The whole time I thought when I was writing the words and writing the lyrics
I thought that it was just a story that I was telling about these two people that
meet each other, that bond over their hardships and struggles and life, but looking back after
that and especially now, it's very clear that it was my brain telling my heart, “You're
going through it right now.”
It was a very low swing in my life, and one of the hardest times of my life, and I luckily
was able to find the other end of it, but again, that song was just, I think, a first
reminder you know, it's alright.
The dude who produced our record is Christian Medice, he texted me like maybe a month ago
and was like, look what I found?
And as a voice note, wow, there was some bad ideas in there.
Just like hearing the lyrics, some of the lyrics I was spitting out.
Like oh my God, what are you doing?
If anyone was to ask me hey, what song should I listen to that would define your band, that's
definitely the song.
Everyone has gone through a break-up that's crushed them.
Everyone has had... been fired from a job or just...
Actually dealing with depression, and anxiety, or any kind of mental health.
Addiction, whatever it is.
Everyone's a little bit broken.
We're finally in an age where the conversation about mental health is happening.
That lonely feeling is just ... it's just daunting.
It's like it's just always hovering.
I could be surrounded in a room with a group of people who I know love me and have my back,
but there's still that heaviness that's like, " I shouldn't be here."
There's a million plastic people here, where's someone I could have a conversation
with?
Wanting and longing for that connection with another person on a deeper level.
Everything's like very surface.
I am so bad at talking to people when I'm sober.
Just getting the courage to chat up a girl that I might be interested in or whatever,
It's that liquid courage
I sometimes come off as like charismatic and confident, but I walk into a new place, I'm
terrified.
Because the first thought in my head is, " These people don't like me, these people don't want
me here. I need to leave."
The whole culture is just who can care less.
It's cooler to not give a fuck.
Like if you're so enthralled by this person, you wanna text them back right away, but,
" Oh, I can't.
I gotta wait a couple hours.
I gotta be cool."
It's like, " Who the fuck ... Why not ... Why?"
You put on this costume when you go out, you put on this armor, the best parts about you
are hidden.
Because you're scared of rejection.
Everyone is.
You don't wanna get told no, you don't wanna get shut down, it hurts.
Meeting someone and being able to crack those walls down and really getting to know somebody,
that's what that is.
Everyone's just floating through, trying to be the best person that they can be.
Everyone goes through the pain, everyone goes through the heartache, everyone goes through
loss.
Life is tough.
It throws you curveballs and sometimes they hit you in the face.
I think music is so important and it helped me so much at a young age and it still helps
me when I'm creating it to get things out.
And it's like my therapy.
That's all we could ask, is that our fans or whoever hears our music, can pull a little
bit of something from themselves,
and can find solace that they're not alone and feeling a way they're feeling.