Talking about mental health with your niggas is like weird or scary sometimes, especially
in Black culture so this whole song is just me telling you exactly how I feel at this
very moment.
I'm saying Doctor Whoever, because it's whoever's listening to the song and that's who my doctor
is and the therapist.
This whole song is a therapy session, really.
The skit for this song in the beginning, Sad
on Your Muthafuckin' Birthday, is by Rickey Thompson.
Rickey Thompson is one of my favorite upcoming comedians and I had him narrate most of the
whole EP/LP, that mixtape album.
And he killed it.
When you hear the skit in the beginning, you think, "Oh my god, this is about to be such
a banger.
Oh, this is about to be turnt."
And it just kinda flows in.
The idea of a man in this day and age is many different things.
It isn't just your average, muscular, degrading women kinda guy.
You see it in movies, that friend who throws that super surprise birthday party for their
homie, and you're like, "Damn, I wish one of my friends would do that for me."
I've never had a surprise birthday thrown for me.
But it's like, whatever, I'm not asking for it, but you know.
April 18th.
Just for anybody, April 18th, write that down.
Aries.
With every sad line or honest line that I say, I try to add a bit of humor to it, so
you ain't out here crying, you know what I mean?
So when I say that my dad's mowing the lawn now, it's just more so, yeah my dad really
be on FaceTime talking about the lawn, miss you.
And he be telling me I gotta come home and mow the lawn.
That's a joke.
If my sister wants to model Fashion Nova, she can go ahead.
I'm not gonna bash a woman, 'cause she models Fashion Nova.
That's so wrong.
There's this perception, as a man, when you're in high school growing up that eating pussy
is nasty or some shit like that.
I don't know how it is in high school now.
Y'all mighta changed up, but growing up for us, that was like a, we was like, "Hell no!
I would never eat pussy."
And then growing up, you love that shit.
So it's just me being honest.
I'm not trying to be explicit guys.
I know most men wouldn't really like to admit they learned how to eat pussy from a certain
ex of theirs, or their girl, but it's just the truth.
I became better at that, because of her.
Yeah.
Me and K dated for a good amount of time.
And that's just something that happened between us that we both agreed to keep private.
Anyone who knows me personally knows I'm not really comfortable in the public eye.
I'm a real quiet guy.
I keep to myself sometimes, and I'm only out here when I'm doing music really.
And K really understood that about me and still one of the best homies I have.
And she's still top notch artist to me, nothing's changed.
I mentioned Paper Boi because he goes through so much shit that is so relatable to me in
Atlanta, especially as a artist.
Just a lot of bullshit you gotta deal with, especially in your home town, like people
you grew up with, all these random people coming out the woodwork, saying stuff about
you and all this stuff.
Most of this album is a lot of ... mix tape, EP/LP, whatever you want to call it, is a
lot of bangers, and I really just wanted to let people know, this intro isn't a banger.
This is just for you and me to get to know each other a bit more.
You basically being my therapist and kinda helping me deal with these issues, 'cause
I don't know how to ... I've just never seen a therapist, I just don't know how to go about
that, really.
Jay Z's important to the culture period.
Everybody knows that name.
He's been really running this for a long time.
And 4:44 reminded me of that.
Anyone who has a preconceived notion about a rapper or a Black male, I just want to let
you know, my whip is bought, not stolen.
Everything I have is owned.
I make my money legally.
I would love to not feel pain
That'd be great, but the drugs for me, I didn't really like.
I seen a lot of me friends do it and it really influenced me not to do it.
Seeing close people that I care about go through that, it taught me, that's not what I should
do.
And me contemplation that in the verse is more so just me being honest, like, "Yeah,
I've thought about that, but I don't know if I'm gonna do it."
I said that line because I just wanted a young, tough, dude who's listening to me to understand,
Dog, you might see my lifestyle and think I'm amazing, but it isn't all glitz and glamour.
So it'd be nice if you were just honest with yourself.
Seeing a kid you grew up with go from a young kid to a grown man is just a moment.
I cried when I seen him dancing with his mom and they were both crying together, and I
was just like, "Man, I can't hold this in."
The song closes with Rickey Thompson just basically being like, "Get your shit together
and turn the fuck up," mainly just because, that's what people are constantly telling me.
"Why you sad?
You should be turning up, you should be having this many 'hos, this many bitches, blah, blah,
blah."
And I'm usually just sitting there like, "okay, yeah, for sure dude.
Yeah, I'll be at home watching Netflix."