Well I was just feeling some type of way about my ex boyfriend and I was just like you know
what?
I keep running into these situations where I break up with someone or the relationship
ends and then I have this extended period that seems to last forever where it’s like
we’re maybe gonna get back in each others lives…
Are we gonna get back together?
You’re sending me so many mixed messages.
Like why are you texting me at 2 in the morning?
I kind of had reached a point where that was like at its zenith.
When you go back over a relationship and you’re like, “Wait all those things that you said
and did, were you not actually being truthful?"
And you said you were okay with this?
And then later on, you’re like, “Actually, I wasn’t cool with that stuff.”
I remember one time my ex was like, “You would never meet me at the airport."
"That’s just something you would never do.”
And I was like, “Wow.”
I love like you know, the words ‘tempest.’
Basically ‘cause its like literary connotations, obviously, like “The Tempest,” Shakespeare.
But also like you can transform when you’re in a relationship to like this ugly monster.
A tempestuous rising like I’m becoming a monster in this relationship and I don’t
wanna be.
I would never tell someone to stop crying.
You know, like ever.
‘Cause I kind of feel like you have to let that stuff out.
Emotions are good.
This is the song where I’m like at peak argument levels, you know?
At that moment, you’re just like so frustrated with someone.
You’re like, “These tears…"
"They’re not fair."
"I don’t want you to cry.”
You’re having that fight and you’re going to bring out anything you can to trash the
other person.
Like weaponize something that they said like 6 months ago.
And then that time they said this to your friend and then your friend told you this,
and that actually this is the way it went down, and they said this, and like you haven’t
brought it up until this moment.
And it’s coming out now.
There’s also that thing you know, when you break up with someone and like you’re not
speaking but you might have mutual friends.
And then you hear from your mutual friends what they’ve been saying about you and you’re
like, “Wait…"
"This doesn’t make sense.”
I used to do it way more but now I’m like…
I’m so strict on like a no texting policy.
Like I just never text.
I just never text my exes.
As soon as someone tells me like, “You should be there so don’t do that.”
It just makes me like really mad, like a child.
I’m just like, “Don’t tell me what to do.”
Part of the reason I wanted to write this song is like these are the kinds of things
I never said in a way.
That line was kind of being like, “Okay."
I’ve said it now.
I had to write a song to say it but I said it.
I’ve not lived with a boyfriend.
I’ve not even managed to get that far.
I have been dumped on the spot but usually for me, the break up is like very drawn out
and like emotionally painful.
Because you’re just like, “Now I’m gonna stab you in the heart."
"Now I’m gonna stab myself in the heart.
"We’re just both gonna stab each other with a double-ended spear.”
Maybe I have some of the blame myself.
It wasn’t written in the stars for us to be together, you know?
There was nothing that either of us could have done.
It was just fate.