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Good That You Don’t Believe In Me
Recently I heard you say that we have to fight our fears.
I don't believe you.
For years I tried to fight my fears and they became bigger and stronger.
Now, if fear comes up,
I go into it totally defenseless,
stay with it and go through with it
without doing anything – not even judging the situation.
I've realized that fear is a tremendous energy,
and sometimes I even enjoy this energy
– like diving from the three-meter board into Krishnamurti lake.
Can you speak about fighting fear and facing fear?
It is good that you don't believe in me.
I am relieved,
because if you believe in me, sooner or later you will take revenge.
But
if the thing had stopped there – that you don't believe in me
– everything would have been perfectly good.
You say,
I have said fight fear.
I cannot conceive myself saying that, ever.
Fight is not
my teaching.
You must have heard something
which has not been said.
In fact, what you are doing
is what I have been teaching:
face fear,
encounter it,
be a witness to it.
That's the only way to overcome,
and not only to overcome but
to release all the energy
that is hidden in fear,
for better purposes,
for more creative
things.
Everything has energy: fear,
anger,
jealousy,
hate.
You are unaware of the fact
that all these things are wasting your life.
Your energy is leaking from so many holes.
This way you are going to become, sooner or later, bankrupt.
In fact, most people become
bankrupt by the age of thirty.
After that there is nothing.
posthumous life,
dragging on
somehow towards the grave.
It is good
that you have
tried to face your fear. Do the same with anger,
do the same with jealousy,
do the same with hatred.
And another significant point to remember:
if you
witness
anything –
fear, anger, hate –
they will disappear,
leaving a tremendous amount of energy in you
which you can use for creativity.
You will have to use it,
the leaking holes have disappeared;
you will be overflowing with energy.
But if you witness your love,
compassion,
kindness,
humbleness,
they will not disappear.
They also have tremendous energy,
but the more you witness them,
the more they will become strong in you;
they will
overpower you, overwhelm you.
So this is the criterion
to decide what is right and what is wrong.
If by witnessing, something disappears, leaving all its energy to you,
it was wrong.
I don't
give you
ready-made
labeled things – this is wrong and this is right, this you have to do,
and this you have not to do.
I don't give you ten commandments.
I give you the whole secret of spiritual life:
witness.
If the thing disappears
and leaves a great amount of energy behind it,
it was wrong.
If by witnessing,
the phenomenon becomes even bigger,
love becomes more Himalayan,
that means
this is the good you have been searching for.
If you become more sensitive to beauty,
to poetry,
that means
your love has blossomed.
And all the energy that has been left by fear, anger and hate,
will be taken over by your love,
your sensitivity,
your compassion, your creativity.
This is the whole alchemy
of changing
base metals
into gold.
This is what alchemists were really doing,
but because
of Christianity
they could not say it openly.
This is one of the sad
things about religions,
that rather than helping really religious people,
they prevent them.
So the alchemists in Europe
had found a device to deceive the pope
and his agents.
They had small labs
in which there were many tubes and bottles, many-colored
things,
stoves.
It gave the appearance that they were doing something
material,
that they were scientists,
that they were not mystics –
because the mystic was dangerous to the pope,
the mystic was dangerous to organized religion.
These people were just trying to change
base metals into gold.
That was perfectly good.
In fact, if they succeeded,
then they would be in the service of the church.
So with the blessings of the pope....
But this was only a facade.
The reality was something else which was going on inside.
It was just
the superficial mask.
of being scientists
They were not doing anything;
not a single iota
a base metal was changed into gold in thousands of years.
Can't you see?
All those bottles and tubes and water
with many colors passing from one bottle into another –
that was simply
to hide behind.
And who is not interested in changing
base metal into gold?
Everybody was interested.
Alchemists were respected
for their
facade.
What they were actually doing
was just
of a different dimension.
They were trying
to change
fear,
anger,
hatred,
into love, compassion,
creativity,
sensitivity.
They were trying to bring
a transformation in the soul of man.
So this is the basic alchemy:
you watch,
witness
without any judgment.
There is no need of any judgment.
That which is wrong
will disappear,
leaving a great energy behind.
And that which is good
will become bigger
and will start absorbing the energies that have been left;
When everything, that is ugly in you
has left
only a great
fragrance
of love,
light,
and laughter remains behind.
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