- I wanted it to be like this,
and it was like this at first,
but like I said, nothing lasts forever.
So, you know, eventually becomes this.
And I gotta check up the deuces,
'cause you just ain't on the same time as me, man.
And it's like I say,
you could want something so bad for somebody,
like more than they want it for themselves, and it's like...
But that just ends up draining you.
So, you know,
once you shut that person out and just let them do them,
you know what I'm saying?
Let them walk.
Now you could grow in other areas and more blessings come.
So "Meagan Good" is about a young love, two best friends.
They plan so many big dreams together,
they plan to make it together.
But one friend makes it before the other friend
and they just notice a complete change
in the behavior and the friendship.
And they kind of just both went their separate ways.
When I'm recording, the hook always comes first.
I always have a hook.
I can't like finish a song without having my hook
because my hook is like gonna keep me on topic
and it's gonna let me know
what I need to like do in the verses.
Everybody be like, I'm doing real good,
but if you doing Meagan Good,
like you're really doing good, good, good.
Like good, like to the third power.
You get what I'm saying?
Like good, good, good.
Good, good, good, yeah, three goods.
So that's Meagan Good.
You know she that chick, so you just gotta like,
you know, you on a pedestal.
My dreams were to be financially stable,
I wanted to be on TV.
I wanted to be able to feed my mom,
support my mom, my family, friends.
But I don't have that friend anymore, like, you know,
he was one of the people I wanted to support, but it's like,
he was like, you know, just always negative.
For awhile, I was like in denial, like just like, no,
he can't be tripping, like we go way back.
But it's just like, you gotta like trust your gut.
My gut is never wrong.
People go to jail, people you love,
they go to jail and it's just like,
oh, you think you too good?
And it's like, no I don't, just trying to...
Like, if I wasn't making money,
I couldn't put any money on your books.
You know what I'm saying, I couldn't like support you.
So yeah, it's tricky.
'Cause before like you were making excuses like,
oh, I'm gonna get to it, I'll get to it.
I wasn't making any excuses, I'm at the studio every day.
I'm meeting the people I got to meet,
networking, doing everything I got to do.
But you know, you just were taking it for granted.
And once you were in jail,
that's time, you have all the time in the world.
Figure it out, put your plan together while you're in there
so when you come out, you know, you could figure it out.
But no, he didn't do that.
Sometimes people use death as a crutch.
You know, we all lose people, that's important.
Death is just as important as life.
So it's like, that's just what it is.
Like that's why I said no disrespect.
I didn't want to be like disrespectful,
but it's like, bro, you can't keep,
like every time something doesn't go your way,
you're just back to like, oh man, this is 'cause I,
you know, and it's just like, it's just not cool.
You gotta jab back, you know,
you gotta do it back.
I'm petty sometimes, so yeah,
I had to see how it felt and it felt good.
I don't regret it.
I think his time away, everything just unraveled,
you know, because like,
he was like always like right there with me,
but it's like, you know, the distance,
it gave me time to just really feel
and see everything and react and reflect.
And I was just like, you know what,
this isn't good for me anymore.
And then, you know, like you see like,
it's starting to affect work and it's like,
no, this is my shot right here.
I can't let anybody get in the way.
I don't need anybody else to love me,
I gotta love myself first.
It's the most important love.
In order to love anybody else,
you gotta love yourself first.
So yeah, I just think that's, I had to learn that
'cause I felt like if he didn't like me or love me,
I was like, man, I hate myself.
I don't know, I wasn't confident.
And I had to push him to the side
and like, you know, build it up myself.
He was like dead weight at a point.
And like, he was like on my shoulders just like ugh
and I was just so drained and like tired
and he was heavy and just like I said, like dead weight.
And then I had to like suplex him
and then like, he's like, just like laying there.
And then I like check his pulse to see if he's still alive.
And I'm like, okay, he's good.
Like, I didn't kill him.
And then I just walk away and now it's like,
okay, now I have more space on my shoulders.
So now I can like carry like my family, my friends,
you know, like, now I got...
You know what I'm saying, like, it's big (indistinct) now.
'Cause I was like becoming a small (indistinct) like that,
you know what I'm saying, like that.
You start to like, just like I'm the shit,
you know, you start smelling yourself like,
yeah, like I'm really that.
Like yeah, it's just like, you just start,
you start smelling yourself.
And when you smell yourself and you like, yo,
I'm really that, like, you know what I'm saying?
Like, it's like deep.