This is when I knew I was fucked!
They took me to a little substation over off of Wilmington
used to be a fire station
When I walked in that motherfucker
I saw the camera on my house
the camera on my shop
the camera on my dope house
you know what I'm sayin'?
Then they had me on the chart
like the mafia
I'm at the top of the chart
motherfuckers comin' down like this
you know, then when I seen all that
I'm like shhh... it's over!
I know I'm fucked!
Before I even started gang banging
I was fascinated by the gangster shit
When I first started I was eleven
I didn't wanna hang with the homies my age, so...
I had to step my game up
put my work in and to do what I had to do
to get recognized by the big homies
so they could be like, yeah
that's a down little motherfucker
he gonna kick it with us
The feeling I first got when I got in the lowrider
was unbelievable, man
You know what I'm sayin'?
I couldn't believe it just the way the car moved
the way it just— that's a hell of a feelin', man
Especially when you got the oldies playin'
and you got the music up
ain't nothin' like it
Get on out of here, man, you're in the way.
Get 'em all out of here, man
Okay y'all, the meeting's in order
go ahead Junior
Motherfuckers been pillow talkin', and some mo' shit!
You know what I'm sayin' so...
I'm telling you now, homies
I already know who been doin' what
I'm just giving it a pass this one time
If I find out another motherfucker's goin' around
telling motherfuckers our club business
we might not have nothin' but six members
And that's real!
Hey man, who pillow talked? That's all I wanna know
I was pillow talkin—
They ain't 'bout to say who pillow talked
so that's a waste of time
I love low ridin', you know what I'm sayin'?
I don't give a fuck if I live to be 120
I'm gonna be on the pasture
to see that one of my great great grandkids
while he drivin', you know what I'm sayin'
because that's what I like.
Ain't nothin' like lowridin'
I done spent at least,
shit man, I probably done spent about a million dollars, man
Yeah, it was worth it because that's what I love
Anytime you doin' something you love
it's got to be worth it
I can't cut it!
Can't cut it? Why not?
And then I gotta...
That red car right there is clean
But it wouldn't even qualify
It might not go through me
'cause it ain't clean enough
This gang, ain't gonna be a magnet you know what I'm sayin'?
Seen something like that?
See how he got that plaque in the back window?
That's trash
Know what I'm sayin'?
The only way you can get a plaque,
you know the whole car gotta be complete
inside and out, plain material
The link between cars and the gang culture
you know what I'm sayin'
that's from day one
Lowridin' must have escaped the gang members
because it was somethin' else to do
you know what I'm sayin'?
He wasn't just hangin' around the neighborhood
or going into somebody's neighborhood
looking for somebody to shoot or beat up
you know what I'm sayin'?
it was a relief, you could have fun
do somethin' else
When crack cocaine came in
you know what I'm sayin'?
that's what fucked off all the neighborhoods
I was selling cocaine like a motherfucker then
but I didn't realize the effects
that the cocaine was doin' to the people
in the neighborhood
I feel bad as a motherfucker right now when I look back
and to see that I was part of fuckin' up the neighborhood
that I say I love
We ain't never had money like that before
where you can sit up in the house
and make $30,000 in an hour
All the fuckin' pussy you want in the world
That was unheard of for us
so we didn't understand what the fuck we was doin'
That's when all the big guns came into play
Because before then we didn't be doin' no drive-by's
if we saw a motherfucker we was tryin' to get
we go and run up on him and shoot his ass, you know
I ain't never shot into a house in my life!
That's something I refuse to do
because the people in the house ain't got nothin' to do with
if me and you got a beef
if me and you got a beef, I was gonna try and catch yo ass
and get you. If I see you at a store
you with yo mama, you with yo girl
or you with yo kid, I wouldn't even do nothin'
I would just look at you and shake my head
and you would know mothefucker givin' you a pass
'cause you with yo people
and they ain't got nothin' to do with it
we had rules to this shit
When I got busted I had my little son with me
at the time he was four years old
They didn't have to arrest me in front of my son
That's why I'd be like, fuck!
'Cause I used to say, "you know what?"
I'd rather be in fuckin' jail than broke. Fuck that!
When a motherfucker's sittin' in that fucker
I was like shit, I was out of my fuckin' mind!
I'd give all that shit away to be out there with my son
Every fuckin' thing that I had,
lowriders, everything I'd have gave it all away
just to you know, be back there with my son
because that was my little man
When I look back on all the people
that I lost, is dead
and then all the people that I lost
that's in jail, man this is like
un-fuckin'-believable!
Man, I know that I'm blessed to still be here!
Two things that I regret
When I was sellin' all that dope
to people, fuckin' up the neighborhood,
and being away from my son