it's currently 8 a.m the weather outside
is cold
dark gray and miserable which is a
reflection of my mood today to be honest
i have no other plans today and it's
gonna be a
just like every other day a day spent
alone
i feel so rough today but i have this
like assignment
um already struggling
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at its worst it's been three days
of just lights out blinds down and just
the only time i ever leave bed is to go
to the bathroom
you just feel like lifeless in a way
just feel just like dead
i'll come to my crib
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i never thought i'd do a freshers alone
in my bedroom
having to just isolate completely it's
been a long time day staring at a screen
all day
working and not being able to meet
friends and socialize with people on the
weekend as a university student has
it's definitely weird and has definitely
taking its toll on me
with the added stress of kovid and not
being able to meet friends and meet
people
even socialize with the people in the
same building as you adds to that stress
and it's definitely it definitely makes
it much more difficult
you have to go an extra mile to form any
sort of friendship so you have to
be on social media you have to reach out
to people on your course
actively and because i have quite bad
anxiety that's really really difficult
for me
if we're being treated like second-class
citizens
and we're being forgotten about then
what's the future of the country going
to look like you know because
that's us and we've been impacted so
negatively by this
and we haven't had much support in halls
i was very much sort of
isolated and even though i did have that
contact with my counsel and people who
would
be there to support me to me they were
like strangers
it was really hard to open up at one
point i know i wasn't where i wanted to
be
and it was really difficult to reach
for help the university accommodations
in the government all telling us to come
back
was was the start of the problem to be
honest
and then it just got worse as the truth
slowly started being told
that oh wait no you don't have any
in-person lessons you're going to be
stuck in your room lockdown's happening
the effect this has had on me now and
other students
like personal life mental health all of
it is just going to be it has been
negatively impacted it's going to last
for a long time i don't see it going
away anytime soon
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