i think that's the link that i just sent you guys on there
oh my god watch me send you a link to like pornhub i'm just kidding i'm totally kidding
totally good just stop right now um amberlynn only fans 2022. see through your flaws
cause i know that you got so much more amberlynn adult star moment oh no no no okay so one time
i had to know i had to know so you guys know like ssbbw like people who like girls my size
or guys i was confused so i did pornhub.com and i typed in ssbw and i was like oh so this is a thing
okay now you guys know my type of circus secret oh my god i'm done um
[ __ ] mary kill shane dawson trisha paytas jeffree star okay so we're just gonna make
this not as like crazy so we're gonna do kiss because we're not gonna okay let's do make out
relationship and punch so i am in a relationship with trisha paytas
i am making out with jeffree star and i am punching shane dawson this sounds about right
if you hooked up with trisha you'd make enough only fans money to retire i always think about
only fans i'm always thinking about only fans the fact that
you could literally make so much money on that is like crazy to me and since i'm an ssbbw ooh
i hate saying that i feel like i can make good money but i'm just totes not it's not that i'm
not like that because let's be real if i was skinny i would have only fans if i liked my body
i would have it only fans um i just know that i i believe that my body is absolutely repulsive and
disgusting so it's like why would i want to like show that like i'm good but i love all my fans god
an alr and beyonce collab yes that'll be happening in my shower tomorrow so if you
guys wanna wait never mind y'all don't get to go to that no that concert tickets are not for sale
what if we wanna attend no no no no no i will be in my birthday suit um yes please let's not talk
bad about becky she's not a bad person it's just like i feel like certain situations like they seem
so sketch but then when you hear the whole story you're like oh oh okay that makes more sense so
people are screaming outside why won't you talk about the becky situation when you
caused it by making her pay netflix she doesn't just pay okay i guess we could talk about this
real quick um becky pays for half of anything that we have together that does not include any of the
bills with this apartment she doesn't pay rent she doesn't pay electricity she doesn't pay internet
nothing like that i know a lot of people thought that she still did no is her name stolen elise
yes is she paying for a single penny of this apartment no that would be absolutely absurd she
does not live here anymore um she pays for half of like the phone bill because we're still in the
same phone plan we have to figure that out um it's not like a dire situation currently
you know like half of that and we have a lot of like subscriptions like netflix we have hbo
max like it all adds up to around 100 a month and obviously i can pay that but just like out of like
what's realistic here is like she's my ex so um it makes sense for her to pay half of those things um
but i think we're gonna stop sharing those things
so yeah i think a lot of people just got really confused with like what stuff we're splitting
i would never make her split something from this apartment because i know people were like
speculating that she still pays like half rent and stuff no that makes no sense um i just will
be about for becky because she does have a lot of bills currently like with the car and stuff and um
i refer becky as my last relationship because she was my serious relationship i was with
her for five years so whenever we're sitting here talking about my breakup my ex y'all are
talking about becky so am i so that is why i talk about her did that answer your question grace um
uh so glad you're overcoming the anxiety amber lynn oh thank you jade how are you
just know you have a group of people to support and defend you from the haters and negativity you
don't have to do it by yourself lexi thank you so much hi leanne hi magda how are you
girl did you get the golden buzzer oh heck yeah i did heck yeah i did i'm gonna shower tomorrow
morning and i think i'm gonna be um in concert with beyonce that's what i'm gonna do tomorrow
anyone started christmas shopping it's the end of october and i'm legit nearly finished
lollipop i love that um i haven't started i think i'm only buying for like three or
four people this year so it feels really good not to be super overwhelmed because when i was
with becky like we bought for all her family we bought for all our friends and i just figured
this year let's just like keep it to like my three closest people in my life three or four i'd say
but no i have not started christmas shopping at all actually um you probably are less likely to
crave natural foods rather than foods that are overpowered with hormones and sugar and have
perfumes to attract you to them i don't know about the perfume part but i definitely agree
with everything else you said for sure what are your thoughts on the funny situation with becky
i feel like um i just feel bad for her i don't really want to talk about it um i just know who
like becky is as a person and obviously like i've known her for five years so i know her personally
i know who she truly is as a person and cena has an outside perspective like i get it but i also
know her so i'm like it wasn't a scam so i don't know it's just like i don't want to
talk about it though it's really not my not my say to talk about it it's not my business if you will
i think i would be good at modern moder moderate moderating what am i okay moderating why couldn't
i say that that was that was different um i wanted to move to seattle but i'm now set on sacramento
it's warmer and has way more sun saving 200 a week until i have 10k to get there in one year
you got this like if you feel like you belong in sacramento go because let me tell you i feel
like i belong in seattle even if it's just for a couple years just to experience what i feel
like i am romanticizing is what people say um i'm gonna do it and i think you should go for it too
have you seen rocky horror i have i actually went to an actual rocky horror show story time okay
so i went with my ex like from forever ago i was like 19 years old um it's where you
like you watch the movie but also watch it being acted out and they ask you a question to figure
out if you've ever seen the movie before and they asked me what was the shower curtain in
the shower scene and i was like blue and they were like nope you're a rocky horror virgin
so i had to have a big v on my forehead because there's no shower scene right so if i would have
seen the movie then i would have known that so since i was a rocky horror virgin all of the
virgins had to go up on stage and spin this big wheel and whatever it landed on you had to do
