what's up everybody welcome back to my
channel now today we are doing nothing
makeup related I kind of just wanted to
turn the camera on sit here for a little
bit and just talk to you guys I know I
mentioned on snapchat a week or two ago
just kind of about like letting walls
down and letting you guys know a little
bit more about me personally I know for
the last year and a half as I have
entered the youtube realm I have really
just stuck to makeup makeup makeup and I
know I did a video like six months ago
that was called the tattoo diaries part
one where I kind of let you guys in on
my life and so many of you loved that
video
sorry that I haven't done a follow up to
it yet it is definitely coming but um
there's been a lot of like crazy rumors
and drama and just a bunch of negative
[ __ ] all over the internet about I mean
it's always about me but a lot of it
recently is just about me and Nathan and
I just kind of wanted to sit down here
and talk about my relationship
everything about it and just address a
lot of rumors that I've been seeing but
before we even dive into that let's talk
about the elephant in the room and no I
don't mean this [ __ ] beautiful
highlight I'm talking about my hair this
is actually not a wig so for everyone
that does not follow me on snapchat my
hair colorist David he shoutout to you
David because you transform me baby
we were actually going to do like hot
coral or like a peachy type of coral
vibe I was like I want like peach hair
I want peach so we started to lift out
the hot pink and it came out like so
easy I have a really good genetics in my
family when it comes to hair
well not hair lines huh-huh insert joke
there but we always have really strong
hair and our families like you can diet
bleach it flat iron and do whatever and
it feels so healthy so I said you know
what David let's take it there so we
were doing the hair and all of a sudden
all the pink was gone and I was like oh
my god you guys I haven't had blonde
hair in literally nine years I used to
bleach my own hair in high school I used
to have like white platinum blonde and
I've had pink and green and so many
other colors throughout the years
definitely feels a little weird to me
right now like when I looked in the
mirror the other day I was like oh my
god the next morning I was like holy
[ __ ] who is this and it's crazy it
almost feels like a part of me is like
missing
it sounds weird but it's definitely
something that I'm gonna probably keep
for a few months and then I'll do my
peach idea but for now I'm having a
little blond Ambition moments do blondes
have more fun I guess we'll find out so
I'm not really sure how to start this
video but I guess I'm going to just
address a lot of things that I've been
seeing and hearing and just like have
been witnessing all over the internet
now it's really crazy because when you
are dating someone or in love with
someone you really don't hear all of the
I guess negative stuff but when you live
your life online like I do and you are
all over YouTube and the internet and
Instagram snapchat and Facebook
obviously my life is in front of an
audience and I know that but it's crazy
when complete strangers try to pick
apart my relationship or make things up
and try to convince people that this is
real or like I've literally seen videos
of me and Nathan where someone had
literally just made up something out of
their ass and it literally never
happened wasn't even true and there's
like a thousand comments on this video
of people like debating it and talking
about it and agreeing with it or
disagreeing and it's just like blows my
mind that my relationship is even like
that exciting for people but then I have
to realize you know me and Nathan have
been building a story on YouTube and we
have been together for about two years
now and a few months and so much has
happened when I introduced him on my
channel I have no idea where the future
would take us and here we are you know
we have a house in Calabasas together we
have four dogs we have this amazing life
but a lot of you only see us you know
reviewing face masks or you know on
trips together and you really don't know
what is like under the surface or what
is behind the pink curtain as I'm gonna
call it at the end of the day do I
really care what people say about me no
but then there comes to a point where
actually maybe I kind of do on some
subjects because when people try to tell
me your boyfriend's only with you for
the money or your boyfriend has a weird
vibe or your boyfriend just wants you
know your bank account it's so crazy cuz
I'm like where did you even get that
from so let me rewind to early 2014 when
I started talking to Nathan and met him
for the very first time at the time I
was single for like seven years and
we'll talk about that later but when I
met him I had really just started my
company I was not wealthy I was not a
millionaire I did not have a crazy brand
I did not have a YouTube channel I
didn't have any of these things so it
just kind of makes me sad when people
try to throw that card in and I think a
lot of people hate to see others happy
we are in a very weird time in the world
where other people's success or
happiness makes other people upset
jealous angry and I can't really
understand now whenever I saw other
people more successful than me or had
nicer things in me or were doing
something I wanted to do or I never
looked at it as like oh my god [ __ ] them
like [ __ ] this [ __ ] I can't believe
they're doing it I'm not it made me want
to work harder and made me motivated but
I know a lot of people aren't like that
so but Nathan met me before I had money
plain and simple so please let's move on
from that subject and I don't know what
people think like you think he just logs
into my bank account every day or has a
debit card and just go shopping all day
you know what's really funny and I'm
just gonna keep it so real as usual when
I met Nathan he had no idea you guys
what any designer label was he is a
small-town guy from Michigan and people
don't really give a [ __ ] about Louie
Vuitton and chanel out there they're
literally trying to like pay the rent
and you know work and try to find a job
and just you know everyone's pretty
normal out there and they are not
wrapped up into social media or any of
this [ __ ] so it trips me out how
people try to I guess say things that
are literally a lie and it's crazy when
people make story time videos about me
and Nathan and they'll and they have you
know Adsense which if you don't know
what that is it's basically ads on their
video which makes them money so while
they're degrading me and my man they're
making money off of it so it's like
you're making money off of people's you
know sadness or anger or pain or lies
and it's just kind of crazy like we live
in a whole nother world to get back on
track before I met Nate I was single for
a long time and the reason why is
because I am really not attracted to
anyone but what we call in this world as
a straight male
