So the next time you are
Extremely anxious and you're about to do something and you feel extremely sick or you're telling yourself
You can't do it
You have to go you have to escape you can do it use me as a perfect example
I'm throwing up in the car before work. Hello
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Ostracized from across society just cause to suffer from a little anxiety. Please help me I said quietly through
For those of you that don't know or for those of you that are new here and this is the first video of authentic mental
Health's that you've ever watched before I'm 25 years old and I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder
When I was 15, I have suffered with
Anxiety for the past 10 years now my anxiety affects my life on
Every single level possible. It affects my work. It affects my friendships
It affects my relationships
It affects what I can and can't do it affects where I can and can't go it affects my life on
Every single aspect and I'm sure if you're watching and you have been diagnosed with any
anxiety disorder you will be able to relate to what I have just said if you're watching this and you have been
diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder or any other anxiety disorder for that matter
I want you to know that you are not alone here at authentic mental house many of us in this community
suffer from an anxiety disorder and we know exactly
What you are going through on a day-to-day?
Basis and I promise you you are not alone. So as you've already read from the title of this video
My anxiety makes me throw up twice a day. Yes my anxiety
Makes me throw up
twice a day, so I recently
Started a new job which for those of you who suffer from anxiety
will know just
How petrifying and anxious this makes you feel and be before my first day at work
I had thought racing around my head
What if I throw up in front of everybody at work? What if I need to go to the toilet?
But I can't make it. What if they don't let me go to the toilet at work
What if the people at work don't like me and they hate me and they start making fun of me
What if what if what if those were the thoughts that were?
Racing around my mind before my first day at work now. My job hours are from
348 in the morning to 12:30 in the afternoon
So I need to be awake at 2:00 in the morning to get ready
For work and to drive to work. So before my first day at work I could not
Could not
Sleep the night before
Just couldn't I had racing thoughts going through my mind?
I felt sick to the bottom of my stomach. I couldn't sleep
I was tossing I was turning my eyes were closed. I just wasn't falling asleep
It was horrible then at two o'clock in the morning the alarm goes off. It's time to get up Charlie
You've got to head to work. You've got to brush your teeth. Put your clothes on get in the car and drive to work
So I did that and I must say
the next 45 minutes
Were bother eventful as I was driving on the freeway
I had my hands on the steering wheel and I was heaving my anxiety was on
Levels that it's never been before or hasn't been that high in a very very long time. I was physically
Heaving and when I say heaving I mean like choking heaving my eyes were watering
I was trying to concentrate on driving
Because I didn't want to be late and make my anxiety even worse and it was just a horrible horrible
experience and then
It gets worse
It gets worse. I
arrive at work and I park in the carpark my very first day this is very
very first day and I'm sat in the car and that's when it just
Hit me my fight-or-flight
Responses were well and truly kicked in at this stage
I had adrenaline going through all of my body. It felt horrible. I keep heaving heaving
Heaving heaving and heaving some more until I get to the point
where I throw up on myself
So I was wearing a sweater and a t-shirt underneath the sweater and I threw up all
On my sweater, and I'm at work
I'm about to head in I have like 10 minutes to get into work and I've thrown up on my clothes
It just couldn't get any worse. It really couldn't oh, but it does because I threw up
for a second time all
over myself now my anxiety is
Ridiculously bad because not only have I thrown up I've thrown up on my clothes that I have to wear
For my first day at work
My mind was just gone
It was just completely gone. I said I can't do this. I can't go to work
I stink of the row up thinking of no I've thrown up. I look terrible. I've got throw-up all down me
It's just I can't do it. I
Cannot do it. My anxiety was so high and at this stage I was having panic attacks
I was going I can't do this. I can't do this. I can't do this then heaving I can't do this
I can't do this. I can't do this then heaving some more telling myself constantly. I can't do this. I can't do this
I can't do this and that's when I told myself I need to get out of my head. I'm
too in this I'm
Thinking way too much and that's what generalized anxiety disorder does it makes you worry?
Uncontrollably, so I decided to tell myself out loud I can do this. I can do this
I can do this. I can do this. I took off my sweatshirt and
Luckily the throw-up didn't seek through onto my t-shirt underneath, but it did unfortunately
get on my trousers that I was wearing and obviously I couldn't take them off because
Firstly nobody wants to see me wouldn't nothing on down below. And secondly, I can't go into work with nothing on behind below
So I was kind of stuck with that and there was really nothing I could do about it
And I'm repeating to myself over and over and over and over again. I can do this
I can do this. I can do this so I closed my eyes and
inhale
And then exhale I
Opened my eyes reach for the door got out of the car and walked into work
Still feeling anxious
Still feeling sick still feeling like I can't do it. But do you know what do you want to know something?
I did do it I did
but every morning before work
I've been there for a week now the same thing happens
My anxiety is really bad at the moment and I throw up in the car
twice
Every morning before I go to work. I actually have a sick bag in my car
so when I park my car in the car park at work, I
Can throw up because I learn not to throw up on my sweatshirt or what? I am wearing
So I have a sick bag now. Well, I call it a sick bag is just a plastic bag and this experience has really
Really taught me a lot about myself and it can teach you a lot too
Because there's an important message to this video. I totally understand how
Anxiety can make you feel sick can cause you to be physically sick
Can make you feel and think like you can't do things like you have to escape like you have to run away
go to your safe place and that's how I feel every
single morning before work, so I totally
understand how you're feeling, too, but
You are stronger than you think and then what you know
You can do it. Even when you're throwing up even when you're telling yourself
You can't do it even when you want to run away to your safe place
Even when you want to escape you can do it. I promise you you are stronger than you think and
Then what you know, the anxiety is extreme
But it's temporary and after about 30 minutes at work my anxiety
Slowly diminishes each second that on there. It doesn't completely go away
But it diminishes
every couple of seconds
until it's minimal and
bearable so the next time you are
extremely anxious and
You're about to do something and you feel extremely sick or you're telling yourself. You can't do it
You have to go you have to escape you can do it use me as a perfect example
I'm throwing up in the car before work and I push past it
I do it. I tell myself over and over and over again. I can do it I can do it I can do it
I can do it and I do it because I'm stronger then I give myself credit for and I'm stronger than I think and
Then I know and I promise you you are - you can do anything you put your mind to
You can do anything. You want the feelings of the anxiety or the
Panic attacks will be for a short
period of time
Yes, it's difficult. Yes, it's horrible. Yes, it's scary to experience. I know I've been there
I'm there every single morning before work, but you can do it
I promise you so next time you're in a similar position to myself
Remind yourself that you are stronger than you know
And then what you think?
Remind yourself. You can do whatever you're about to do
You can do it and the way you're feeling in that moment is
Temporary and it will pass with time
I promise you because it happens to me every single
Morning, I know I hear from you guys and girls in the comment section down below
Do you have any similar stories that are very similar to mine?
What does your anxiety cause you to do?
Does it cause you to have an upset stomach does it cause you to go to the toilet?
does it cause you to physically throw up like mine does I
want to hear your
Stories and the reason why I shared my story with you is because I want to remind you that you are not
Alone, you are not a failure because of how you're feeling
You are not a loser because of what you're feeling you are not crazy because how you're feeling you are not
alone
And you are stronger and braver
Than you give yourself credit for so I want to hear your stories in the comment section down below
So others can see that they are not alone going through what they're going through if you can relate to this video
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Stories like this again in the future. Take care guys and girls and I'll see you all again tomorrow in another video