When you said all this with sickness and so it comes down to deep guilt in the mind and the projection.
And I tried to work with this infection that I have. I did it for like three weeks like going on, looking what's happening,
trusting, being completely fearful.
Knowing medically what it is, how it should be treated, what it can lead to, and on and on.I talked to Johnny about it.
But it always popped up in my mind.
You said there was fear there too.
Jesus says in the course, whenever the fear is great, like it's really strong in your mind,
He says a mixture of magic and miracle may be necessary.
In other words, you were working with your mind, with your thoughts, but it's like you hit like a real deep
fearful point, really frightening. And then it was beautiful how you described, how you
went to this doctor who was unlike any
doctors that you've known. And the doctor helped you with
treatments, and so on and so forth. That's the magic part.
You know where Jesus says, when you are too fearful a mix of magic and miracle is necessary.
So, you followed your prompts
when the fear started to escalate. Because you were like oh my gosh.
The prompts and the guidance guided you to that
man, that doctor. Having been a doctor yourself, this was a doctor. You see how the Holy Spirit works with the belief system.
He's not trying to snatch it away. It's not like you
are a pure child with a blanket, like a security blanket, and he's like ripping and tugging,
trying to pull it out of your fingernails. It's not the way the Holy Spirit works.
It's using the things that you still believe in.
In this case, it can be treatment,
medication. In some cases people have worked with things for years, and they're not so much into
the medical model, but they still are into alternative
therapies, and they maybe go for some herbs, or they go for
some Reiki, or they go for
some
massage, or for certain types of treatment. Rolfing or some kind of deep massage or something like that.
It's all
magic. All of that is magic. Reiki is magic.
Rolfing is magic.
Herbal
treatments like Gandhi used. He used a lot of herbal treatments instead of what we would call
medicine, as the world defines medicine.
It's all magic. When the mind is too fearful of the release, of the entire self-concept.
That's where we're heading with this. Then, that's where the guidance comes in.
It is something that you're working with on a daily basis.
You were sharing that today, when we were going through the introductions. That
you're feeling all this love and gratitude, and there's like a healing occurring, and the gratitude pouring through you,
and then there's another part of your mind that just
feels sick. You're not trying to dress it up or
pretend about it. That's what we've been talking about, that's what we were talking about with with Noel.
Allow yourself to feel what you're feeling.
Without seeing it as
a problem. You know that's the tormenting thought in your mind. But this is an opportunity,
again, day-by-day, moment by moment. You're just following your guidance. And the Holy Spirit is working with you,
with what you believe,
to help loosen the whole thing. So, I've always told people be gentle with yourself.
Some people will say, well
you know what gentle for me would be is, I need to go have surgery.
I need
some cancerous tissue cut out
of my body. That's the way that it looks. The problems can be for just that. Go in to the hospital,
have the surgery, have it taken out.
I've worked with people that were on
heart medication,
and
diet regimens, and
exercise regimens, and everything to treat things like
heart problems, and cholesterol, and things that
involve the body and the systems of the body. All of that comes back to
following the prompts. Really tuning in and doing what
you're guided to do. In the end, you start to realize that magic is not evil.
You keep doing the mind training. You keep joining in purpose and
lining up in function.
The more you
line up, and line up, and line up, you just let the light just kind of pour through you, and shine through you, and everything.
That's the process of it.
At no point does Jesus come out in the course and say, magic
is evil. He just
doesn't do that. It's more of a mixture kind of thing.
It's more, just letting the Spirit still use the symbols of the world while they're still helpful.
Not holding yourself guilty
because of it. But I sense, sometimes the ego comes in and wants to like try to torment you.
With something like, ah look at that. Oh look at that, still not good enough.
Still guilty, still human. You know that's how the ego works.
It's trying to make a case to try to torment the mind. You could say, listen I'm taking my steps,
I'm taking my steps here, and this is what I was guided to do to
help minimize and loosen the fear. Because the fear level was getting too
intense. It's practical.
Don't let the ego torment you with those tricks.
It's sports relieving the fear, so you can go on. Yes, exactly, it's just
relieving the fear so you can go on. You're on a journey of following prompts.
It's gonna be a glorious journey. It has been a glorious journey.
Jesus is really not anti-medicine. He's just saying, you're gonna have to unplug from all the concepts.
So, whichever concept you believe in, I'll use them.
I'm not gonna steal them. I'm not gonna try to take away from you
the little that you hold on to.
I'm going to have you start to gain more confidence in forgiveness, and more confidence in this inner
freedom and healing. Then as you do,
things will slowly start to fall away. But I'm not going to take it from you.
As if like, oh don't take this. It's the last things I believe in. It's more like, it's okay. They will drop.
Like you were saying, you don't even have to call it questioning. It will drop when you're ready for it to drop.
It's that simple. You don't have to make it into such a struggle.
Jesus says in the course..
If a baby has a pair of scissors in
their hand, and you know
that the scissors could do them harm and cut them, but you just don't try to rip
the scissors away from the baby.
The baby will scream. To the baby, it's just a toy.
All the baby perceives is, you
damn
whatever
taking my toy. It has no concept of sharp,
or of
being cut, or anything, there's nothing there. All it's seeing is,
you're trying to take my toy.
Ahh, bloody murder, bloody hell. You're not taking these scissors. Because it doesn't know that they're scissors.
It's just fun. It's shiny, it's smooth,
and it's mine.
It's in my fist.
I think that's a really strong metaphor that Jesus uses in the course.
You could say that with a lot of things.
The Holy Spirit
really doesn't take things from you. You have to release them. You have to outgrow them.
The Holy Spirit is not in there, in a tug-of-war.
Saying, give it. You've got these idols, give it to me back and forth. It doesn't work that way.
You have to voluntarily outgrow it. That's the only way that it works. I
know that's how it worked in my lifetime. I will renounce that.
For Lent, I will give up
dot dot dot. Then you find, you're
obsessing thinking about whatever.
After Lent is over, like well I don't know.
You just go back and forth, and then it just means you're not really ready to let it go.
Don't beat yourself up for that, just go on.
Trust.
It will go when you don't want it anymore.