hello good morning so welcome to day three i don't know why i said five day five some
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hey hey what is it some kind of sick prank i get the greatest thing ever just have it take it away
why did you do this to me god next time you're gonna get my hopes up could you please take me
to a grease monkey because i like to get lubed up before i get huh some loot would be nice or
at least a courtesy link god how about a little courtesy lick next time you decide to [ __ ] me
welcome to day three of weigh-ins what i ate today step count daily vlogging welcome welcome
so i'm still at my friend's house i stay the night i don't know um i did bring my scale i
remember to do it because i'm taking this [ __ ] seriously we're doing these 10 days and sadly i
weighed in at 494.4 you know i understand why i gained weight because when i'm in the car for
long periods of time my lymphedema does swell there's a lot of water retention but i had a
lot of sodium yesterday so that's a 3.6 gain and i know exactly what caused that i have been drinking
tons of water i noticed for the rest of the night i'll barely pee that means i'm holding on to all
this water i'm not giving excuses hey i'm not gonna lie on the weekends i usually gain weight
due to how much i'm in the car because that is like the most that i spend in the car and i do
swell a bit in the car it is what it is so anyways now that that's done i'm actually wearing two
different earrings right now because i'm trying to decide do i want to wear these hearts or do
i want to wear red hoops i think i'm going to go with the hearts i'm just wearing all black today
i got my new cherry cardigan on i'm also deciding do i want to wear my hair down or in a side braid
i want to say side braid because i'm not gonna lie i'm kind of hot also i literally
only got three hours of sleep last night because my friends fell asleep my girlfriend
fell asleep i was not tired at all um it was like 3 a.m so i finished this book um ma'am i
the first half was good the second half wasn't it's about these five teenagers they're the last
like they're like 18. they're the last people on earth why so that was fun so for them end up dying
and in like gruesome ways and it's because a friend of theirs
or was a friend was a witch and any story that she wrote down would come true and supposedly all
these people did something bad to her so she was like killing them in like a weird way and then the
main character the girl was pregnant and but turns out she was actually pregnant with the friend no
so that means i am now moving on to this one which is the thousandth floor by katherine mcgee
so i think i'm gonna go braid my hair and i will catch up with you guys later okay so the
first thing i ate on this day here was a homemade from my friend cranberry muffin i'm not much of a
muffin gal unless it's like chocolate or chocolate chip but this was so good and the fact that it
was homemade love that um and the calories came out to 210. so a little update um we took a nap
a three hour nap at my friend's house so that was the situation thankfully they napped as well so
so right now we are actually about to go to goodwill because we have a bag of clothes that
i'm trying to get rid of so we're gonna go do that we might actually go into goodwill i have
not been into a goodwill so we're gonna do that the only thing i've ever like truly bought from
a goodwill with books but that was years ago when i lived in virginia and now thinking about it kind
of gives me the creeps because like i don't like buying used books as much as i used to
it just kind of creeps me out i don't like going to libraries anymore because
like everyone's touched the books because people read on the toilet let's be real you
know how many books he's probably held from the library that someone like literally got their
diarrhea on and we just don't even know it so that's that oh there's that indian restaurant
wait has it been there this whole time i thought it was down younger oh goodwill's over here baby
sorry i'm sorry i was vlogging i wasn't paying attention she doesn't know the ways of the world
but um i don't know well goodwill we are here for you all right let's do this
so there's a little clothing donation section yes what do you guys think about that wow
okay so the next thing i am eating is a venti chai tea from starbucks which is
350 calories and then just in here is a uh birthday cake pop which is 170 calories
okay so the next thing i ate was lunch the top picture is how it looked before i ate it bottom
pitcher is how it looked after i ate it i had tons left over but from what i did eat it was
630 calories so this was a shrimp and crab alfredo pasta it honestly wasn't even that good i'm gonna
be honest but you know that's okay as an appetizer it was like these weird mozzarella situation type
deals and up top you can see that's how it looked but on the bottom you can see that i only took
a small piece of one which i totaled it to 300 calories so now on to dinner it was this place
where they had mexican and japanese food so as like a little moment i wanted to try my first
street taco ever so i had half of a steak street taco absolutely obsessed now i know what i'm gonna
be getting from now on and then up top the photo is but the top photo is what my food looked like
when i first got it bottom photo is how much that i had left over so this is like hibachi it
is a steak and vegetable situation type deal with some rice underneath it um i only ate about half
but all of it that i did eat came out to over a thousand calories but this meal right here
delicious and i didn't feel too bad after eating it and i'm sure people are like oh my god that
doesn't look like it would be over a thousand calories for what you did eat but the reason why
is because from the bottom pitcher i want to say about two hours later i did end up eating like a
little bit more of that because i was a little bit more hungry so i wanted to make that clear
that's why it came out to so many calories okay you guys so we are back home i am suffering with
really bad anxiety right now um it's making my chest hurt like i'm super nauseous and
i don't know on the way home like i have car anxiety definitely has gotten so much better
