about four months ago i i start reading breaking the habit of being
yourself but in english instead of spanish actually i heard it in in the audiobook
and during that time i was told that i will need to get a surgery to take off to take off a polyp
in the rectum uh the polyp was kind of big and they by at that time they told me that it had
i have high it was highly probable that it will be conscious that i will have cancer
and that was in march 10 from that point and i already knew about you have to decide
either i will buy what the doctor was saying to me or not so from that point i started doing
meditations i become kind of obsessed hearing dr joe dispenza's conferences and meditations
i was still practicing bionero motion that you need to deal with your emotions and
how to to deal with it and look for the conflicts the origin of the conflict uh
from for those emotions but i did not i was it was not until that point that i was
really doing meditations uh i got my surgery i needed to wait for the pathology results of the
of the polyp that they that they extracted it was a six centimeters polyp they needed to reconstruct
my rectum and and there was still a possibility that they will have to take it off completely
so for the rest of my life i will have to be with a bag instead of
doing things the way they're supposed to do so i kept practicing the meditations all the way
along and every day every day i you may imagine that i have a lot of nights with insomnia because
you know all the possibilities that may happen but on those nights i just keep looking in in youtube
joe dispenza dispenza's meditation and i and i identified two meditations that were
very important to me the one that the placebo is you uh you are the placebo and the other one
the blessing the energy centers by that time i also heard in audiobook your supernatural
so for me that was very very important because at that point i could understood what i was doing on
the meditations and that book was very important for me because it was in synergy without i was
also practicing a course in miracles and and the ideas from joe dispenza and this course are very
similar but he gave it uh the science point of view and i am a psychologist i am a researcher
i work in research in psychology so that that part was very important to me i already knew
about psychoneuro immuno endocrinology and epigenetics and all that stuff but i could now
understood very very well what i was doing on the meditation so i put all my interest in that and
the results came the results came positive uh the day before i heard about the the results i just
for some reason i went into the joe dispenza page and i saw the events and it was not until
that moment that i thought oh my god the result could be what i don't want to hear
but then i thought okay if i if they are positive no matter what i'm going to one of those events
and then you could do they could do whatever they want
um i well i got i got my result the results were positive uh suddenly i am in the cancer center in
puerto rico in one of the cancer centers in puerto rico which is kind of a stressful experience
at the second day the day before that the radiology oncologist told me that even in
the best case scenario i will need to get at least 25 radio radio therapy
sessions and even if the pet scans came okay i will need those radiotherapy sessions 25 in my
rectum with all those things that may happen uh by that but uh the doctor the surgeon also told
me you know this is the worst scenario and this is the best scenario the best scenario could be that
you they will suggest that you just go um to to be observed and i told him i'm going for the best
i'm i will be told just to keep on observation and that will be it and he looked at me like well
that's not necessarily what is going to happen uh but i said well i believe in god i believe
that god wants me healthy and and that is what's going to happen and he just looked at me like well
but i keep doing my meditation all this time from march 10th through through the end i went through
the pet scan uh by that time i almost finished the supernatural book and i almost finished the
chapters where they was discussing the breath the breathing sessions and the blessing of the centers
of energy and all that stuff and i went through the pet scan and just what he was talking about
right now i just felt for the first time in my life i just felt omnipresent i just felt that
that what i was receiving i was supposed that i you know for the pet scan they gave
you radioactive um liquid and i felt so blessed i i by keeping doing my meditations i just felt
that that liquid was going to heal me instead of being something that it was going to be
bad to my body i just felt that it was going to heal me i just felt that that i was
when they put me in through the machine i i i couldn't feel the machine i was one with the
machine i was one with everything i i just felt in nirvana so so i just when i went out from that
from that test i just told my my my son you know what if the results came out
as i felt during that test they're going to be great because i felt in nirvana i mean
maybe someone would say you took something but i was i was felt really blessed
and from that moment on i have been keeping doing my meditations after that the pet scan came clean
just in the area of the rectum they see something the oncologist told me that i did not needed any
any chemotherapy the radiology oncologist told me the the same person that told me two weeks before
that i will need 25 radiotherapy sessions he just told me i didn't needed any radiotherapy sessions
uh both of them told me you are you're cured you're healed you just need to be on observations
the week after that my surgeon could not believe what they both told me both doctors told me and
he didn't agree with that so he wanted me to take another second opinion because he understood that
i at least needed to have radiotherapy and that maybe there will be a need for another surgery
to at least extract some other portion of my rectum or take it off take it out completely
i just got that second opinion from from the the second surgeon and he said you know what you're
you're kind of a particular case uh i don't used to see this because you just check all the boxes
in your case i cannot tell you that you need chemo i cannot tell you that you need radiotherapy
although i understand the the worries of the other surgeon because there are supposed to still be
some pre-cancerous cells in the rectum although i understand his uh his worries about you i cannot
tell you to get the surgery or to get kemia or to get radio so here i am at the at the workshop
hoping that i can feel more of what i felt during the pet scan that reviving again that experience
of omnipresence that i felt i'm pretty sure that my practices every day every day every day
uh turning into intention and blessing of the centers and practicing the breathing although
i haven't i didn't do them like we are doing here but maybe somehow they work and i just hope
that i have uh i will be having tests every three months for the next five years and
i hopefully they are going to be great so i want to tell my surgeon you know what
there's no need to take out my rectum and you will they needed to reconstruct the rectum because of
the big how big was the the polyp that i have it was six centimeters and i'm just hoping that when
he see it again it will look like nothing happened there so it's completely healed