Hey, everyone.
Is that okay?
Can I just come back from three years and say hey everyone?
What you're seeing in the video is just a random compilation of
competitive lobby footage from 2014, and I suppose that's the, uh, that's the elephant in the room, isn't it?
2014? That seems like a long time ago, but here I am. I uploaded a video, and let me just say first that I
am floored.
truly, just-
unbelievably grateful for the response you guys have given that video
Since the very moment that I started working on "TF2 is a timeless masterpiece"
I've just been running these nightmare scenarios in my head
I've been imagining that I uploaded it and it gets like a thousand views... No one even
Plays tf2 anymore; the few people that do hate me for leaving. It's just...
Oh man, the times I imagined everything going wrong, but you know what? I told myself, "even if that happens...
that's alright," and what I need to do right now is I have to make that video
I need to work ten hours a day on it, every moment
I can I need to work on it, and if everyone hates it and no one's around
You know what that's fine, but what happened instead just blew me away you guys were so nice
I cannot believe the comments you guys left. It's literally a dream for me
Just as many times as I had a nightmare about uploading this video
I also would dream about uploading this video and having just one person comment, "Wow, that was perfect." Every time
I felt discouraged by how long certain things were taking, I thought to myself
Someone's gonna comment, "wow I loved your attention to detail," or "wow the editing was so smooth here"
And it's all gonna be worth it, and you know what? It was. The comments you guys left were straight out of my dreams
I couldn't ask for a nicer
More wholesome viewer base, but I'm gonna to stop myself here, cuz I could go on forever about how grateful I am
But there's a couple things I should talk about
First of all, a lot of people seem to want some kind of story
For why I was gone, and that's understandable, but I regret to inform you that there's nothing really... it's not really exciting
it's not an exciting story really I just
got really sidetracked in life, and I kept thinking about my future
And if I was doing the right things and I ended up losing a lot of confidence in myself
Which really killed my motivation to create stuff
and when I stopped creating things it started this self-fulfilling loop of feeling guilty for not creating
anything which certainly didn't make me feel better
I felt weak, and the guilt compounded on itself you might not believe it coming from someone who didn't upload in three years
But I thought about YouTube almost every day
And I felt so bad about it at one point that anything that reminded me about it would make me feel
Physically sick from the guilt. But you know what kept me afloat?
It was the fact that some of you never stopped believing in me
And I just couldn't believe that you guys kept believing in me when I couldn't believe in myself
So many times when I went to play tf2 or overwatch or even just talked in a twitch chat someone would recognize me and say
"Hey, Lazy Purple, what happened? I liked your stuff man, why'd you stop?"
And this might sound strange, but that made me feel worse at first
It just, I'm telling you this guilt was
Wrecking me, and when fans would reach out to me
It made me realize that I was letting these people down
But after enough times of this it finally got through my thick skull that there were people that wanted to see me make stuff
So I decided I would
Consider this a shout-out to anyone who left a positive comment or reached out to me in the last three years, because you
are responsible for the video that I uploaded
I do want to keep creating stuff.
There's no doubt about that.
The only question is what do I make and how often do I make it?
If you didn't know a single thing about video editing you might not know that a video like tf2 is a timeless masterpiece takes
Hundreds and hundreds of hours. I lost track, but I would say absolutely seven hundred minimum
Now, I don't have any issue with putting that much effort into a video in fact
It was really rewarding, but I have my sights set on making YouTube economically sustainable
I want to be able to work 10 to 12 hours a day on
Creating content for you guys as best as I can
I don't care if I'm living on the bare minimum
I just want to make enough money from it that I'm good
On YouTube there are two ways to do this you either make low-medium effort content at least once a week
Or you set up a patreon and really commit to quality in your videos
Now I'm not I'm not setting up a patreon after making one video, okay.
I don't even understand patreon etiquette
I can hardly use my Twitter so far, all right? I'm ine-- I'm inept please bear with me
I know that I have to earn your guy's trust before I even think about asking for a single dollar
But I'm prepared to show you guys how committed I am to this
I'm gonna make a promise to you guys and myself that I'm gonna do my absolute best on YouTube for six months
If somehow I'm not economically sustainable by that point
I don't know what I'm gonna do but I gotta give it the old college try you know
Now there's one last thing that I want to make absolutely clear when it comes to all of this
There's no way that I can just stick to tf2 with what I'm planning to do
I wanna commit to making high quality
videos that I'm proud of and I just know that if I would only make TF2 videos I would lose the spark
I meant everything I said in "TF2 is a timeless masterpiece"
I love TF2 and it's completely shaped the way I look at other games
But YouTube is really harsh on people who aim for quality instead of quantity
And I'm preparing myself to work at least 50 hours a week to make this work
What that means is that I'm gonna go crazy if I spend 50 hours a week just thinking about tf2 for six months
There's some humor that you just can't get out of a game like tf2
When I finally decided to start making videos again
I was too scared to work on this tf2 project and who would be such an undertaking
I had a bunch of overwatch clips lying around
so I decided to relearn editing by making videos out of those
Looking at them now I kind of asked myself: "Сould these have been TF2 videos?"
And I'm realizing that they couldn't have
Overwatch is more competitive which creates a different kind of humor
it forces people to communicate
people get frustrated at each other
everyone's actions have real consequences
It's less funny to watch the hundredth free-to-play pyro walk off a cliff than it is to watch a Grand Master
Winston jump off accidentally
I still have a lot of ideas for tf2 videos, and I'm excited to put them into action
But I just wanted to give fair warning in this video where I'm just talking to you guys that I already have two completed overwatch
videos and I think it would be a shame if no one ever saw them
No matter what I'm always gonna push for the highest of quality
I'm never gonna try and you know, cheat the YouTube algorithm or something like that
And I have this philosophy
That as long as I put all the effort I can into these videos that I'm making, I know you guys will appreciate them
whether or not it's an overwatch video, or a TF2 video
And I know that everything is gonna work out just fine, and I can't wait to make more content for you guys
So let's see how this goes thanks for listening. I'll catch you next time