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hi hi
can you tell me about your worst
heartbreak
do you know i was so vibrant not like
not match land this question and my
outfit today i already know happiness i
think my worst heartbreak so far is
this particular person was doing
things behind my back and i happened to
found out when i was casually just
taking a selfie using the person's phone
what happened was that i found out that
this person was doing terrible things
behind my back
and it really sucked because
when i looked through the images there
were days where it was
our anniversary in our relationship it
was a close to five-year relationship i
think there was one point where i felt
really really terrible was because i
just finished my internship i was really
happy and then i met the person the
person brought me out we went for dinner
but right before the person met me the
person did something else some of the
happiest memories that i've kept
suddenly changed into
really painful ones because i didn't
know and i wasn't aware the
heartbreaking part was was i tried to
make it work i tried to forgive i tried
to forget i tried to just move on and
still continue the relationship even
though
i knew for a fact i would have trust
issues it went on for a while until i
realized that i can't take it anymore
because whatever that the person has
done
i cannot unsee it i will always
be insecure i will always think about it
i would always think negatively of you
when you're not with me i love the
person i really love the relationship a
lot but
i couldn't and i think that was the most
heartbreaking part is i really wanted to
but i just couldn't and i had to call it
off and it was really really really sad
because i wish i was able to but i just
can't
so it's like saying goodbye to someone
that you really really loved and care
about
so that to me is the most heartbreaking
thing
when i broke up with my ex-boyfriend
right i was 17 so i was in sec five
right then it was so dramatic because i
would take bus after school and it will
go by his house and then i just recall
all the time that i met him near his
house and then we just like i don't know
sit around the park or the void deck and
then i start crying
in the bus and then i play i play those
sad emotional music after that i met my
friends to watch smurf which is supposed
to be a very funny kiddish show right
and i end up crying while watching smurf
what the heck
not saying that the relationship was
fake or anything but i don't think i was
capable of loving someone that much at a
part of time
as compared to
now which i don't know then so that's
why it was so dramatic because it was
like i don't know my first breakup or
first few breakups i don't even know
that so now that i have grown up i
realized that
what i thought was a heartbreak then
wasn't a heartbreaker just that
it really did feel painful at the point
of time i never knew how
breaking up with somebody right can give
you physical pain
oh that doesn't mean that it
actually is a heartbreaker yeah oh
oh
sorry cancer whatever i just said
so yes that's the story of my heartbreak
my first heartbreak is when i do the tik
tok heartbreak anniversary no i'm just
kidding
for real for real
i don't think i have any heartbreaks i
feel i have never loved anyone else so
much so that they will make my heart
break i've always lived my life with a
wall around me or at least if those
people who jump across the wall or jump
over the wall they haven't had the
chance to break my heart hopefully not
please don't
a very significant heartbreak that i
experienced was i think my first year of
ns and just what happened it was hari
raya also it was my first time in 20 or
21 years where i didn't celebrate raya
with my family it felt very different
because there's a tradition where on the
morning of raya we will come together
and then like we were sick for
forgiveness we were sick for blessings
and it's a very intimate setting it was
the first time i really just cried in
front of my parents
yeah
yeah so in a sense it was a heartbreak
because
i realized all this while
uh until that point i've been just
purely taking advantage of of their love
and
in their actions and whatever they've
done for me yeah so when i realized that
as i'm speaking my words right
and i realized the things i've done and
that it just like broke my heart then
yeah so
there was the first time i
i cried about my parents like
as an adult at least it's with my
ex-boyfriend
i went through his message because
somehow he forgot his phone at my place
and i found out that
he had sex with uh
his ex like their ex right before
i knew that my
ex didn't really like 100 got over his
ex
and then yeah just happened though
and he slept with his eggs and at that
moment i still love my ex a lot because
the ranger is still very fresh so i went
through the text and i found out that
that happened and uh i was very sad
after that we moved on
and
move on from that and he told me that
it's just a one-time thing and
uh after that
he cut touch with his ex then after we
became normal yeah i forgave him
i don't usually like people easily so
it takes quite a bit
to you know to like have a real
heartbreak
okay but i'm the kind of idiot right
where i'll be very pricey like let the
person know that i like him until i know
the person also likes me something like
that i think i didn't know at first that
he also liked me to this extent so i
thought i was just in my own head right
so i didn't really like do anything
when it was time to do something i
didn't sometime passed
and the optimal moment to like want to
consider something further sort of like
when by like to like score myself in my
head like why can't i just be a bit more
like
courageous or gung-ho you're like people
just tell them huh or like you like
people just like ask them
it's like
what the hell
are we like you like sabotage yourself
you know cause you because just cause
you don't dare so anyway if you really
like someone i think
i just tell them you know so
i'm
20
years old i've only gone through one
relationship it was i think four years
ago but i'm still single since then
because i think it really
broke my heart i've always felt that it
was a very
picture-perfect relationship because we
started off as friends then best friends
than a couple so it's pretty sad when we
broke up and we broke up because i felt
like
he was emotionally cheating on me when
we moved on to uni there were girls in
his life who were like me and him in the
very beginning of our relationship so i
was pretty affected and i asked him
about it and i said can i see your phone
and then he said no and i was like
oh he's hiding something i set him
down i say like okay so what's up
then he said that oh he was having this
true business with this other girl
i was like shoe business it's like it's
a pretty big thing when you're a student
and you have a business with someone
right and i felt like
ukraine told me about it
they were more than just the shoe
business thing like they were talking
about other things they were talking
about everything i understand basically
so i just felt so hurt and betrayed
because you know i
i thought we were so
like we were
i thought he was the one
just like one year ago or like a few
months ago you were so close with this
person you share everything in this
person and like
he's no longer going to be part of your
life
it took very long for me to get over him
like even after he came back from
exchange i don't think i was over him
if i want to be really honest i would
say i only got over him maybe like
last year
if it's not for any societal pressures
of like getting married by a certain age
or whatever i feel like i would be
satisfied
living the way i'm living my life myself
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