Tamar, can I please just have a look?
No! No!
Graham it's not safe, please just stay away!
No! Not while you're hurt. Come on.
Please.
Let me see it.
You're so stubborn.
Oooh, that looks really bad.
It's my job to take care of you.
Hmmph...
Here we go, give it to me.
Look we knew,
in this trial period there were gonna to be hiccups, right?
These aren't hiccups though Graham, I mean, it's not working.
What?
Is this really any worse than being at The Centre, really?
I know you're worried, you have a right to be worried...
I, I worry too, I worry about you all the time.
But you're gonna to get through this.
You're the strongest person I know.
You must not know many people then.
[Haha]
Hey!
My mother raised four boys alone in Hell's Kitchen,
so maybe you're a close second.
[laugh]
OK.
OK?
Nine...
Ten...
Eleven...
Twelve...
[Exhale]
I think I'm alright, Dr Kessler.
My apologies.
None are necessary.
I understand it's very difficult talking about this
Yes
It's -
I've - been distracted, um
my anxieties have been..
...difficult to manage
on an ongoing basis?
All week.
I've become terrified to leave the apartment
all of a sudden
Graham...
is sweet, but I know he's frustrated
how are things between you two?
well to be honest I don't think he ever noticed my crush
now that we're settled he's more comfortable around me
he's more free to speak his mind
is he treating you well?
Oh, of course
I just mean he's treating me more like a...
...person and less like a patient
it's just made my feelings for him
...more intense
he knows me and he still likes me
and...
I don't know if I'll have another chance at that
Oh, Tamar...
you're young
you don't have to worry that you won't meet the perfect person for you
one day.
That's...
naive.
well.
after everything I've seen, do you really think I'm naive?
I guess not.
but...
Tamar, we talked about this.
You were a child.
and you were...frightened.
nobody blames you for what happened
it's not that simple, Dr. Kessler
I don't know if I'll ever be stable enough to live on my own.
Did something else happen this week?
outside of the ongoing anxiety?
last night...
I felt horrible.
I - I was just...
staring at the ceiling thinking
I wanna go home, I wanna go home, I wanna go home
and
then I fell asleep and I had...
the Classroom dream
and when I woke up my lamp and my night table they were gone
I had vanished them in my sleep.
Um -
the classroom dream?
Yes.
It's from before the Centre
I'm pulled up to the front of the class
I'm just little
obviously
and I don't understand anything anyone is saying
it's like they're all aliens
and then
I try to explain, but...
but the teacher gets angry
and she screams
...like a dinosaur
and - then -
it's all a blur
Tamar -
You can't keep blaming yourself about -
[breathes faster]
hey, are you alright?
she leaned in - and she grabbed me by the shirt
and she yelled -
- right in my face
and nobody would help me
I never told...
I never told anyone at The Centre
I was afraid they'd be mad at me
and then - I grew up and - I forgot
and maybe I'm afraid
because...
I wanted them to go away
I hated them and I wanted them to go away
and leave me alone
It wasn't an accident, Dr. Kessler
and that's why I can't loose control of my emotions, not even for one second -
- because if it got bad enough -
...I could send everyone away.