I was 17 I was really young and it was
the start of my senior year in high
school I got pregnant and I was too
afraid to tell my parents I told my
boyfriend at the time but he told me the
only choice is abortion and I did
consider the different scenarios in my
head like could I keep the baby how
would life work would it be okay and
just knowing how my parents were I was
embarrassed to even tell them I was
having sex let alone say I was pregnant
because I just knew they would be upset
so I went down to pump Parenthood and
they pretty much brought me to see a
counselor for a few minutes but the
counselor didn't show like models of a
baby and the age or what they look like
at that stage of pregnancy or there was
no talks of what your body is doing your
pregnancy in positive light it was just
like okay you're pregnant what do you
want to do your parents don't know oh
right abortions the right answer okay so
they give you the pills for the first
half of the pills you have to take in
front of them and then you go home and
you take the other ones like 24 hours
later so
this I can feel at home bled a lot I saw
like a lot of stuff coming out it was
traumatizing it's so dangerous like I
can't believe young girls or any girls
do that because it's so dangerous like
the amount of blood that there is you
can hemorrhage you could there's so many
things that go wrong especially for a
young girl who doesn't tell her parents
and then that's a huge medical procedure
and it's very risky that's looking back
on it I can't believe that I did I can't
believe I put my body through that or I
risked all those things it was scary and
it was traumatizing it was the worst
thing I've ever done I think about it a
lot I think about I would do anything to
have them in my family today you know I
miss that person that I didn't keep two
years later though I found myself in the
exact same situation which they say it's
a statistic it happens like if you get
pregnant at a certain age like under 16
there's a high chance that you'll get
pregnant again within two years so
happened to me so I was 19 this time and
I got pregnant and I already knew what
to do about the abortion so like that
was in the back of my head but I was
planning to keep the baby at first but
my boyfriend and I were terrible terms
and he was not supportive whatsoever at
all I was still living at home I was in
college I had a good job but I was
working part-time and I still lived with
my parents so I didn't really think that
I could keep the baby but I was scared
to tell them again I was ashamed that it
happened to me
and I went through the process again
went back to plan Baron this time though
I didn't want to do it at all like I
felt sick I felt terrible about going
there and I even told her I was like I
don't know if I want to do this and I
was I took a long time I was staring at
the cup and the pills in my hand and I
said I don't want to do this and she was
just like she didn't help me at all to
bike well there's an option or maybe you
should think about it or go home and
talk to your family like she was just
like well we already here to pay for
them they're here and basically take
them and so I did and then I had to
drive home from there with the other
pills I had them in my purse I was going
home it was a Friday night I'm stuck in
traffic and the rain and I was just
crying I cried the whole way home
because I took the pills and I knew that
I didn't want to do it and this idea
just came to my head about abortion pill
reversal which I've never heard of
before so I kind of know God put that
idea in my head and I just got in the
shower so I could cry without my parents
knowing what was that I was crying
basically and I was in there and I was
thinking about if I throw them up like
will that work had they been dissolved
yet because the first pills cut off the
baby's food supply and the pills you
take the day after flush the baby from
your body or cause a forest miscarriage
so I knew that and I was thinking I was
like have the pills been digested have
they been what they work can the baby
still eat like what's what can I do to
stop this is there a way to reverse it
so I got off the shower and I went on
Google and I looked it up abortion pill
reversal and it actually came up a
hotline phone number so I called it and
a really really sweet with my named
Elizabeth Delgado answered and she said
how far along are you when did you take
the pill
and I said I literally just took it like
45 minutes ago and she said that's the
best and you could tell me because the
sooner the better
if you take the abortion pill reversal
it will work this more likely if you put
less time between taking the pill and
taking the reversal so she found me a
clinic a pro-life clinic that was like
30 minutes from my house that could
administer the reversal to me and the
next morning at like 6 a.m. so it would
have ended up being about 12 hours from
taking the first abortion pill to taking
the reversal when I got there they were
the sweetest people they were so
different than the people from Planned
Parenthood they were welcoming and
loving and they explained they showed me
little models as a baby like eight weeks
pregnant was like this tiny and this is
what's inside of you and they were very
supportive they said don't worry about
your parents we'll tell them with you
we'll be with you every step of the way
we'll get you a good well whatever you
need which is true they did they ended
up giving me a lot of stuff free
pregnancy prenatal classes a bassinet
clothes diaper bag they did tell my mom
was me and to this day we're all friends
it worked out really well for me but the
reversal was at first i syria got a shot
that day of progesterone and then i had
to go back every day then every other
day then once a weeks and once a month
for the first semester and then from
there on it was a normal pregnancy and
on thanksgiving i heard the heartbeat
for the first time so i got pregnant in
the fall and then I found out I'm having
a boy in March and then in July I had a
beautiful boy who is now almost six
his name is Ezekiel which means God
strengthens and I chose that name
because the whole pregnancy was pretty
begging in please just let my baby be
healthy I pray that the effects that the
pill don't do anything to him please
just let him be healthy and he is and
he's perfect in every way
and having the reversal was the best
decision of my life even an abortion was
the absolute worst decision I know
because I've done both still to this day
I will get heartbroken over my choice at
17 I tell my husband about it I just go
through periods of being emotional about
it but being a mom is my favorite
identity is
the best identity I've ever had and it's
not hopeless if you are pregnant it's a
different life than you may have
imagined for yourself but it's better in
every way the trials of telling your
parents or boyfriend trouble you know
that all that stuff is just in the
moment but long-term choosing life was
the absolute best choice I've ever made
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