[ Voice breaking ] 'Cause we're so different.
I...
We're so different, and I just -- I...
I-I blamed myself for not being like him.
And then I-I finally had an answer
that explained everything.
And -- And I got to know them, and --
and I liked them.
And they liked me.
Now I'm -- I'm more alone than ever.
♪
You know what? Let's talk about this downstairs.
Come on, let's go -- let's go downstairs.
No. No! Stay back.
It's -- It's not fair!
PJ.
You are not alone.
I am!
I-I am.
I... [ Cellphone beeps ]
[ Cellphone vibrating ]
Let's just have a glass of wine and talk.
Yeah. [ Cellphone beeps ]
Mitch. Barbara. What are you doing here?
[ Indistinct talking ] PJ: I'm tired of trying to explain it.
Rome? Rome: You got to come down off of this roof, PJ.
We are going to talk about it.
Guys. [ Cellphone beeps ]
I'm done talking! Talking is what got me up here.
PJ! Oh, my God.
I don't think I can do this anymore. They're on the roof.
No, PJ, we can -- we can talk to Maggie.
W-What do you say we -- we come down from this roof
and we talk to Maggie?
I don't want to talk to Maggie.
I don't want to talk to anyone.
Wait, wait, wait. Wait, wait, wait!
Wait! Stop, stop. What the hell are you doing? Open the door!
We can't go out there right now.
What are you talking about? My son is out there! I am a psychologist!
Rome is with him, and he trusts him.
He is upset, but he doesn't want to die.
We do not want to escalate this.
These last few weeks, just spending time with you
and Sophie and Delilah, I --
...I felt like I finally had a family.
I don't -- I don't have that anymore.
Okay, look, PJ,
what does it mean to be family?
Huh?
You helped me bury my mom.
You stood right next to me
and Eddie and Gary and my brother
because you are my family.
Family's not just the people who had you.
Family's the people who -- who raise you,
the people who love you.
You don't think Mitch loves you?
He lied to me my whole life!
You heard your mom.
This guy wanted to be your dad.
He stepped up.
And he -- he might not show up in all the ways
that you want him to.
Hell, neither does my dad.
But these two men are our fathers!
And they are trying to love us the best way they can.
And you know what? Sometimes... [ Scoffs ]
...we can be a little hard to love.
No, it-- it's just, for as far back as I can remember,
there's been this -- this weight,
and I didn't know why.
And then I found out a-about Jon and his depression,
and I thought I finally figured out the reason.
I thought I finally figured out why I feel this way.
But I was wrong, and I don't, and I --
God, no matter what I do, it's just...
[ Breathing heavily ]
PJ! It's never gonna go away.
PJ, don't!
No, wait, wait, wait, wait! Wait, wait.
[ Breathing heavily ]
♪ Well, there's just an empty space ♪
♪ And there's nothing left here... ♪
What are you doing?!
Same thing you're doing.
♪ Just the memory of your face ♪
♪ Now take a look at me now ♪
A year ago, I was right where you are.
Wasn't a rooftop. It was a mouthful of pills.
Just like that script you read.
Yes, man, there are some dark days!
[ Voice breaking ] But there's also tomorrow.
And I'm here for you!
We are all here for you.
I will not lose you.
[ Crying ]
I will not lose you.
♪ Take a good look at me now ♪
♪ 'Cause I'll still be standing here ♪
♪ And you coming back to me is against all odds ♪
I got you.
♪ It's the chance ♪
I got you. ♪ I've got to taaaaaaaaaake ♪
♪ I've got to taaaaaaaaaake ♪
I got you.
[ Sniffles ]
♪ Take a look at me now ♪