Hey what's up I'm Rachel Star schizophrenic so a lot of times people mean
well like they do um especially when another person is having
a hard time you know we're talking about depression having a hard time with
bipolar schizophrenia schizoaffective pretty much anything
I'll have you'll just don't know what to say um but a common thing that I hear
and I think it's used obviously for any struggle is it gets better or it will
get better why I think this is dangerous when it comes to mental disorders um my
schizophrenia has never gotten better um in fact it's gotten like a lot worse I
have a lot of people reach out to me you know that are going through breakdowns
whether you're talking about depression schizophrenia um suicide all that kind
of thing and I've never said that to them I've never said it's gonna get
better and because I don't know and I don't want to give someone false hope be
like hey you know what it's gonna get better one day you're not gonna have
depression one day your schizophrenia is gonna be like so so manageable like
you're not even gonna notice is there or you're gonna be cured maybe a magic pill
will come out because it's like a false hope and I don't want to give people
that because a lot of people have tried to say that to me it kind of frustrates
me cuz they'll be like you know it'll get better Rachel like it won't though so
a lot times when people message me a lot of times I even stress it might get
worse there's a very good chance that it can get worse
a lot of times I think I've hit rock bottom on something and then like like
the bottom caves in and I'm like oh my goodness I had no idea we could fall so
much further I think something better to say um is you'll get stronger my
schizophrenia has gotten so much worse but it's funny because looking back like
the stuff that I thought was bad at like twenty twenty-one is nothing now Oh like
I was so dramatic and just thought my world was falling apart over like a few
hallucinations whereas like now I'm just hallucinating
stop-in in is just humorous because I was just everything was so horrible back
then where I'm like now the schizophrenia is worse but this stuff doesn't
bother me I've gotten stronger I've gotten used to it
now if you're thinking especially like well Rachel you're talking about
hallucinations or what about like things like depression yeah I know my diff my
depressions never gone away um it's gotten worse at times I can't say it's
gotten better oh I say maybe like level at times um bad and then went back to
level constant depression but I can't say it ever is I'm like went away um I
don't even really know what that would feel like I have no idea
um I have no idea what it would be like to go through a day and not want to kill
myself and not have like thoughts to do so like I don't know um it's just always
there it's always like just a constant kind of intrusive thought urge but it
doesn't really bother me I mean it's annoying I wish it wasn't there but I
still go to work I still make my videos I still do do what I do um whereas you
know when I was younger that was just like you know suicide attempts just
wanting to hurt myself and just you know complete breakdowns over it whereas now
it's like that's just part of my life of course nobody is like oh I want that to
be part of my life um you just get stronger and just this stuff doesn't
bother you anymore so whatever you're going through no I I can't guarantee you
it's going to get better like I I don't know you I don't know your mental
disorder I don't know the situations in your life it could totally get way worse
but you will get stronger and one day you'll look back and almost laugh
because this was nothing I'm Rachel Star thank you so much for watching like
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