- You know, what's wild is
that I knew you like, honestly,
we knew each other
before we were even born
because we were in the womb together,
which is really crazy.
- I know. - Yeah!
- Womb-mates. - We were womb-mates.
We were womb-mates.
- Okay.
What do you think
I'm hesitant to tell you?
- I think you're hesitant to tell me
the things that I know you struggle with.
Because you think that
I'm going to judge you
or you think that I'm going to
look at you less.
But I've I've said it before,
and I 100% mean it,
that there's nothing that you could do
that would ever make me love
you less than I do right now.
Like, I love you so much
and there's not like
there's nothing that
you would ever say to me
do to me or like do in
that I know sometimes
you can be ashamed of.
But like,
I don't think of you like,
you're still the beautiful belle
of the beautiful soul.
No matter what,
that's how I view you.
And that's what I tell everybody
when I meet people like I-
You should meet my sister
because this is who she is.
You're not the bad decisions
that you've made.
- Yeah, I mean, that's
how I feel too, like-
Well, that's not how I feel,
but like when I come home at like
4am I'm like: damn!
Like Carissa hates me.
She's going to be so upset.
- I don't hate you!
I know you always are like,
"Carissa is going to hate me."
No, I'm not going to hate you.
There's nothing that I would do-
- I think- - I would never hate you.
- Like when I make a mistake, right?
But I'm still like
trying to figure out like,
okay, like, what's a mistake?
What's not?
Like, I just feel like
I'm not living up to
like who like you tell people
I am, like, damn, it's so hard...
- Do you feel like pressure
when I tell people
how amazing you are?
- Yeah.
Like,
- 'Cause it's genuinely what I think about you.
- Yeah.
Honestly, like
I feel a lot of pressure
and maybe it's like from you,
or like just me in
general, right?
Like, it's probably the pressure
I put on myself.
But yeah, like
I do feel like that pressure
because I think you're like
the most amazing person in the world
and like the way you talk about me
and like, how like we should be
like, running together and like,
you know, like, there's no compromise
and like our relationship with God.
But I'm like, dang, like,
I'm still trying to figure out what
like that looks like.
- And I totally respect that.
Like, I know that we're on like,
I can't live your life
and you can't live mine.
- Yeah.
So... - My intention is never
to make you feel like shame.
That's the last thing I would want.
- Yeah, I know. - And I don't hate you.
I don't hate you.
I'll never hate you.
- 4am: Carissa hates me so much.
- I don't hate you.
I would never hate you.
I promise. - Yeah.
And like hurts me
to think that, that
you would think that.
- Okay. - So we move on to the next question?
- Next question!
What's something we carry
that we should both let go of?
- Oh.
That's a big one,
I don't know if you carry it
as heavy like as I do,
but like just like the
the weight of like
trying to protect dad
and like the responsibility of
like obviously trying to care for his,
for his addiction,
not care for his addiction,
but I care for him in his addiction.
And like sometimes
I feel like
we carry
that responsibility on ourselves
when it's like, we can't do that
like he's a grown man.
And obviously, like family's
everything to us. - Yeah.
- Like, we're Hispanic.
Like, that's who we are.
Like, we're family.
Like family's everything to us.
But I think
our whole family is codependent
and we have to like,
be there for him all the time,
but we don't create
any of those boundaries.
So I think that's like
something that we carry.
At least I carry
like the burden of a lot.
Do you do you carry that?
I know you see it differently
than I do, right?
You feel like you have
to take care of dad.
You also have to take care of mom
and her business.
And sometimes I feel like-
- Because I do.
- Yeah, but that's the thing like you...
You feel like you do.
And like, I know, like we're family,
we'll be there no matter what.
Like through thick and thin,
we'll be there for each other.
But that whole, that
burden isn't mine
and that burden isn't yours.
Does that make sense, is there?
Do you agree with that?
I know you see it differently.
So... - Yeah.
- You don't have to answer.
- Yeah, I don't want to. - Okay.
- Sorry. - It's okay.
- Okay, yeah. It's my turn.
I love you. - I love you too.
