Ya Rab.
Forgive me for not being able to do more.
Forgive me for those nights that I stayed sleeping.
Forgive me for those days that I was too lazy to volunteer.
Forgive me for those times I held back
what I knew I could do for your sake.
Forgive me for those times I lost my temper
even though I knew that your pleasure
was going to be there for me if I would've held it.
Forgive me, oh Allah, for not doing more.
SubhanAllah.
One of the things that happens
when you connect to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala
the way that you do in these intense seasons
is that the relationship becomes more personal.
It's not just anymore about reward and punishments.
It's a connection to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala himself
And just as the greatest gift in Paradise
is being able to see Him day and night
the greatest gift in this world
is to develop a relationship with Him,
to where your greatest joy becomes His joy,
and your greatest disappointment becomes when
you displease Him.
Abu al-Darda RadiAllahu ta'ala Anhu
And he was passing away, he said,
"If there were three things, not in this dunya,
I wouldn't have been able to live in this world."
Now if you think about the things you enjoy most,
most people will mention material things.
Most people will mention,
you know, things that they used to have,
things that they used to do for fun
Abu al-Darda RadiAllahu Anhu said,
"It was three things that made this life enjoyable."
He said, "The joy of spending a hot summer noon
in thirst because of fasting."
And he said, "The joy of prostrating
before Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala
in the later part of the night."
And he said, "The joy of sitting in the companionship
of pious people whose conversation is full
of reflection and wisdom, like fruits from a fruit garden."
This is what he said was his joy in this dunya.
What do you think would be his joy in the Hereafter?
And I ask you,
after you worship Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala intensely
have you ever felt a joy greater than that worship?
And when you leave this world,
don't you think you'll miss it?
Because you have an opportunity
to please Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala
and that door is closing and closing and closing.
And you want to meet Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala
having put forth the best of what you could put forth.
And SubhanAllah!
This is true even of the best of people.
Abdullah ibn Mas'ud RadiAllahu ta'ala Anhu,
he was asked by his students
about the ayah
Wa laa tahsabannal lazeena qutiloo
fee sabeelillaahi amwaata;
bal ahyaaa'un 'inda Rabbihim yurzaqoon
that think not of those who are killed
in the way of Allah as dead.
Rather, they are alive, finding their sustenance
in the presence of their Lord.
So they asked Abdullah ibn Mas'ud radiAllahu ta'ala Anhu
what is the meaning of this ayah?
And he said that the Prophet SallAllahu 'Alaihi Wasallam
said the souls of the shuhada
live in the bodies of green birds
and they have their nests
in chandeliers hung from the throne of the most merciful.
They eat from the fruits of Paradise
whenever they want to.
They eat from the fruits of Paradise
from wherever they like.
And then they nestle in these chandeliers.
And once their Lord cast a glance at them
and said, do you want anything?
They said, Ya Rab, what more shall we desire?
We eat the fruit of Paradise from wherever we like.
And then Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala asked them again.
And when they saw that Allah was persistent in asking them,
do you want anything?
They said, Ya Rab, we wish that you could return our souls
to our bodies so that we could be slain
in your way again and again and again.
And when Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala saw
that they had no need beyond that,
Allah Azzawajal left them to their joy in heaven.
The Prophet SallAllahu 'Alaihi Wasallam said,
no one who enters Paradise would love
to return to this world,
even if he could have everything on earth,
nothing would make you want to come back from this world.
Nothing that could be possessed
would make you want to come back.
He said, except for the shaheed, the martyr,
who would wish to be returned to this world
and be slain 10 more times
for the sake of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala,
not because they like the blood,
not because they like the gore of it,
not because they like persecution,
not because they like to be killed,
but because of what they see of Allah's mercy.
Like Allah is so worth it.
Allah deserves so much from us
and it's just out of love
for Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala
that a person would be willing to sacrifice everything
for Him at any point.
And Rasullulah SallAllahu Alaihi Wasallam himself, he said,
I would love to be a shaheed in Allah's cause
and then be resurrected
and again, be a shaheed,
and then be resurrected,
and then again be a shaheed,
and then be resurrected
and then again be a shaheed.
This is not about loving death.
This is about loving sacrificing
for Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala.
Because you see the sweetness of sacrifice
and the generosity of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala
of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala in Paradise.
And the regret of missing Jannah
is the regret of the people of hellfire.
The regret of the people of Jannah
is that they could have done more for
Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'aala
You see, you get to a point
in your relationship with Allah
that you enjoy doing for Him
because you love Him so much.
That doesn't mean you don't want His reward.
That means the greatest reward is
in knowing that you are pleasing Him.
And your only regret is
that you'll never be able to do for Him
what He does for you.
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