- Becoming a YouTuber.
It's not what you all think.
You can end up developing some demons with it.
If you want to become quote, unquote Famous,
I don't think that should be your number one goal.
I think your number one goal should be,
I want to create awesome content.
And if fame is a by-product, then so be it.
But just be aware of what that by-product is,
and be aware that it's not gonna be all money, bitches
(laughs)
all the other stuff.
(slow music)
When it came to Help! Oh Well, and how true it was,
unfortunately it was incredibly true to life.
I was kind of down, I was in a sort of dark place,
just now knowing how to, in a way handle the
quote, unquote Fame that I was receiving.
And meeting all these people who were seeing me
in like a sort of higher than average light,
and trying to do everything they can to either
one, be my friend
two, work with me and make money and all that stuff,
and three, in a way use me.
Unfortunately, it just happens when you get numbers.
Everybody nowadays just wants to be the famous person.
I ended up making Help! Oh Well, to sort of like,
direct that sadness into something creative
because, I'm honestly a strong believer of
the best of content is created in momentary truth.
♪ Help! Oh well ♪
♪ Everybody going up ♪
♪ But I'm going to hell ♪
♪ I don't even give a fuck ♪
♪ What I'm doing who cares ♪
♪ I've been thinking that I'm nuts ♪
♪ But who isn't I stare ♪
♪ I stare screaming ♪
It was basically me asking for help
and then sort of giving up, unfortunately.
I'm going to hell while also experiencing my own hell
because I still feel like the whole fame thing is
a double edge sword where it's like,
yes, I'm living my dream, but it comes
with all of these downsides.
And sort of feeling dirty in a way from being
quote, unquote famous.
Sometimes, the industry can be toxic.
I'm part of it,
I'm part of that toxicity in a way,
and I sometimes just brush it off,
say oh well, who cares,
and just continue to do the things that I do.
♪ It started on a Sunday ♪
♪ And I was just doing nothing but ♪
♪ Partying it up with some people I knew enough ♪
♪ I'm just looking at things ♪
♪ Their sweaty bodies go on scheming ♪
♪ They be praising me I'm dreaming ♪
♪ 'Cause I made it now I'm something at least ♪
The first party that I've gone to,
the first sort of big celebrity party, YouTuber party,
I don't know, it felt great at first.
I was getting a lot of praise,
and people were telling me,
basically telling me I'm famous,
and I'm thinking that I'm famous,
and I'm like oh man, this is so awesome.
I'm living my dream.
You know that's the first part of the sword,
but then the double edge,
it's where I started to feel,
the downsides were coming with fame.
Where people were telling me these great things,
but also seemed like they wanted something from me.
♪ I think I am ♪
♪ That's what they say I am ♪
♪ Not playing, man ♪
♪ I'm just doing everything ♪
♪ That I fucking can ♪
♪ I don't even know ♪
♪ What's just going on ♪
♪ But they thinking, ♪
♪ Looking at me like I am money ♪
♪ Shut up ♪
♪ And now they speaking fake ♪
I kind of have to, instead of view it as like this,
sort of constant, oh people are always trying to use me,
but more of like, people do like my stuff,
people do want to work with me.
And I just sort of have to get past that sort of
awkward phase of if this person sees me in a higher light,
eventually when we become closer friends,
that sort of higher light will be brought down,
versus them constantly you know,
saying all these nice things just to be my friend,
and doing things just to be my friend,
it'll just, you know the level field,
whatever, it'll level out (laughs).
♪ So I'll be drinking it up ♪
♪ And then some hinting I'm done ♪
♪ They nincompoops who keep talking ♪
♪ I'm hostage ♪
♪ But sponsors paid my ransom ♪
♪ I'm just an artist ♪
♪ Astonished by all the offers that coming ♪
♪ But if I'm honest, ♪
♪ Now harder to start a fucking convo ♪
If I don't like their product, then I won't do it.
If I do like their product, however,
I've been offered a sponsorship where
I won't say who it is, but I really enjoyed
the thing they made.
They offered me $100,000
to do their thing.
And this is kind of why I don't do sponships.
So, it's a lot of money, right?
Incredible amount of money, could have helped
push a lot of products.
The problem was they gave me a huge list of like, Nos.
What not to do, what I'm not allowed to say,
specific things that they wanted to put in my mouth.
