Hey guys, it is Wednesdays with Chaseypoo and today
We are talking about how to picture yourself in the future or how to picture your future self
So it's really simple, actually, so what you're going to do is you're going to take a picture of yourself right now
So we'll take me as an example screenshot right now what you're going to do is you're going to go to your computer
And you're going to go invest in some really good software like photoshop
You know sit down and you're going to upload the picture to photoshop. What you're going to do is you're going to make your picture
Just a little bit- a little bit older. So you're gonna add a little bit of wrinkle
we all wrinkle. We're gonna add a little gray to your hair and
if you have a full body shot you can add like a walker or maybe like a
cane, and you can add like a house that you've retired in behind you. So that's basically how you- uh, picture yourself in the
future. Yeah ok great! Thanks so much for watching love you. Bye. I'm kidding but to see the second
I saw the name of this topic
I would like that's just so funny and I wish I had more time to like, do that
I mean, I'd suck at photoshop
and I literally couldn't do that like I would literally put my face and draw like a grey line like a
squiggly line on my forehead for, um...
Wrinkle- I'm like what is this when you do this when you have wrinkles, but in all seriousness
How do you picture yourself in the future now?
I will say that picturing myself in the future to how I was going to be was the only way I got through
transition and the only way I survived to
be at this level of transition, and where I am right now in my life. Sounds sad, sounds morbid, sound pessimistic, but like literally
When I was a baby tran
sitting down at my computer watching all these other tran videos, I...
saw myself in them and I... I
would be able to visualize myself as- as
someone older and
someone who might be able to one day go on hormones and somebody who might be able to one day have top surgery and
I was a lo- I was flip-flopping a lot when I was younger, cause I was like, am I trans,
am I not, I don't know, I don't know. So when it came to a time where I was more
Ready I guess, to transition, um, I met somebody who was transitioning, and they were like five years on t
And they were about to get top surgery and that was the first trans person
I had ever met in person that was out to me and that wanted to talk about transition things, and
that was like our sole purpose of that meeting was to talk about trans things and
That hang out session kind of changed my life because I sat down in front of somebody who
did what I wanna do and
they- they- they know exactly what it felt like to be me and
Now they are more comfortable in their body
so being able to hang out with people who are trans and later on in their
Transition or in a stage that you would like to see yourself at and really really help visualize
I feel like there is a lot of jealousy in
This community sometimes when you hang out people who are later in their transition, and you can't access some things
But maybe try to redirect that where you're sitting down in front of somebody that you see and you're like, you are goals, you are
literally what I would love to be able to get to. And I know that that sounds sad but
After I hung out with someone and I was like, oh my God, like I was sad,
I was like, fu- am I ever going to get to this point, like this person so much more advanced in their transition than me, like
Will I ever get to this point? This is so sad
It helped me. I had a drive inside me to transition after I met another trans person. It's contagious
don't you know?! But after I met that person and
Realized that you can transition, that it is a real thing and you are able to live your life and be comfortable with the person
That you are, and who you are, and how your body is, it helped me so much
And then everything kind of changed from then on out, and I was able to
Not decide to transition, but like decide to take the steps in that direction of potentially transitioning in the future. Yes
And honestly even though I'm like seven years on t now and like I am four years no titty, um, I
Still do that because I have some bottom dysphoria sometimes and I really want phalloplasty sometimes
it's like it kills me, and I really want it, and the only thing that makes me happy and
Understand that it is a possibility for me is to look at my friend's, um
Blog and his pictures and look at other people's results online, and being able to visualize that yes
This is the thing that you can have one day, so
Just start working your way at it. So right now
I'm not really working my way at doing that because I'm okay right now
But I know that the day that comes where I'm like, I need to get phalloplasty right now
I will work my ass off to do whatever I need to do to get on it because that's what I did with my
with my- with my, um
Transition. It was hard for me to transition, and yeah, I'm really privileged that
I was able to transition, and then I was able to do what I needed to do, but, fuck man, it was hard
And I- I- I don't wanna negate the- the hardness that I had, like it was - the hardness - anyway
It was hard for me to transition
And it was hard for me mentally and it's hard for people around me
And it was hard for- to find doctors, and it was hard to like afford things, and all this stuff
but I think that in the long run just
Hanging out with people or even if you can't hang out in person
just talking to people online or like, older in their transition
Well, when I say older in their transition, I don't mean like, they're old like they're 50. I mean like
somebody could be 18 and there have been
on- transitioning for five years, you know, and that's where you want to be
Um. But somebody older in their transition, so I would consider myself older my transition- I'm like a senior like, okay, um,
because I've been on t for so long and I've had top surgery, and I- my name and all my legal stuff is done
So I'm more comfortable where I am, so talking to someone who is like, at my stage would have helped me so much. [laughs]
If I didn't have anyone back then, I guess, is what I'm trying to say. Anyways. That's it. Love you guys. Have a great week! Bye!