um because i thoroughly feel like she's just a great driver what no
becky's getting pulled over hi how you doing i'm doing all right as soon as i looked down and saw i
was going that fast and i saw you turn around i'm like i'm i'm pulled over i appreciate that i'm so
sorry i got you at 78. yeah i'm so sorry i didn't even realize how fast i was going and um it helps
but i started hyperventilating in the car at a massive anxiety attack um but it wasn't because
we were in the car it's just i'm having a lot of anxiety and i i don't know a lot of tears a lot of
fear just like if you suffer with anxiety then you understand normally this is something i would hide
um just out of fear for judgment i have shared um past situations with my anxiety um before talking
about my panic disorder i have filmed myself after an anxiety attack because i thought it was going
to help myself that i was going to help others and people just tore me apart because of it um
there's a famous quote uh mental things are scary i feel like i need to actually share this because
i need people to know that like mental things are scary like not being able to control like
depression about being bipolar and it's just like all those things like not being able to
control your mind sometimes or your emotions or anything this is one of the most scariest things
in the world when in reality sorry i have a bunch of fur on me i don't know it kind of just like
some of you made a mockery out of my mental health and it sucks i don't know i just feel
like in the last year especially i stopped being like as open as i can with you guys and
i'm trying especially in these 10 days of videos i am trying to talk to you guys more trying to
make my content a little bit longer being more open about things i have gotten people you know
i've gotten messages from people reaching out to me saying like thank you for talking about
your mental health thank you for talking about um your exforiation disorder thank you for just
opening up about random things because it helps me et cetera and that is literally a goal um i
wanted to talk to you guys about what else i ate um how many calories i've had today etc etc so
so most of everything that i showed you today regarding pictures i'm sure i already talked
about this um i majority of everything i didn't even finish so i think i mentioned that so i just
obviously love the calories for what i ate um that goes for anything obviously
common sense so um i have eight one more thing since i last saw you guys on the way home i did
get an oreo mcflurry but i only ate half so it was 335 calories today's calories are embarrassing
it's horrible but this is this is what we're going for here so i have 361 calories today
and i liked this i liked vlogging today in the past i would not have logged the calories at all
i would have looked at it at a very different perspective than i am right now
um because with all my meals i did not finish them so if i wouldn't have counted my calories i would
be sitting here telling myself wow and berlin you did really good i could see you um losing
weight tomorrow or losing weight within the next week nope nope because i wouldn't have taken into
consideration how many calories i actually ate um it was a lot of calories yeah that's
cool like i didn't finish my meals a lot of the meals were huge portions i i get kind of
talkative after massive breakdowns um like anxiety attacks and stuff once i start like
calming down after them um it's been about an hour since my anxiety attack maybe a little longer so
now i'm just like massively talkative but um i don't remember what i was saying oh my god oh yeah
it's like a really big misconception that like fat people like can eat so much at once like i
think 600 pound life does that um they exaggerate their content 100 percent like they exaggerate
how much people eat going to be answering the question of am i trying to be on
my 600 pound life if 60 pound life offered you a spot on their show would you accept yes
i'm trying to gain weight so i can apply to be on my 600 pound life i do get full fast i just like
to eat a lot throughout the day and it's just like constant and like when i binge that's when
it's like really bad but um when i'm like hanging out with friends and stuff and we're like ordering
food like we all order similar things and we all eat similar amounts so i find it very just like
i don't know the whole thing is weird because like today especially like everything i eat today
is like practically the same [ __ ] that like everyone i was with ate today so
i pretty much counting calories for them as well but what i'm trying to say is like i'm proud that
like i didn't finish all of my meals because my calories would have obviously been doubled like
ma'am okay so i forgot to mention i did take over 4 000 steps and that was without even trying and i
burnt almost 5 000 calories like okay look at me being a boss sorry i'm just like so rambling is
this like manic land i don't know i've been taking my medicine and being truly on track with that so
i don't know i didn't get much sleep last night when that happens i get kind of like slap happy
i get a little loopy um so i'm super excited to like hopefully get some like quality sleep tonight
um yeah i'm an honest i will see you guys tomorrow for day four we are finally back home so i can
go more in like my routine it's every weekend i don't lose weight
during the weekend it's like during the week lose some weight gain it all back on the weekend
i need to figure out how to stop that cycle so i'm gonna go now um i am gonna cross my fingers
for a better night i want this anxiety to go away because this heaviness in my chest is not fun so i
hope that you guys have been enjoying my videos so far with this whole like what i eat today moments
anyways thank you guys so much for watching and i'll see you next time bye ice in my veins i've
been driving this train years in this lane there's no stop in this flame cause i came to the game and
i changed it to play how i like rearranged it to my own domain yeah i got what it takes
made lots of mistakes taking shots skipping breaks feeling lost feeling great popping off singing
straight never stop never changed all the squad here to play and i've got something to say yeah