today I was so fortunate to have
tangible moment the whole day of being
in real life with Colton
you look beautiful
I mean it's pretty cool that I got a
handout before I'm down
I can see what my future can look like
and it was awesome
well they go ahead and put a ring on it
today me too
I think you know these last few weeks
have been have been tough it's been very
nice to be back here in Denver yeah I
would not have traded anything but at
this state and I honestly felt so
comfortable talking to your family and
they were so welcoming and just to be
honest like your mom she's just really
protective of you and I respected that a
lot
trust me I can get that I feel very
grateful for being able to have a
conversation and I want my dad at this
point yeah because this is the most
important week this is a week deciding
you know do I take that next step in the
relationship so I want to know what
makes you so confident that you know a
few weeks ago you could look at me and
say you know I am falling in love with
you I want to know sort of how do you
know that how you know you're ready yeah
um I don't just date today a date for
marriage and that's the way I think it's
intended to be especially at this point
in my life and there's nothing that I
feel like I would be missing out on
I just saw y'all falling in love with
you in Thailand and damn falling in love
with you still and it's a really good
feeling
I appreciate hearing that more than ever
it means the absolute world to me that
she is able to say and feel the way she
does about me but I don't know if I can
match where she's at right now and I
don't know I can get there
I know that I feel confident in being
able to take you oh my dad and I know
they'll love you and I think after that
like just the potential of our future is
really really good so and I want to say
thank you for that and I appreciate that
more than you'll ever know you've been
open honest and vulnerable this entire
time
but I think coming into this week I
think I spent so much time questioning
who's ready and all of this I didn't get
to look in the mirror and asked myself
am I ready I think more importantly am I
ready for us and I don't know if I'm
there and going into hometowns I can't
shake your father's hand and look him in
the eye if I know that I have any doubts
in our relationship I
I know that you got everything that I
could give you here and yeah
I'm a little confused as to what you
won't but I'm glad to know that now I
wouldn't want you to come to meet my
family if you don't go that way so I
don't deserve that and I know there's
somebody for you know somebody's gonna
make you incredibly happy and you're
gonna make somebody incredibly happy can
I walk you out
yeah hey
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I know that I shocked him and that there
is no explanation that I can give her
other than for me it just didn't feel
right
I think the hardest part about all this
is knowing that she was falling in love
with me knowing that she's pretty much
done everything that I've ever asked
anybody to do throughout this whole
entire journey
and still feeling like I couldn't get
there
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me and like just
listen to updates
it wasn't digits
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that is not what I want so I'm honestly
I'm this
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I don't think his actions and his words
really add up you know he says he wants
somebody that challenges him that it's
spontaneous makes him laugh it's funny
has depth heart can be themselves
completely be honest
I don't know who else it's gonna be it's
not me I think we all kind of have
questions for him
no kidding me
oh my mind Jetson not my promise
it's just really frustrating the desire
of my heart is to be loved so
fearless Levi's somebody
or not allowed myself tonight to Phil
chose in every single day
and I'll wait till whatever that is
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my biggest concern coming into this week
is that some of the women here might not
be ready for what comes at the end of
this
but tonight I'm sending a woman home
that has made it clear that she is ready
I'm just hoping that I'm on the right
track
that I'm not setting myself up for
disaster
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you