- What's the best thing.
Oh my God.
Wow. That's crazy.
What's the best thing you learned from our worst fight?
- Oh shit.
That's crazy.
- Oh, we were just talking.
- We were just talking about that.
The best thing you learned from our worst day.
- Oh, the experience of us fighting.
I think like, that we can,
recover from really really big fights, big lesson.
And then...
- We're learning how to recover quicker
from a big fight too.
- Yes, yeah.
- And we're learning,
it that, like when one of us really freaks out,
the other one immediately is there for them.
- Sorry, sorry sorry.
- Yeah, yeah exactly
- Like kids like fighting and then one starts crying.
It's like sorry, sorry, sorry.
- Yeah, exactly.
Like they have like,
yeah.
That's, that's something I've learned.
That's kind of sweet, I guess, was like, we'll be fighting.
And then once one of us, like,
- If it goes too far.
- Yeah, goes too far, then it's like immediately turns
into trying to comfort the other.
- That's true.
- Yeah.
What is the pain in me you wish you could heal?
- Oh, well probably your OCD.
(laughing)
- While we're on the topic.
- The OCD monster.
- Yeah.
- The fear of the, yeah.
Fear of not being understood.
(laughing)
- That would heal, that would heal.
And then maybe some trauma in our parents divorce.
- Sure, yeah, sure.
- I would say that also.
- Yeah.
Ready?
- Yes.
- What do you think I'm hesitant to tell you?
- Hmm.
What do I think?
What do you, I think...
- I'm hesitant to tell you.
- I think you're hesitant to tell me,
like maybe some like sex stuff.
I think you're a little more, do you feel that way at all?
- No, not really.
- Maybe like your fears surrounding our career or.
- Maybe yeah?
- Or like money.
I don't know.
- That could be true.
- I don't know.
- I'll never tell.
- Oh no. You're too hesitant.
What is one experience you wish we never shared?
- Oh Jesus.
Parents divorce.
- Yeah.
- Or, the eating stuff, or the OCD stuff.
(laughing)
- I was going to say the eating stuff.
- Yeah, yeah.
- And, eating stuff,
divorce stuff.
- Then our big fights.
- And then our big fights.
That's exactly what I was going to say.
- Yeah. I forgot. Yeah.
Probably that I, parent's divorce was gonna happen,
but the other...
- Yeah.
I would say, I wish some parents divorce.
- Sure, yeah. Also too.
Yeah.
- If we can pick.
- If we can pick,
we'll take anything.
- Do you care about the big fights
and the OCD as the same?
- Yeah, yeah, I do.
- Yeah. I was just going to say big fights
eating stuff, parents divorced, but I see.
But the OCD is so wrapped up in.
- Yeah.
- Big fights and big fights are wrapped up in OCD.
Exhausting.
- The reason the big fights get so big is because of OCD.
- And it's aw-
I mean, it's awful when we,
I'm not able to understand your feel understood by you.
It's just like, it's this crazy lonely, scary feeling.
- Yeah.
- That's so uncomfortable.
- Yeah.
- And I'm like, 'Oh, this is just like what normal people...
This is normal.
- Like normal people experienced.
- It's like, 'Oh, you don't see this the same way.'
But it's like, to me, it's like
well I've always had someone who's seen it the same way
as me and I never had to explain anything.
And she would never have to explain anything.
And if I said, sorry, you just say, you know,
we know when when other men date,
like we could basically like,
not read one another's minds but pretty like,
we knew when someone would mean it
or when they wouldn't mean it.
- Yeah.
- So I feel pretty lonely during...
I think that's what that panic feeling is when
we get into the big fights.
It's that lonely feeling?
- Yeah. Yeah.
Maybe there are times like, when you're like
when you're OCD was really bad when I just felt
like I couldn't like get to you, like when it was like
I could tell like something was spinning
and I was like, like, yeah.
- Yeah.
I was actually just gonna say that too.
Like when I would like, feel a thought coming.
- Yeah.
- And it was like, like, 'Oh no', you know?
But like then it's like this evil like a little thing
that's like, but that,
it feels like it makes you like doubt your relationship,
you know?
And then it's like, then it's like,
I need to talk about this so that I can
make sure it's not real or it'll go away
or so you'll fix it or I'll fix it.
Whatever.
And yeah, it was the worst, worst thing.
It's still the worst thing.
- So I go to twin therapy.
- Twin therapy.
- Yep.
Yeah.
That's that's good.
Oh no.
If this was our last conversation together
what would you want me to know and why?
- That's too sad.
I don't know?
That you are great.
Like you are, well like what, you're dying?
- I don't know?
Dying? On the other side of the wall.
- Going to Mars?
- Yeah
- The other side of the wall?
- I don't know, I guess I was in like Berlin.
Yeah. I don't know.
- I would say, well,
I don't think we're ever going to have a last conversation,
last conversation.
But...
- But, but if we were.
- I think it'd be like that,
like you were like the most important relationship
in my life and my life partner.
- You've been my buddy.
- Yeah, I know!
- It's like,
it's like what we've been.
- Yeah.
- We've been each other's buddy.
- Life buddies.
- Yeah, it's like, even in the womb.
- Exactly.
- We were once the same.
And then we were like, we're gonna be buddies.
- I gotta get out of here.
Oh Yeah, yeah.
Yeah.
- Yeah
But it does, like,
I don't know,
I do think about us,
the inevitability,
- I know, I know.
- But,
we'll be okay.
- We will.
- Yeah, but yeah, I mean, that's what I would say.
It's like even,
but I would say I was sorry for all the fighting.
- Jesus.
You wouldn't have to.
- You wouldn't have to either.
- I would also say I'm sorry for all the fighting too.
- Yeah. But I know that we would be,
it would actually probably wouldn't matter,
at that time, but I would still be sorry.
- God, okay.
- And I would say I forgive you
and I would ask you if you forgave me
- And I would say, yes, I do.
And do you forgive me.
- And I'd say, yes.
Yeah.
- That sounds great.
- Yeah, yeah okay, yeah that sounds...
And then we just say, 'I love you'.
- Oh yeah, I'd say 'I love you' too.
- Yeah, we've been our buddies.
- Ah God.
- Our soulmates.
- Soulmates.
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