Before Cara Delevingne became one of the highest paid models, she was raised in the high profile
family of her father, mother, 2 sisters and a brother in the luxury area of Belgravia
in London. Her family tree is full of politicians, millionaires, and magnates, but still, her
idyllic childhood turned out to be all smoke and mirrors. What seems to have been an easy
youth was actually full of substance abuse, depression and frequent thoughts of suicide…
that follows her till today. Even now, after conquering the fashion world, she still struggles
with the demons from her past. Stay with CurioSips to discover the tragic story of Cara Delevingne’s
real life.
Pandora, Cara’s mother, is well known among the British upper class. Despite her status,
she’s a depressed person who has struggled with addiction to heroin and substances through
most of her adult life. Looking back on her mother's addiction, Cara Delevingne said,
"She was sick a lot, in [the] hospital a lot, and there were times when she would leave
for quite a long time and I wouldn't know where she was. … I remember my sister, Poppy,
saying something like, 'Mum used to do heroin.'" Once the problem of addiction started affecting
the family, Cara's world began to have breakdowns. At 16, her depression was at the peak, but
she was pretending that everything was fine, becoming a professional in hiding her emotions
and trying to be strong for the sake of her mother. It was this time when she found her
calling in modeling and acting. Pressures at work and in school led her to suffer such
a severe mental health crisis that her parents were forced to sign her off the school for
6 months and start giving her medications. But the medication had a negative impact on
Cara’s mood as it suppressed her emotions.
Cara’s mental health problems have caused a serious skin condition called psoriasis.
This even could be a result of the inability to let out her negative feelings. And not
only her skin problem affected her modeling career but also was a subject of jokes and
bullying from her classmates. She described her teenage years to be "on a roller coaster
to hell." The rejection by friends she suffered from and the bullying at school made Cara
Delevingne obsessed with thoughts that were not suitable for her age. "When I was a child,
I was obsessed with blood and death," she revealed in a candid interview. This led to
multiple episodes in which her wounds and her obsession climbed so high that she ended
up having suicidal thoughts. "I realised how lucky and privileged I was, but all I wanted
to do was die." confessed Cara. Feelings of wanting to end her life made her feel "so
guilty" that she began to hate herself, and in order to ease the pain she felt inside,
she resorted to self-destructive tactics, such as smoking a cigarette box and run until
she passed out, or go alone into the forest to hit her head against a tree and lose consciousness.
Delevingne felt a greater sense of fear and agony than any other teenager. "I hated myself
for being depressed, I hated feeling depressed, I hated feeling. I was very good at disassociating
from emotion completely. And all the time I was second-guessing myself, saying something
and then hating myself for saying it. I didn't understand what was happening apart from the
fact that I didn't want to be alive anymore." Unfortunately for her, asking for help did
not result in anything good;. She tried to talk to friends, but only was questioned,
wondering why someone who grew up with many privileges had those negative thoughts. Cara
desperately wanted to appreciate all the good things that happened in her life, but her
mental state continued to exert its dominance, it was as if there was something dark inside
her that she could not dominate.
While her sisters excelled in school, Delevingne was the opposite. Her parents took classes
to reunite her with mental health professionals. As a child, she was misdiagnosed several times,
until at 16 she was told she had "dyspraxia", a developmental disorder in which people have
trouble coordinating their thoughts and movements, which is ironic considering that she has made
millionaire walking down the most prestigious catwalks of the fashion world. Cara Delevingne
realized over time that depression and self-destructive tendency run in her family. That's right,
Cara goes through the same situation as members of her prestigious lineage, which tend to
go this way when something goes well in their life for a while! They would rather "ruin"
everything to end it. Even today Cara is still struggling with her illness and she knows
that she can never get rid of them! At least now she knows that she must strive to live
and not let her demons dominate her thoughts.
Now, our CurioSips family, if you had the opportunity to give Cara Delevingne some advice,
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