- I'm sorry if that hurt.
- It's alright.
- I don't want to make you cry.
- I just don't want to talk about that.
- Okay, that's fine.
- You good? Okay.
What's the best thing
you've learned from our worst fight?
- Like last week? - Like the one last week?
- Yeah, I mean, that was one
of our worst fights ever.
- Well,
you know, every time we fight, like
we're not mad at her
more than five minutes.
But las week... - That's not true.
- Well, that's like
what we say.
We're like, we're not going to be mad
for more than five minutes,
like we'll always come back
and apologize that same day.
I think that's what
the point is.
We'll probably apologize
that same day.
But I think last week
we just didn't see eye to eye and I
I- you kept explaining something
and I kept hearing
something different.
And I think that's
what the bottom line
was, and I felt like
all of my decisions
were honestly for you.
And I felt like you didn't see it.
I think we just saw
it really differently
at the end of the day,
and I fell asleep mad
and I woke up sad.
And I'm sorry. - It's okay.
- I know we talked about it. - Yeah.
It still makes me feel bad.
- We're the best friends
like we have each other, right?
Like, I think of _________
who's lost her sister, who's lost
her dad and her mom and like,
that's like, we can't do that.
Like, it's like,
tomorrow's like,
honestly not guaranteed.
And I think that's
what pissed me off the most.
I was like, Damn, like,
we're literally upset at each other
for something so stupid,
for just like a miscommunication
or because we don't see eye to eye.
That was like we can literally like
not have each other.
And that would suck.
Imagine if the last time we talked,
we were pissed off at each other
like we can't do that. But um...
Yeah.
- Okay, I get really
emotional even thinking about this,
because you know how much I love you.
If this would-
I can't even say it.
If this were to be
our last conversation,
what's something you'd
never want me to forget?
- I think that the last,
if this was our last conversation,
oh my gosh, I don't want that.
I think just how much you inspire
me, like,
I mean, I've said this a lot.
You are the person
that has inspired me the most.
The person that like
I look up to the most like.
And like, you're the person
that like, honestly, like,
if it wasn't for you,
I wouldn't be here
like on this earth today, like you...
Like, honestly, like saved my life.
And like,
if I ever like given the headspace
like that again, like,
you're the person I keep going for
because I couldn't imagine.
Like, I don't know, like just
I want to be in like,
I feel that's why
I might feel that pressure.
But it's because like,
I want to be there for you,
like you're the person that like
keeps me going a lot.
I know that's God, too,
and you're the one
that introduced me to God.
Like, I wouldn't have a context
of who God was if it wasn't for you
and like for that faith you had.
But like, like,
I just want to say like,
thank you for never giving up on me
because I know there were countless
and countless times
that like it would have
been so easy for you
just to give up on me and like,
say, I'm like, a lost cause.
But because of your like faith
and like because of who
you really believe I am.
Like, I feel like I'm
the person I am today
because you never gave up on me.
So I would say, thank you for that.
Yeah.
- Love you, Belle.
- I love you.
Don't cry. Cry.
It's good. Nevermind.
Go ahead and cry.
Okay.
Do you wanna answer?
Or...? - What?
- I mean, do you want me to keep going?
- I mean, you just answered.
- I know.
- Oh, you want to hear what I would say.
- No, it's up to you. No, I'll go.
Okay. - It's up to you.
- No, I'm going to say
the last question. - Okay.
Is it a good one?
- It's a really good one.
Okay.
Why do you love me?
Make it a good one.
- I love you...
I love you because you're my sister.
I love you because
you're my best friend.
I love you because you're a miracle
like your life is a miracle.
You sitting here
in front of me is a miracle.
And
I think you're the
person that like...
like, you're just always there.
And I can't say more because I'm gonna cry.
- That's good enough. I won't cry.
- I'll cry.
- It's okay.
- But yeah.
I don't know
if that was a great answer.
- It's your answer, I love it.
- But I honestly I I love you
more than anyone in the world. - I know.
- Yeah.
- Good answer. I love you. - Thanks, Belle!
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