I cannot even pinpoint it, so I don't know if it is necessary to pinpoint anything.
To say, "Okay, this is comes from that or this is the fear about that."
I cannot even express what it is.
Is it needed? Is it necessary that I have to have a reason in the mind
for this lump that I feel here.
Or can I just... When I just look at it, it doesn't go away, it keeps on just staying here; just being here.
This really big black thing right here. I can't feel right here.
Interesting how
healing is
about exposure and oftentimes
the mind seems to be a mystery because of the
unconscious beliefs, the decisions are being made continuously, but because of the unconscious beliefs,
you are not even aware of the decisions and close down.
For the decision to have an contraction feeling.
So to cultivate the healing, I would say the willingness to
start to just to open up.
That's why we have expression sessions, but it could be in group with a close friend, or could be journaling.
It could be, anyway.just a willingness to start to get in touch with the feelings and the thoughts is a huge
step towards healing
and It's like a good practice to do that. That's why when
we feel contracted and close friend calls and say hey how you doing, it's more symbol
to our mind that we're willing
To start to open up.
Just ever so slightly even if a friend just calls and see how's it going today? Well I'm not feeling so good.
I'm feeling a little contracted
You know then you start talking about it and amazing miraculous things happen when we start to move in that direction.
Just the willingness to open up, to heal.
So you might say that it's your life's devotion and
the mystery will dissolve away as you dive into the practice and the willingness.
And you don't have to kind of try to look way into the future or even try to figure out how it's gonna happen.
That's part of our old
analytical way, you know tell me how to get from A to B.
But just the willingness to do that. And also it's it's quite common when you come together in
communities and groups like this where those kind of things will happen. You're joyful
you're open you're flowing and then suddenly the contraction comes, but instead of trying to analyze it,
figure it out, or even kind of do a fix or go for a quick fix.
Just to be able to relax into it for a moment and allow it to come is so huge.
Absolutely so huge and we have just seen it over and over and the people that we've worked with.
And you just let everything come up in this seeming situation. It's part of the emptying.
Like you say, I probably have some concepts of enlightenment, and it's more than a probably.
You know it's coming and to the extent that you can let it up, then you can start to see that your state of mind is a decision.
And that if this thing is repeated. Someone telling you their enlightened or something like that.
You feel fear or something uncomfortable with that.
Then, it's always just coming from an interpretation,
and if your just willing to let that up and out.
Because that's with our community those
have a deep sense of presence just comes and comes and comes and then
I'll hear things like there is no Armel or I don't even will even relate to
those thoughts of person hood, or those thoughts that seemed to be a story, the story just dissolves.
Good stories bad stories.
Awkward stories, happy stories. It’s just emptiness. Presence is so strong.
That that's really what enlightenment is about. It’s just presence. And the mind becomes very very still in that presence.
Even trying to put story on it. People ask me at what point in your life’s journey did you become enlightened.
I can’t process the question.
Because it's like you know like what the bleep, what’s the miracle status of number 5.
What's the marital status of the number five, is the same
at what point in your life, and at what point in linear time on the timeline did you become enlightened?
You know it's not that.
It never was that, it's just pure presence.