2010 i had my first breast cancer diagnosis in my right breast it was invasive lobular carcinoma
i had a right mastectomy no other western medicine made a few changes not really and that was kind of
the end of that 2015 i had my second breast cancer diagnosis different kind of cancer
different breasts invasive ductal carcinoma had a left mastectomy made a few changes not really
and that was kind of the end of that then several years later it recurred metastasized into the
lymph nodes under my left armpit and someone messaged me that i knew and said
if you have a life-threatening illness you have to check out joe dispenza so i read you are the
placebo then i bought a progressive then i thought well i better i better get myself to an event
i refused all western medicine no chemo no drugs no radiation my doctors fired me i fired them
they told me i was gonna die um that was pretty hard to hear actually and then i came to niagara
falls and i was fortunate enough to be chosen as a gili i was my coin was for the last day and it
was the last thing we were doing for the day and he just kept talking and talking and talking and
i was getting so annoyed with him because i was gonna miss my flight right so there's that control
thing and i was like i you know what i'm not even going to do this because i'm going to miss
my flight but i thought you know what i'm here for this so i went into the healing i laid down
people are screaming around me nothing's happening nothing's happening to me and i just kept telling
myself i surrender i surrender i surrender nothing happens the event's over people are hugging
and all of a sudden there it came and so when he says when it happens when you least expect it
it was when you least expect it and it was first the smell came i get a um a smell when something's
releasing and it was of the smell the energy i i everything was freezing it was freezing cold
vibrating my face my heart everything was tingling and the event was over i mean i could i could hear
i could hear what was going on around me and i had a team leader come and sit with me for hours
hours his name was dawn and when i finally came up they sat me up the entire room was broken down i
mean time was gone the av was broken down it was a whole new room i had to learn how to walk again
uh when they took me outside to get some air they were kind of helping me walk when i felt the sun
and the breeze on my face it was like the first time i ever felt the sun or the breeze on my face
i remember thinking in the event when that when that smell came i'm definitely gonna
miss my flight and it was like there goes the control i didn't care the control was gone
i came up i was in love with everything i i when i could barely talk i was trying to whisper to dawn
i love you i love you and i don't think he heard me but then later on i made sure he heard me it
was like the most pure i don't know if i can say this but mdma ever and it was amazing
missed my flight my prefrontal cortex wasn't working i couldn't figure out how to get a hotel
how to get a flight none of it thank god somebody i had a friend who figured it all out for me
i went home i did the work did the work all the while cancer's progressing it's progressing
scans are showing it's growing i was fortunate enough to be a remote healey
at the last marco island event so so much gratitude for these people
not the same experience but it was still it was still incredible i had another
scan cancer is still growing so here's the reason why i wanted to give the testimonial
even though i don't know whether my body is going to heal i just i can't know that it's the unknown
it hasn't healed yet this has been 12 years it might heal i don't know that's the attachment
right letting go of the attachment that's the i am not my body but i can tell you without a doubt
that i am healing my soul my soul is healing all of the psycho-spiritual
causes that are underlying this cancer that i have created are being healed i would you
say karmic right but i know that's not very scientific they're healing and i know that i
will not carry these lessons with me into the next lifetime they are going to be complete if they're
not already complete and i would rather heal my soul and my lessons and heal my body
hopefully i get to heal both right but this is the piece this is why i'm here and then the other
reason i wanted to share my testimonial is that i am signed up for surgery at the end of this month
because the tumors are wrapping around one of them is wrapping around a nerve but the other one's
getting pretty dangerously close to an artery and they said i could lose my arm but the reason i
wanted to share that is because i had a little bit of a sense of betrayal of the work if i went and
did something other than the work like cutting it out and i i just want people to know that
sometimes you might have to do that sometimes you might have to have a little bit of assistance
and i feel like once they do remove the tumors and i don't lose my arm
that then i have even more energy to just complete the healing and it will never come back
you know and that's the other thing is like i have my doctors telling me you will die if you don't
do your treat this treatment do i look like a person who thinks they're gonna die i mean i am so
filled with joy my little three-year-old is here with me right now and i'm i love life