.
He dropped a remix to 6locc 6a6y featuring NLE Choppa,
which also racked up millions of views.
Then, he collaborated with some of the hottest rappers in the game
like King Von, Pooh Shiesty, and Hotboii.
So, with such a fast come-up, it looked like Lil Loaded was bout to become a superstar.
But just as he was beginning to enjoy his success,
he ended up in a tragic situation that nearly cost him his freedom.
On October 25th, 2020 police were called to the 7200 Block
of Lost Canyon Drive in the Woods neighborhood of Dallas.
When they arrived, they learned that 18-year-old Khalil Walker
was taken to the Methodist Charlton Medical Center, where he was pronounced dead
from a gunshot wound to the chest.
Walker was one of Lil Loaded’s close homies.
Witnesses say that just before he got killed, Walker, Loaded, and an unidentified witness
was chillin outside the house.
Walker’s sister was inside and said she heard two gunshots.
When she ran outside, she saw Lil Loaded and the other witness standing over Walker’s body.
She ran back inside and called 911.
According to an affidavit, she also went through Lil Loaded’s phone
and saw a video showing the rapper shooting her brother.
Loaded and the other witness then put Walker into the back of a car
and drove him to the hospital.
After investigating, the police issued a warrant for Lil Loaded’s arrest.
A few days later he turned himself into authorities
and got booked into Dallas County jail.
He was originally held on a $500,000 bond but it got reduced to $75,000.
At the time of his arrest, he also had a pending gun charge for unlawful carrying of a weapon.
He posted bail about a month later cause he still had contractual obligations to his label.
After getting out he got on social media to prove his innocence.
He posted a pic of his mug shot to Instagram with the caption:
“I appreciate all y’all support.
They try to make u look guilty wen u innocent regardless .. we going to get pass this.
Rip my brother love u 💔”
Lil Loaded never denied shooting his friend, but he claimed it was an accident.
They was filming a music video using a loaded gun
and during the shoot it accidentally went off, killing Walker.
It was a tragic accident that could have been avoided.
But Lil loaded still had to face the consequences of being the one who pulled the trigger.
In March 2021, a Dallas County grand jury indicted the rapper on a lesser charge of manslaughter.
They claim that while the shooting aint seem intentional, there was enough evidence to charge him
with recklessly causing the death of Walker.
While on house arrest, Lil Loaded continued to work.
In December 2020, he dropped his second mixtape Criptape.
A few months later, his hit song 6locc 6a6y was certified gold.
But it was hard for Lil Loaded to enjoy his success.
Not only was he dealing with the guilt of being responsible for the death of his boy,
but he was also potentially looking at spending the next few years in prison.
All this was weighing heavy on him,
and at that point he’d only been in the industry for about a year.
Unfortunately, the pressure was too much and he ended up taking his own life
just a few months later.
On May 31st, 2021, a relative found Lil Loaded dead
from a self-inflicted gunshot at a home on the 1500 Block of Allen Drive.
His death was a huge loss to friends and family members.
Even though he was going through a lot, he still had a promising future ahead of him
and his lawyers felt confident with his case.
Records show he had a court date coming up the following week.
His attorney told XXL that
“While pending charges as serious as Mr. Robertson’s can be exceedingly stressful,
and it certainly may have contributed to this tragic outcome,
I believe he was in a good place mentally with regard to the charges
and our upcoming court date.
We felt we had a strong defense to his charges”.
But apparently, the charges against him wasn’t the only factor that lead to his suicide.
Just before he died, he posted a cryptic message to his Instagram that read
“Dear most high. Please forgive me for my shortcomings
and all of the times I’ve fell short of making you proud and being appreciative
of all the blessings that have been put in my life.
Sometimes the lines are blurred between being solid and being heartless
I want to thank you for how far I've come
and the people you've put in my life to keep me grounded and humble
through everything and I love every single one of those people
that are genuinely for me I ask for entrance into your kingdom thru all of my mistakes
I know you love all of your children and I'm ready for my heart and soul to Join you.”
One of Lil Loaded’s close homies
also got on Instagram to shed more light on the situation.
He said the rapper killed himself over his girlfriend.
He said Loaded told him like a month before that somebody fucked his girl,
and that he was gon kill them.
Unfortunately, fans will probably never know exactly why Lil Loaded took his own life.
It coulda been a combo of all the hate he received from his own gang over killing his friend,
his legal struggles, his relationship problems, or the pressures of the music industry.
With all this weighing on him, he probably felt like he had no other option.
It’s a tragic situation, that seems to continue to happen.
Another rapper with a lot of potential and a natural talent
that could have taken him far in the industry, but once again was taken too soon.
At least he left behind some great music to carry on his memory.
RIP Lil Loaded.