(00:00): Do you ever miss or grieve your old life as
in pre awakened life?
I'm grateful for the journey I'm on, but I often find myself reminiscing on the simpler
days when I was carefree and living in ignorant bliss.
That's normal.
Right.
(00:20): So to answer the question initially, do I,
do I grieve sometimes the older days are my old life?
Uh, no I don't I don't at all.
And, and the reason that I say that is not because my life after awakening became so
much better to a point where there was no more pain or no more suffering or no more
challenges or anything like that.
That's, that's actually not what happened at all.
I've had many challenges and many issues occur after, uh, after my awakening.
So as soon as you get on your soul path, it doesn't mean that you're not gonna face challenges.
But the reason that I say I don't really grieve for my old life is because when I look back,
I was just, so I was so blocked.
I was so repressed.
I was so traumatized.
I had so much weight of unhealed trauma on top of me that I wasn't really living.
(01:12): I can't even, I can't even call it living.
It felt more like I was in a zombie state, um, or that I was half alive.
And so when you live like that, life is just so heavy.
It's so monotonous.
There's not a lot of joy.
So when I look at, at that past version of me, um, I don't really grieve.
The only thing I grieve about that past version of me is I look back and I just feel sad for
her, right?
Like that old version of me, that person that was really unhealed.
And when you walk the earth as, as an unhealed unawakened person, you end up hurting yourself,
but you end up hurting others also, it's, it's kind of a, um, you end up creating this
collective wounding around you too, because you're operating from a wounded unawakened
state.
And that tends to create more, uh, more pain around you and within you also.
(02:01): So, so I do grieve, not grieve in the sense
that I miss that person, but grieve in the sense that I feel sad for that, for that earlier
version of me, but everything had its place.
I don't, I don't regret anything.
My path is, is kind of unfolded as it was supposed to.
Now, what I do wanna also address in this question is that it's, it's normal for people,
for people to grieve.
Okay.
And a lot of times I wanna get into a little bit of, of a little nugget on this question.
A lot of times when people ask me this question, you know, like when they're, when they start
reminiscing on the older version of themselves and they start thinking to themselves, you
know, I was much better off that older version because at least I was in my ignorant bliss
and I was doing my life.
(02:44): And, you know, none of these spiritual issues
were coming up.
Um, you know, my life was a little bit more, uh, it was, it was simple in that sense, that
may be true.
But a lot of times when people start to reminisce about the past version of themselves, it's
because they're any particular state in their current present moment, that's uncomfortable.
Okay.
So no one would ever, uh, no one would ever ask me this question.
If they're in the place of a lot of joy and a lot of happiness, right?
Like nobody would submit this question.
If they're in a lot of joy and a little in, in a lot of happiness, because if you're filled
with bliss and joy and X disease, you're not reminiscing on a past version of you, right.
You start to reminisce on a past version of you.
If your present moment is uncomfortable in some way.
(03:27): And so I wanna address that part of the question,
cuz I think it's worth it right?
When you start to reminisce on an older version of you on, on thinking that life you've used
to be more simple.
When you were UN awaken, then just take a nice deep breath and start to explore what
you're going through right now.
Maybe you're going through a phase that's difficult because there's trauma coming up
or there are issues coming up or maybe for a lot of us.
This happened to me for a while.
When I, when I started to go down the spiritual path, my sensitivity started to get more and
more acute.
I was already super sensitive before my awakening, but then afterwards I became exponentially
more sensitive and it was sometimes hard to deal with a new level of sensitivity that
I had in me.
So, so I was going through some of these difficult phases and some of these challenges.
(04:13): And that may be happening to the person that
submitted this question and to anyone who finds themself, reminiscing on their pre awaken
self, their preed personality just kind of assess where you are right now.
What chances are, if you're reminiscing on the PA in the past, you're uncomfortable and
you're present moment.
So ask yourself, why am I uncomfortable?
What's going on with me?
What am I thinking about?
What am I feeling about?
What is there trauma?
Are there difficult emotions coming up that I don't like to deal with and go into those
emotions?
Okay.
So surrender to those emotions, go into those states.
All right.
You have to remember that your way to joy and more lightheartedness is through whatever
pain you're going through.
It's always through, it's not around you can't get your way around healing.
You have to go right through it.
Okay.
(05:00): So take a nice deep breath and you can even
start to coach yourself in the present moment.
So you can say things like, although it's uncomfortable where I am right now.
I know that I have to get through this.
I know that I'm going to get through this.
I know that I'm healing.
I know that this too shall pass and, and things are gonna get better.
You see, start to kind of coach yourself, to allow yourself to just be in self-acceptance
where you are in the present moment.
And you'll notice that if you start to do this, the reminiscing on the past will start
to dissipate because you notice that your power is in the present moment.
And you, if you move through that discomfort, move through it.
And usually people say, well, how do you, how do I move through uncomfortable, uh, situations
or uncomfortable emotions?
(05:43): You go right through them.
You feel them, you accept them.
You sit with them, you acknowledge them.
You don't run away.
You don't try to go around.
You go right through.
Okay.
And what's gonna happen is as you do this, your energy's gonna lighten up and gonna lighten
up and you're gonna start to feel more joy.
And then pretty soon the reminiscing is gonna disappear.
remember no matter what you were going through before, and no matter what you're
going through now, life is always, always better when after you're awakening, because
you're on your soul path now, whereas before you may have been lost.
So even if you face challenges and difficulties right now in your awaken state, always remember
that at least you're alive and at least you're on your soul path.
And at least you can feel more in this awaken state than you did before.
And that is always better.
Even if it's temporarily uncomfortable to get through some things.
I hope this helps.