- I have not been in very many relationships in my life.
I'm just a very cautious person in general, especially
when it comes to getting my feelings hurt.
I've gotten my heart broken before,
you know, I've been in situations where
I unfortunately like broke someone's heart before
and we pretty much broke each other's hearts or whatever,
you know, it's been painful so after that, I'm just like,
okay, I'm clearly not ready for this.
I remember being 15 and watching a movie "About Time"
and just having like the biggest crush
on like Rachel McAdams.
and I feel like when I met her,
she's a combination of like all the girls
that I've ever liked, she's just into like one person,
so I was like, this is definitely,
I definitely manifested this too.
The song was made, by me and like Bekon and The Donuts.
I felt very happy that day, and just kind of like,
I felt like everything was like, right. It was just one
of those days where I just felt really inspired
and you know, it was like some universal love type stuff
I would just woke up and I just felt great.
I was like, I wanna make a song
I also met a girl and that also inspired it,
I think the girl really inspired it for sure (laughing).
It's kind of about like someone
who just has like a lot of love to give to other people,
but feel like, you know, they're doing too much
and like, people don't really reciprocate that love.
That's very raunchy and, I think people
know where I'm coming from with that line(laughing).
I've been in situations like that before,
but it's never really been like a big thing where it's like,
I find out about something and then I'm like, Oh,
like I'm not friends with you anymore. It's more just kind
of like, it's very fluid and I just kind of read it
as I'm in this situation and then I'm kind of like, okay,
like I see where this is going.
That's something that happens to a lot of people too.
It doesn't happen to only like specific people
or specific relationships or situations,
sometimes it just feels like the whole world
is like that some days
and also the reality line is just me being as essential.
It's a feeling of just like just temporary happiness
that you have with someone, like,
when people kind of see happiness
in other people instead of or like when people put labels
on just like, okay, like,
I'm happy when I'm with this person
or I'm happy when I'm doing this or that.
It's cool, but it's kind of like, you know,
you only get the happiness and just very short bursts.
Why do that when you can just be alone every day
and just do your thing and still be happy(laughing).
Oh, wishing Well, it could be anything I think,
it could be people, it could be situations,
it could be romantic relationships
and whatever you think it might be really.
I think the best way of moving on
is to just cry as much as you can
because I think like when something hurts you so much,
sometimes you just gotta like, let out the emotions
and I think like when I cry about something,
I always feel better after.
So it's like at this point, I don't even feel
weak about crying I'm just like, hell yeah,
I'm crying, like finally, like it's
so hard sometimes like what you go through something hard
and it's just so painful that you can't even cry.
It's so annoying when you cry I think that's when, like,
you know, your brain just processes all those emotions
and you know, after it does that,
you just kind of like big way clear,
Like about quarantine
and just about everything that's happening in the world.
A lot of people are kind of like changing the perspectives
on a lot of things and people are kind of like waking up
it's been really really,
you know, extreme for a lot of people.
It felt like a trip, you know,
like the past few months it felt like
just a huge trip that we're all just kind of like
what the fuck is going on
and we're all just trying to just process it
just collectively, just as humans.
When you kind of like, think about these things,
it kind of drives you insane,
it kind of like makes you
sometimes like, sound crazy talking about it
and you know, other people
kind of look at you crazy and then, I also don't believe
in the term crazy people because you know, like when people
are called crazy, it's just like,
it's a very subjective word.
Sometimes people just like really really
understand things, but don't really know how to
kind of like, explain themselves
they're kind of put it in words that, you know,
other people would understand, so they call them crazy.
My parents are gonna be watching this,
so this never happened and I,
I met a girl I have a girlfriend now and she's sick.
It's been a very natural process, It was kind of the first
time I felt that way about someone. It really felt like we,
we just kind of vibed and like the matter of like a minute.
She's great man, she's just like, I feel like she's like
literally me 2.0, she's very independent, she's very smart,
she definitely thinks for herself
and I could tell that, even if we didn't find each other,
she would do just fine in life.
Me and her we just like, we just have good communication,
Like our communication is so good that we, like,
we literally just like talk about our feelings,
like all the time so we never fight, like,
whenever we like get almost like close to fighting, we just
come up with a solution like five seconds later
and so all the people watching this
I'm so sorry if you are single,
but hopefully this inspires you to also manifest
a beautiful relationship in your life.
I think a lot of people can relate to this especially guys,
they get a new girl a lot of their homies are like,
like what's up with this girl?
your friends will say what they need to say,
but at the end of the day,
you also have the choice to either listen to them
and be influenced by that thought and kind of like,
look at your girl and be like,
Oh shit Like, should I, you know,
really be with this girl?
Or take those things that your friends say in consideration,
and then look at your situation with your girl
and then be like, okay, like
I'm still okay with this anyway.
It's about just kind of like my own self realization.
I'm 20 years old, I just have one of those moments
that people have when they're like, when they turn like 23
or 25 or something and then just all the dots
just start connecting in their brains
I'm just like, wow, like this is crazy.
I always try to be humble and it's always been great
but at the same time, I've put myself in a lot of situations
where I stressed myself out.
I realized that like I have free will
and I actually do these things.
It's not because some sort of like,
crazy like magic happen or anything like that.
When I watch movies like "Life of Pi" or like "127 hours",
I get so inspired because I'm just like,
I feel like I would be really happy
and stress free in those situations.
It's 'cause like, I'm the type of person
that would never get bored by myself
and I always love entertaining myself.