welcome back and in today's video I just feel like I really want to talk to you
today I got to thinking about depression and anxiety and like the overwhelming
just life pressures that I've been feeling this year past two years since
I've been on YouTube and developed the community that I have with you
now it's important that you know that this anxiety that you have it's been
wrong before okay what I mean by that is that you
feel like you can't breathe your heart hurts heart palpitations you're sweating
cold hands clammy maybe you get convulsions but you're freaking out you
think you're gonna die you don't die I didn't know the
experience I'm feeling it right now like right now I have the experience like
it's been wrong before it don't let it fool you it's been wrong before
give your 120 percent like at this point I don't let that anxiety control me I
don't let it tell me what I can and what I can't do I've decided to make a a
conscience effort to tell it it's wrong because it's it's been I'm not dead of
course I'm talking to you now you've had it before it's made you feel debilitated
but at the end of the day it's your decision are you gonna let it control
your life are you gonna set there in the house in the darkness in your room and
and live off of the fear I decided not to do that I've decided to wake up be
stronger and give my 120 percent every day because it's ended today I control
the decisions on what I do and I want to make the rest of my life the best of my
life you know what I'm saying I want to be of excellence i but because i'm
trying to be of excellence because i'm trying to do all these great things you
guys is my community look up to me you push me to be a greater person and I
feel like if I allow depression and anxiety control my life I'm falling
short of expectations that you see me and I want to
change the visualization that I have inside my head of not just how I see
myself but how the world sees me and I feel like that's something that would
work for every single one of us if you can make that transition of how you see
yourself and change it to how the world sees you I feel like you can go to that
next level I feel like in whatever endeavor that you're into whatever thing
you're practicing whatever you're feeling like is your passion I feel like
the thing that's barring you from that next step is the visualization of how
you're looking at yourself and if you can mentally go in there and just be
like oh I got a phone call hello oh hey what's the I'm just shooting a video
yeah like right now hey before you do anything else is any message that you
want to give to the community out here how don't we put on speaker what's up
your your now the world is listening always believe in yourself yes that's
right no one put you down that's right I know that this is kind of like a cool
retrospective inner look but I was want to ask you what do you think is I I
don't know how I see myself I want to be more I'm trying to live up to how the
world sees me and so I can go to that next level but I want to ask you what
kind of person do you think I am and be completely honest and you've known me my
whole life and you just knows how to enjoy life how long have you known me
I've known you since middle school yeah that's that was like a long time ago
like yeah you've known me you're probably one of my
oldest friends we've been through a lot and you can tell them right now I'm the
same in my videos as I am in real life am I not
is there any is anything that you feel like that could I need to work on
anyways I gotta finish I'm gonna finish out this video and I'll call you back
right after I get done I see man well that was interesting and I promise it
was not planned that was really cool what you heard from one of my oldest
friends he's known me since before middle school probably growing up was
hard it was difficult I grew up in an abusive family and it was never easy
we've always struggling we wouldn't we wasn't rich or anything like that I feel
like the struggles that I went through the pain that I endured pushed me to be
the type of person that I am and um I know that the the road that I'm on is a
road of greatness and it's something I want to live by I don't wanna push on to
you I want to give to you guys and tell you that you don't have to let the
anxiety and depression control you I feel it every day you know when it first
started happening the anxiety and the depression yeah it did debilitate me it
did make me not want to leave the house and it did make me feel like that but
since I have anxiety and depression every single day I've learned to live
with it and I've decided that I'm pushing the back of my mind I'm not
gonna let it control me I'm not gonna let it tell me what to do and I just
felt like this wasn't today's video I was gonna do something else I felt like
I really wanted to talk to you guys really wanted to tell you guys don't let
that shit get you right it's it's it's it sucks but you can push past I'm
pushing past it I'm having a coffee with my don't forget your official risk what
did I tell you oh yeah I got a song coming out
I made it with me and Greg the cat and since it's Christmas you guys were
wanting me to make a Christmas Greg sweater I'll pop it up on the screen
somewheres it's out today I've not really pushed it but I did that for you
guys I've lowered the process in the merch store because normally when I was
making the merch it was like pre-programs it of what price it
suggested not felt like these suggestions must be coming from people
that's got money because I ain't got money you ain't got money so I'll
lowered the process I'm still working on that but to reiterate what I was saying
is that you can do it anxiety does not have to be you you control your so I
know it hurts I know it feels like you're gonna die I know I get it
me too but it end of the day you control yourself anxieties not going to kill you
you control yourself and I I guess I just want to I really just want to cut
it out there I think I'm gonna do a live stream today if I don't do it today I'm
going do it tomorrow but there's another thing I want to talk to you guys about
and I'll hear your feedback in the comments I want to know do you do you
want me to go live in discord I can go live in discord the patreon is doing
good I've been going live in patreon it's
really good with meeting goals I need to switch up a little bit in the patreon ad
maybe another goal or something but it's very easy it's only $1 to join and you
get to hang out with all of us in there the community and there it's absolutely
phenomenal and I really like the direction that it's going
but yeah we got music coming out we got the the Greg sweaters we I am literally
backed back to back given 120 percent every day we only get 24 hours in a day
and I want to make the most of those 24 hours I want to work I want to keep
doing it I want to really get it I know you guys have been sending me in stories
and videos that you want me to make asking about the updates on previous
videos I'm working on those things I'm searching down the leads and if you have
a story that you want to send to me did you feel like that my platform could
raise awareness to go ahead and send Tim you can send it to me an email Twitter
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changes oh we've got I've got a book that I'm writing that's gonna be out
hopefully before the years over I'm gonna at least get one full vlog episode
out before the years over because 2019 baby is gonna be great
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