yum!
pineapple juice is underrated, i forgot to shake this you think i can shake it now? it said shake well before use.
i'll just wipe it on myself
*akward moment*
it's so hot in LA right now
and I think I've said this in every video, but i don't have AC so when it's hot
i just have to deal with it. so all my windows are open if you hear like weird sounds in the background, don't worry
it's probably just very extreme crimes happening outside of my city windows.
today I'm going to be doing some decorating I have this little corner here my reading corner
*hands*
it's pretty good, but i feel like it could be cuter
i've really wanted to do something with this side of the wall for a while. i haven't done anything
also, this plant is getting so large. so i needed to do something about it
less- let's move into a bigger frame for the decorating.
voila!
so this is my little reading corner
i eat here. i do a lot of stuff in this corner. actually, i really like it
it's like a lot of sunlight and the breeze comes in through all these windows and it's just like a really nice little area
but the other day
i had a dream and in the dream there was like stuff all
over these walls and they were like these little like plans and like all these like little things and then when I woke up,
and I like walked into the kitchen. I was like
????????,,,,,??,?,,,,,,,,????????????,,,
disappointed and confused. i was like, why isn't there all this beautiful stuff on the walls?
*drinks*
uNDERRATED
so I've spent kind of like the past week thinking about this and I have a plan for how i'm going to decorate this wall
first thing i want to do is put up this really cool photo that I have
my sister knows how much i love polaroids and she found this vintage issue of Life magazine
when the Polaroid first came out with dr
Edwin Land i just think it's the coolest thing ever and it's been sitting on my dresser for a while and i just don't want
it to get hurt. So I framed it. it's got the frame from Target for like 10 bucks
i'm gonna try to put it up. i'm thinking like
thinking like here.
i usually don't try to like nail things into the walls, but I actually just renamed my lease for this apartment
so i'm gonna be here for a whole other year with no AC and so i figured i was like well
shoot, let's just make this apartment cute. this apartment actually is pretty cute. AC is not cute though. that ain't cute.
i'm sweatin all the time sweating right now
(yeah? i guess idk slams hammer against the wall)
this is a whole magazine. this isn't just like one piece of paper
i put a whole magazine inside of a frame
but the thing that i think is so interesting about this are the advertisements inside of it on the back
there's an advertisement for cigarettes. ones that are like "don't listen to your doctor cigarettes are fun. Just the ads are just mind- blowing
tadaaaa
oh my god, it's so good. i can't really see. there's a really a bad reflection on it. it's so good. i love it
*drinks*
it's so hot
i asked on Twitter
what you wanted me to talk about in this episode of
decorating with Con and a lot of you guys asked me to talk about self confidence if i'm gonna be honest
i'm really not the most
self confident person. it's weird because you know
you would expect someone who gets thousands of people telling him that he is cute should feel cute
but like that just isn't the case at all and i think it's kind of unrealistic for people to be like
oh just love yourself. it's not like that. like that's not how it works
it's not just like oh well, since you told me to love myself like you're right
i'm gonna do it like that's just like not the truth. i feel like loving yourself is like a process. it's a long transition
it's not really something that just like clicks. i have months where i feel cute
i have months where i feel
hideous and i'm not gonna like sit here and lie to you and say like i always feel great
i'm just like sunshine and when i look in the mirror, i'm like you're adorable. that's just not true
and that's so unrealistic to try to preach to people that that's how you should feel every single day
like that's just not life
the thing that has really opened my eyes a lot to like being beautiful and
how to not hate yourself is something that's kind of morbid, but it's eye-opening
and so I'm going to say it even if it's a little bit morbid.
i work in the entertainment
industry and i meet a lot of different people every day and i can say deep down out of all the people on earth
the most beautiful people are usually the ones that are the most self-concious
i've met a fair share of models and they're like the pinnacles of like what human physical
attributes should be they're literally what is expected out of all humans and they've reached it they have it but they all like hate themselves
it's this bizarre thing. they're all super sad. they're all super self-conscious
yeah, according to most people's logic. they should be obsessed with themselves
they should be over the moon every time they look in the mirror, but that just isn't the case. that's just not true
and so it kind of brings me back around to this point that like, feeling beautiful is really
something that has to happen like within yourself and i know it sounds really cliche
but like it's just the gosh-darn truth every single one of these like classically beautiful people that i've met
prove to me that you can do everything you can have the perfect hair. perfect teeth. perfect body
you can do all that
but that isn't going to make you happy and that isn't going to make you love yourself on days when i'm feeling really
self-conscious and frankly on days when i just don't even like want to see my own face in the mirror
i have to remind myself that like there's no one who is being harsher on me than myself
that was a long spiel
back to decorating. this right here is my spider plant. i love my spider plant
i think that my spider plant is adorable, but my spider plant is getting very large
you can't really see but there's like there's a lot. it's very large. this type of plant like shoots down
more plants to the ground and then those plants that are grown shoot weren't so eventually they can be like 20 feet long
so what i like to do is i like to just cut off one of them every once in a while
just that way it doesn't get too overgrown. but the cool thing about spider plants is they can grow in just water as well
so I have this little
lost container thing that you can hang up on your wall that I bought on Amazon cuz I have two spider plants in here
i thought it might look cute and like really jungle-y if i
put another one right here and kind of just like built like tons of spider plants all around this whole entire like corner
spider plants sounds kind of like a spooky name, but i actually really love spiders the other day i showered with the spider
spiders really do a lot for the environment
so if you ever see one in your room try to take it outside, and if you can't take it outside yourself
then just call me and i will take it outside. don't smush that thing. don't kill it.
