People have...a lot to say about perfectionism...
I think as a species, we have a complicated relationship with it.
And...it's something that I think about a lot
...especially with relation to...my work and the things that I put out into the world.
People sometimes throw out ..."blanket" generalized statements like...
"Focus on progress, not perfection".
And...it's an appealing idea, but, I think there's a lot more to it.
It's not that simple.
As many of you know, one of my mantra's is, "quality over quantity".
And...believe it or not, this is something that has had
both positive and negative effects on my life.
And...that is what I'm...exploring in this piece
...because, I'm honestly still...working through where I stand with things
Where, exactly, do you draw the line when in search for better?
There's a part of me that really respects..people..that are perfectionists
..if they have standards.
Doing or creating something that is one of a kind, has a value that is immeasurable in many ways
At the same time, I admire artists like...Picasso
...and the tens of thousands of works that he created over the course of his life.
And I strongly believe that one of the reasons why he got as good as he was...
...was his relentlessness.
I want to be prolific like that...
And...I wonder what I'm going to put out into the world...
...over the next...half century and beyond.
I've said it before and I'll say it again...
...my career has only just started.
So, over the last six months, I've sat down on several occasions...
...to record my thoughts as I go kind of "back and forth" on this.
It seems like, "Perfection is a moving target"
*cassette tape rolling sound effect*
I don't know why.. I always make things so unnecessarily complicated for myself
I..very often wish that it were easier for me to just...accept things as they are.
I've always been a little bit...obsessed with details...
...and I know that... to an outside observer, it looks like...
...I'm pouring all my energy into...invisible things that are making no difference, what so ever.
I don't even know what to say.
I just feel like details brings something to live
And I think that is why I love Architecture and Macro Photography...
And Legoland when I was a kid... Legoland even now to be honest with you
Because when you look closely, there's so much going on then with you can see on surface
There are layers, on layers of information to absorb
There is like richness in minutia
And I feel this way with the languages I'm learning, and like the cities where I'm spending time
There's something like comforting about that
I don't know how to explain it
I just feel like depth is comforting
We were established that I am a little bit crazy
And I know this is gonna sound crazy
But have you ever even looked at your hands?
And just all the lines creases. I mean, the level detail is incredible
But I feel like being a perfectionist... can be suffocating sometimes
Imagine if no matter what you do, you think it yourself: "This can be done better"
And the better you get, the more you see all your shortcoming and limitations
I just can't do a crappy work that I half as don't believe in
Because I feel depressed about it later on