Dane is lacking a sense of community
because he had been ostracized from his family
when he chose to leave the Mormon church.
But one of the things that Dane was missing
was how to interact with strong feminine energy
in a respectful way.
He was raised in this fully male-dominated society.
They do not respect feminine energy,
feminine thought, feminine freedom,
and I had to impart to him that this type of thinking,
while it may not be your fault, you will pay the price for.
Well, Dane, this is no accident that me and you are here alone.
-Okay. -This was done by design
because Mother Aya imparted me some things that she wanted
me and you to go over, that she wanted you to know.
How you were raised and how you approach feminine energy
is not your fault.
Interesting.
[ Chuckles ] Wow. Okay.
The only reason I'm bringing this up is
because I want you to embrace the power of feminine energy
to bring you closer to Mother
because I know that's what you came for.
Yeah, I -- There's something that needs
to be healed in my relationship with feminine energy for sure.
With that thought, I want to give this cup to you,
and please.
Okay.
Mother Aya was the first feminine energy that woke me up,
and it really made me rethink my approach to females,
and that's what I wanted for him,
and I had to remind myself
as the biggest asshole that I have been in my life,
he's nowhere near that.
And, so, if there was hope for me,
then there is definitely a lot of hope for Dane.
♪♪
When he was in his deepest part of his journey,
I put him in a room in isolation
with a projector shooting nothing but images...
-Oh, yeah. -...of strong feminine energy
in all its forms from animal to human,
and I just let them play over and over.
Every time he opened his eyes,
he would have a strong feminine presence
in a non-sexual context.
[ Laughs ]
Okay, a slideshow of how to respect women.
This is adorable.
This is going to be sick.
[ Sighs ]
I was feeling very strange, and then...
♪♪
...some visuals started to come up,
and I was just laying there going,
"I'm ready. I'm ready for this shit,"
and all of a sudden there was, like, this Slender Man alien
looking at me like, "Oh, are you? Are you ready?"
and I was just like, "What the fuck?"
And I just, like, threw up,
and it was almost like I felt like it was,
like, poking me and, like, making me throw up.
Like, it was like,
"You're not fucking worthy of this right now."
Oh, goodness gracious.
[ Clears throat ]
All right, my man.
Thank you.
And I was like, "All right. I'm not going to be afraid
this time when it happens. I'm going to keep it down."
[ Exhaling sharply ]
But then it's, like, "Oh, no. No!"
And it came back up again, and it's like, bleh!
And I was just like,
"Damn!
[ Chuckles ] She's not letting me in, man."
♪♪
Slowly but surely,
like, some of the visuals
that had initially startled me started to come back to me.
There were alien faces kind of coming through
and looking at me and stuff.
It was this feeling of, like, "You're not listening yet.
You're not truly listening.
Like, you got to just listen and respect."
Steve: You know, one of the first things I always
coach people on coming into this is,
you must show respect to the other side,
and Dane came at her disrespectful.
Mother Aya is not something that you can just go pawn off
and sell and take her out of a bottle when you have use for her
and bottle her up when you don't.
And just because you don't get what you want
doesn't mean you didn't get what you needed.