You say, "Do not be afraid. I will be there. Don't be scared." Yet I'm still unaware, unprepared
for Your presence, like oxygen, to constantly be surrounding me. Yet when I take time to
breathe, it fills up my lungs, gives me new life, and brings me to my knees. You say Your
mercies are new every morning, but by lunchtime, I have forgotten. I scrub pots and wash pans,
trying so furiously to clean up my own mess that I missed the meal altogether. You say,
"Take and eat," but my absentminded stomach is infamous for forgetting to feed itself,
frivolously feasting on fruitless, futile falseness, and foolishly believing that it
will fill me up, when no matter how much I get, I always forget the one thing that actually
matters. It's not a quantity problem I have; it's a quality one. I don't have a scarcity;
I'm just missing the Son. I'm blind to see that He is all I need to fulfill me. You say
Your power is made perfect in weakness. Well, that just doesn't make sense, unless You define
strength not by how much you control but by how much you're willing to submit to the only
One who has any, anyway. Anyway, You say, "I am the way," but how to clear away all
the doubts and distractions leading me astray? I can't downplay this decay when, come what
may, I rarely stay. Even though I hear You say, I constantly stray. You say, and You
say, and You say, but still, I need You to remind me again. I need to be told several
times before I learn, like a dog or a toddler...or a human being. I need to be reminded that
You won't forsake me, and You make me whole. Be still and know. Where You go, I'll go and
make disciples of all nations. You say You're the foundation medication for separation restoration.
Your visitation bringing transformation validation through transubstantiation. Your humiliation
breeding justification, purification, and exoneration for disintegration of my soul.
Or in other words, "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever
believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." You say, but could You repeat that?
I'm a slow learner.