*loud car noise + shook conan*
maybe here. i'm gonna use my 3m hook
voila
now, we got to give this little dude a trim
i have these golden garden shears that my friend Hannah got me for my birthday and they're so cute and i love them
i think they're so large and i don't know what to do
i don't wanna get rid of this on cause it's so pretty but i think i'm gonna get rid of this one because
these ones have more
growing out of them and i kind of want to see how long it can get but also it like really fills it out
okay. so the trick is to just trim it like at the very very very very vERY bottom because it can just grow back
okay ready?
Tadaaaaaaa, look how good-
*laughs*
y'all. this is like a plant like this is one plant like this can grow into its own plant. i love them
i think they're amazing. i'm going to put you right here for a second. stay there
we need to fill your container up. in times where I'm like really lacking in self confidence
i noticed that like i don't even want
to like myself like i feel gross and i feel like there's no hope in me not feeling gross
so I'm just not gonna try and i'll just be gross forever and ever and that's that there's like little things
i think that like helped me kind of get out of that mood when i have these moods, they usually last
like a week where i just like the whole week. i just feel hideous and i just can't explain it
i don't know what starts it
i don't know why I get that way
but my friends notice that i get that way my close friend Maggie here whenever i get in that mood
she like looks at me. she's like Conan shut up, and she always tells me to buy a new outfit
i know it sounds kind of like stupid just buy a new outfit and you'll like yourself
but i think kind of going out of your way to
put something on you that makes you happy and makes you feel good and makes you feel confident
i think just that act of like taking care of yourself does a lot more for you than you really think i think if you
treat yourself like you don't deserve to even like yourself
then you probably won't like yourself and i noticed that once i get into some new clothes and
start listening to some new music and kind of like change my surroundings a bit
i tend to get out of the rut pretty quickly after that. let's fill this up
you can kind of see right here. but like there's like little roots right here and
they have to touch the water if you want them to start propagating
that's like what i want it to look like that does not look right
i think i have to trim this guy even more. spider plants are just so hardy
you could literally do anything to them and they just keep going like nothing's happening
it looks a little bit like a palm tree right now it's okay. she'll come along. plants take time
i think the biggest takeaway when it comes to self-love is just it's a journey it's not gonna happen overnight
don't be too hard on yourself when you have days where you just don't feel that great. think about like
shoving positivity in your face. it's just it doesn't work and it's and it's just unrealistic
there's nobody on planet earth who is just thrilled about their existence all the time
i guarantee it. validation from other people isn't gonna help you. it didn't help me. i hated myself when I was younger
i truly did not want to be myself but in the past year
i've really grown into myself and i feel very much more comfortable in my skin
and i don't think that that came from validation from people who watched the videos or who listened to my music or anything
i think that it came out of me just finally being like i don't care finally accepting the fact that being
superficially beautiful isn't going to change the way that i feel about myself is what kind of built my morale and also by like
finally letting myself be who i wanted to be not
making myself be who i thought i should be but like finally letting myself wear the clothes that i want to wear and do the
things that I want to do and do them well because i'm actually passionate about it
i think that is what really helped boost my self-confidence in the past year
there's a lot of little things you can do to kind of get yourself out of the dumps
Ii ike putting on outfits that make me happy and i like decorating my room to make it look nice and that kind of stuff makes
me feel happier
i think everyone else has little tricks and if you have any advice for anyone who is dealing with self-acceptance and self-love issues
please put them in the comments below. i think we could all learn from each other. i think that not feeling good enough
it's just part of the human experience, but it shouldn't be the only human experience
i'm super hard on myself and i get in these moods where i'm like, oh, i'm disgusting
but i know for a fact that in 30 years, i'm gonna look back on myself and be like
wow you were so stupid for even thinking that. you need to chill out and i think that all of our future selves are going to
look back on on our teenage years and realize how beautiful we really were and how insignificant these little things that we get
so obsessed with about ourselves how insignificant they really are and how much more important other things are like your
personality and like your brain and what you like to do and your hobbies and the way that you treat people all so
much more important things than
physical attractiveness and i can say with full confidence right now that i feel cute because this corner of my apartment is cute and it
made me happy decorating it. i don't always feel cute right now i do
i hope you enjoyed decorating this corner of my room with me. i'll see you guys next time
i need to decorate a corner of my room. god bless and goodbye
(song: The Other Side by Conan Gray)