and just remember at the time i had a girlfriend okay so i landed on make out with the person next
to you a literal stranger and i had to make out in front of all these people on a stage it was it
was embarrassing but it was like it was totes and experience that like i will forever remember um
and i will like a lot of people are going to disagree with this but i feel like rocky horror is
overrated like i know a lot of people are going to hate me for that but that is how i feel um i feel
like just watching the movie is not that enjoyable but actually going to a show like that was was fun
but i do feel like it's overrated a lot of people are saying that i'm glowing i don't know what
that means so if someone wants to explain that because i thought only pregnant people glowed
so i'm like don't know what that means deaf not pregnant so i don't know i feel like your
biggest issue is you put people before yourself self love is important love you love you hannah
and yeah i totally see that as a thing um i do put like if i like [ __ ] love you you will come
before me in like every single way and i i'm not sure how to change that aspect about myself
and i don't know if i want to like i want to be able to take care of myself and love myself but i
also want to be able to take care of like someone i'm in a relationship with and like love them
and it's like i do want to put them first because i feel like that's just what you do like when you
fall in love like you take a bullet for them like that's just the way i see things maybe that's
like a bad way to say things but um i don't know are you gonna have a sleepless in seattle moment
yes i totally am oh my god i'm actually i might meet a subscriber tomorrow she has been a friend
of mine for a little bit of time it's not been like that long actually but it's been some months
and we might meet tomorrow i'm very nervous about it so
your mouth looks dark like my lips i don't know it might be the um shadow
now you got me like freaking out like is it dark because like it's that hole
i'm gonna show you guys the inside of my mouth what is happening
um amberlynn i've been a stream queen for over six months and have nothing but nice to you
why is your mod freely putting me in timeout i honestly don't know you're gonna have to ask her
because i don't know like i didn't know what was happening you have to find someone who can
take care of themselves first before you take care of them oh yeah i totally agree with that
i feel your mood totally just brightened on this stream yeah i feel like better thank you guys i
appreciate that like i'm not gonna lie i'm about to like tell y'all i was gonna cancel live stream
um i was in such like a blah mood that i was like i don't want to rub that energy off to like other
people um because i was afraid that like if i came on here and i was like blah that y'all would start
feeling blonde it would just be like a little blob party and i just like wasn't wanting to do
that but then i was like i can't sit here and like constantly blame like mental health for skipping
livestream because there's so many people out there who go to work every single day who like
are going through a lot worse than i am so i put my big girl panties on and i said you know
what i'm gonna go in livestream your mouth looks pretty what them lips do baby girl
james i'm dead how can a mouth look pretty oh my god now i'm self-conscious
i get so awkward with compliments it's like so weird
um you could be a big red cherry for halloween who knows maybe i could can we go for a ride on
your standing desk lucas i'm done with you i'm literally done with you oh my god um
you hit those notes though amber oh my god i felt like a dying cat when i sing
i was belting the other day in the shower like just living my best life i think i thought i was
on american idol um and it was just really fun the judges said yes i went through to hollywood i did
um i lost my spot again why am i always doing this is a standing desk to help with weight loss the
standing desk is because i feel like i shouldn't be sitting as much as like i used to as you guys
can tell i'm doing a lot of standing in my vlogs like i just standing helps with stamina like 100
like i know there's people who are watching me who are my weight and like are immobile
um because you guys reach out to me and i'm so glad that you feel safe enough to do that but um
biggest advice literally stand for no reason literally stand for no reason um walk to the
bathroom for no reason and then walk back to where you were just start very small because trust me
two years ago oh my god y'all there are some things i've never told you
there are some things i've never told you and i feel like if i ever get in an even better
headspace and i am being successful i've only lost almost 70 pounds so i'm not i can't sit
here and say that i'm in a well enough spot to share some of the embarrassing things from
when i was at my heaviest um i feel like i need to do better i need to lose more weight and i need to
show that i am really doing this i know a lot of people think it's like a cycle moment like
there's a cycle one phase one or whatever it is that people say um i get why you guys think
that trust me i get that but once i can prove that that's not the case this time
then i want to open up more about some really hard things that i've never really shared before um
but back to what i'm saying just yeah standing for no reason and by getting a standing
desk i am able to stand for no reason does that make sense like i have stood at it to journal
um to be on my laptop so i'm not gonna sit here and say i stand all the time because
no i also like to sit at my desk too um i love that what could i okay what's a subject um flat
earth i was thinking of a subject i could talk about for 15 minutes and like all the conspiracy
like situations with flat earth i feel like maybe i could put together a presentation about it
maybe because there's some like things or like how the moon landing didn't happen anyways
what was that i'm so weird do you still have your hot harry potter halloween costume i don't
i don't know i don't keep any of my costumes maybe i should for moments like this where
i do want to dress up but like i didn't buy anything um he said that i got more
views when i couldn't leave my bed and i literally paused the video and i clapped
i said alex you're 100 correct and i'm glad you're not the only one who sees it
because when i couldn't leave my bed i was literal trainwreck city i was fatter i was grosser i
wasn't i was like unkept like let's be let's be for real here um so it was easier to watch
me like you couldn't have been bored because it's like i was such a train wreck um anyways yeah um
are you subscribed to any only fans so i used to be subscribed to trisha paytas and dana you
say i make you nervous a tragedy i'm a beautiful disaster a reckoning you wonder how i got this way