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Hey , my name is shaima, I'm 18 years old, and I'm a disciple of Jesus Christ, and this is my story
I was born in a Muslim family, when I was a little girl
I always asked myself what am I doing in this world?
Because I just saw a cruel world and I didn't want it to be a part of it.
When i grew up , I started to be really bad
I was hurting a lot and I hurt people because of it I tried to kill myself three times
I was doing drugs. I was smoking
I was smoking anything like duo duons and thing I just wanted to destroy myself.
It arrives time where I wanted to go to Syria
Because I hated people who were not Muslim. I wanted to kill them.
I was bound to dangerous things you loved to see people dying
I love to see them bleeding I was seeing videos of decapitation and loved it in the internet
And yeah, it was my life. I wanted to go to Syria. A friend, she influenced me
She started to tell me that if I go to Syria. I will have what I don't have here and
She was talking to me about terrifying things
But she was talking to me like a mom. I didn't feel loved by anyone
I was weak, and she showed me love. I felt in the in the trap
I started to be alone every time every time I accepted to marry a man that I didn't choose
Through Ankara(Turkey) and stuff. I was just blind I started to have a patient
I love to read I love books and my mother knows it , so you know African moms
when they have something for free they took it everything.
So she brought me books and
It was the Bible in there and she didn't knew it
So I started to read the Bible to prove Christians that they were wrong
But I was wrong and the grace of Jesus Christ started to touch me I was reading things like pray for your enemies,
Like I love them and I was someone who wanted to kill them. I hated them,
I just wanted ya to kill them and
Intellectually I didn't wanted to to accept Jesus,
But my heart ,Jesus started to do a work in my heart and
It arrived a time where I had to explain to my family that I became a Christian
So I announced to my father, and this is where persecution started
They they didn't talk to me they stopped talking to me during months I was alone
In my room it was like a prison and
I have a past where there is persecution in depression suicide and stuff so if I stay alone
It's not good at all for me, but
Depression had me one time
not a second time, so I started to read the Bible a lot of reading and
Jesus was there with me. He was encouraging me the Holy Spirit was really there. I felt it
I knew it today my family abandoned me. I am alone I have no home
My family abandoned me, but I have a new family
And this family is all around the world and it's my family in Christ. This is the best gift God gave me
I just want to encourage you people Muslims or not to seek God with all your heart
Because God knows where you are. He knows your struggle
Even if you hate him he loves you I can say the grace of Jesus Christ all know
Like he says he saved me from suicide from depression from all of it all of this
As soon as the person get baptized
He loses to grit the old man dies and the new man rise
She came from a Muslim background
God has been drawing her. She's saying she wants to go with the ISIS before, the Gospel change her life
She has not received Holy spirit and speaking in tougue
I was baptized ....In the kick start and
I was really scared at first and also excited when I got baptized in water a demon manifested and
It was in me at all. I don't even remember what I did ...I had to see the video of my baptism and seems completely crazy
demon was crazy... that wasn't me
sorry
Go Go Go right now
talking in tongue .........
After the baptism I felt like heavy weight.....
completely disappeared and I was so excited to go and make disciples all my
Convictions in Christ they started to to be alive in me
I started to want to talk about Jesus to everyone
Even to the people who led me
to terrorism I wanted to go and see them and and
Tell them that they are wrong and that love is waiting for them
We are created in the image of God and
I really want Muslims to come to the truth and really know Jesus, because
He loved them no matter what they did no matter what they said , He loved them and
Muslims need Jesus
I know that muslims crazy for what I am saying, but I have been there where you are
I assure you
Islam is not the truth I assure you please
Look for God with all your heart
And you will find Him because I'm sure you don't have a personal relationship with God
Because maybe you are following rules
But with God it's an adventure. It's something really
sweet and that's what I am experiencing. Tomorrow I don't know where I am going
but I know , Jesus will take care of me and
I love peace and is encouraging
Sometimes I think about my family of course. It's it's hard of course it hurts
Because I was so used to be with them
I am NOT an orphan because my family in Christ adopted me and that came forth from Christ
I know it's coming in the family
But me my dad never told me that he loved me and I never told him that I loved him
Even if we know we know it in : Psalm 18 verse 1(Psalm 18 : 1)
When my heavenly father told me actually that he loves me
The first time I saw this really I cried, I was alone in my room and stuff, and I really cried
And it's just amazing