I wasn't allowed to basically give an honest review
or talk about it how I want to talk about it,
or even fricking make it creative.
And it sort of pissed me off,
so I turned it down.
I don't know, if they don't let me do kind of what I want,
like have fun with it, then I won't do it.
♪ Am I having fun? ♪
♪ Yes I am but damn ♪
♪ I'm also not ♪
♪ Jeez people going on ♪
♪ And thinking that fame's nothing but ♪
♪ Ducking problems ♪
♪ Assuming some wealth ♪
♪ But they summon dozens of ♪
♪ Crummy demons ♪
♪ They done and gon' fuck themselves ♪
♪ As they come up screaming ♪
Becoming a YouTuber, particularly,
a lot of people just think that you're
gonna become incredibly wealthy.
You're gonna become incredibly popular,
a lot of people are gonna like you,
all your problems are just gonna basically vanish.
They're gonna go away,
but I get paid enough to afford some help
with making my videos and groceries and bills (laughs).
But, I'm not insanely rich like people think.
♪ Friends are coming someday I said ♪
♪ Fame hits gained some ♪
♪ Dummy I am lost them ♪
♪ Oh shit ♪
♪ All alone I ponder ♪
♪ Wonder if I'm ever gonna find some ♪
♪ Never thought it could get harder ♪
♪ Happens when you're evil ♪
I messed up too.
I don't want to all the blame on people who
are quote, unquote always trying to use me
because not everybody is trying to use you.
Everything's just so weird when you have an audience.
I've messed up with friends, and I honestly think
I'm an idiot, and I only wish to say sorry to those people.
♪ Hello, can I be your friend-o? ♪
♪ Adam you're great ♪
♪ You fucking make me wanna explode ♪
♪ Hey since I got you ♪
♪ Shout me out and then help me grow ♪
♪ Wait what the fuck did you just tell me? ♪
♪ Fucking heck no! ♪
♪ Bitch go! ♪
♪ Hello, can I be your friend-o? ♪
♪ Everybody looking at me ♪
♪ Making this joke ♪
♪ I'm getting sick of it ♪
♪ I think I'm going mental ♪
♪ Can't even make some friends ♪
♪ Who sinking in the same boat ah no ♪
♪ Help ♪
Essentially, singing as a character,
rapping as a character
who is trying to use me
it's sort of like showing how it starts
and then how it ends.
People come in wanting to be your friend,
and then sometimes in the end,
it was all about the money.
♪ Angry, mad at the world ♪
♪ I'm freaking ♪
♪ I know it's absurd ♪
♪ But these are the things ♪
♪ That keeping me up ♪
♪ My demons ♪
♪ I'm pushing most people away ♪
♪ Despiting the fact that some great ♪
♪ Just used to an industry of manipulate ♪
♪ Every time I'm doing it often ♪
♪ Then often find myself huffing and puffing ♪
♪ I'm fussing ♪
♪ My eyes are blinking ♪
With growing up, you know, kids are mean.
(laughs)
Kids are stupid and mean.
I grew up with the sort of crowd that kind of you know,
would take the mean thing too far.
I would actually be made fun of for doing YouTube.
I mean it's where my name is derived from.
I would be told that I would never be anything,
I'm essentially nothing.
And the reason why I call myself SomethingElseYT
is because not only am I something, I'm something else.
♪ Pretty immature ♪
♪ Need to try out something different ♪
♪ I'm missing when ♪
♪ Things were simple but ♪
♪ Hear me, listen ♪
♪ I'll never stop pursuing ♪
♪ What I fucking love ♪
♪ I'm doing everything I can ♪
♪ I'm making sure I rise above ♪
♪ But sometimes I feel like ♪
♪ It's often going off the wall ♪
♪ But I'm just a youngin ♪
♪ Built this stuff alone ♪
♪ Edge double sword ♪
♪ I think I'm holding screaming ♪
A little reminder to my audience who is listening
to that song.
Not to just take the song as if I'm basically quitting,
but to know that I am going through all this stuff,
but I'm never gonna quit,
and I'm never gonna stop creating what I love.
Making things that they enjoy.
I just freaking love to create things
that I find hilarious, that I find funny,
that I really enjoy,
and people are able to either resonate with it,
and let me know that it made their day.
Which is freaking awesome.