or a normal dude and what I mean by that
is like you know I am really into
straight guys and I know that is going
to not be surprising to a lot of you if
you have been someone that has followed
me for a long time
you know I come from the music world if
you are unfamiliar with my music career
I did music for eight to nine long years
I traveled the world I met you know a
million people I had I grew an amazing
fan base and this is way before I ever
had a makeup line or did YouTube from
just traveling the world I would always
fall in lust I'm gonna say lust because
to me I have never been in love until
now and I really I guess that really hit
me and I really realized that when I met
Nathan I had never felt like this with
someone before I'd never had that strong
of a connection so you know from just
traveling everywhere and meeting dudes
all the time and being around that world
for so long I really kind of fell into a
trap of always being someone that was
kept like this secret and when you are
someone like me who is you know I get
asked all the time even every day on my
channel you guys I get comments are you
a guy are you a girl
are you transgender are you trying to
transition what are you and I don't even
know how to answer that like obviously I
was born a male I just feel like I'm
Jeffrey being someone that is like me
that is a guy that looks like a woman
right I keep doing this because so many
people are not into labels these days
and I love that I'm all about that you
do you call yourself whatever you want
whatever you believe in I think that is
the beauty and the freedom of you know
living is we can be whoever we want to
be I have always been into straight men
and the problem with that my entire life
is I never found real love because
straight men behind closed doors they
love people like me they love hooking up
they love having fun they love the
relationship as long as other people
don't know as long as their family
doesn't know as long as their friends
don't know so imagine you guys always
being the secret and never fully being
accepted and never fully loved I was
tired of that I was really really tired
of it so I went on a long hiatus from
dating people hooked up with people had
fun had little you know flings and
little relationships I think if you date
someone for two months that is not your
boyfriend you literally were hanging
someone for a few months I didn't work
out so I don't like to call people my
boyfriend if I dated you for a few
months I think that's silly
until I met Nate I'd never had I guess
real real love and I get asked all the
time how can someone that is a straight
male be into you men are into me and I
know it's kind of shocking to some
people a lot of you were like girl we
know the T we already know it you know
rappers and actors and all these people
behind closed doors are hooking up with
guys that look like chicks and and
transgender people and it's a very
common thing maybe not where you are
from but in California it is a very big
and I've traveled the world you guys
I've had a million guys married single
divorce all have hit on me and you know
it that's just sexuality you know we can
have a sexuality video some other time I
would definitely have to do one so when
I met Nathan he had only ever been with
chicks and if you guys go back on my
channel and watch a lot of our Q&A is
you will find a lot of Nathan's history
and he even explains it a little that
you know he's always been attracted to
guys that look like women I've been in
Michigan there is no Jeffery stars there
are no Nikita dragons there are no Gigi
gorgeous there there there are none of
us beautiful
you know creatures and those beautiful
women in Michigan so I think when they
found me he was like oh my god this is
like I don't know I don't know what he
thought really I'm I guess we can ask
him one day but he was attracted to me
obviously he hit me up and I was really
attracted to him something about him
drew me in and I was like okay like let
me give this guy a chance I had no idea
what to expect you guys he flew to LA
for two days literally a weekend he's
like I'm gonna come hang out let's just
chill whatever I thought really if we're
gonna be really real I thought we were
just gonna hook up say goodbye have a
good weekend together and then that was
that and I'll never forget when he
pulled up to my house and I locked eyes
with him I was like whoa I don't know
what it was I don't even how to explain
the feeling of like a real bond like
this connection that just like hit me
and I was almost like breathless two and
a half years later I can say that I
think I have finally not think I know
truly deep down that I have real love
and I don't even know how to explain it
love is such a weird thing I know a lot
of you out there have children you're
married you're divorced you're single
there are so many walks of life out
there watching this and I just
let you know that it took me 29 years to
find someone decent enough that
respected me that you know I want to
give my time too and you know Nate has
had to deal with a lot he's had to deal
with me you know growing as a brand as a
person as a you know influencer as a
celebrity whatever you want to call me I
think all those words are silly but we
do love to label things and it's also
important I get it but whatever you want
to call me is that Nate has grown with
me because you know been with me since
day one when I even wanted to start a
channel we have filmed videos together
that have had millions and millions of
views and I think a lot of you were
enamored by the fact that Nate loves
women but he also is now dating me and I
think a lot of you are tripped out by
that and it's crazy how many girls and
women out there are still direct
messaging me on Instagram and it's it's
bizarre to me like there's girls you
guys that literally right let me know
when you're done with that [ __ ] come
back to the [ __ ] and I'm like girl I
just think it's sad that people want to
try to ruin a relationship or try to
break it up but the thing about Nate is
that there is so much trust like I wish
you guys could see him day to day and
see what a beautiful strong amazing nice
genuine like person that he is because
you know I know that you guys see a
fraction of what it is on YouTube and
online but um you know we have full
transparency you know I don't know how
other couples rate are but like we
really don't ever argue like there's
really not much to ever argue about
everything is always happy and amazing
and I've never felt like this before
it's crazy to think that other people
out there want to hurt a relationship or
people want him to you know try to write
back so you can screenshot it and make a
news story and it's just like oh my god
I couldn't imagine being that unhappy
with myself where I would want to hurt
others I guess I can't relate to that so
for all you people out there that like
to try to DM other people as men you
need help you really do and when you
grow up later in life you will realize
how dark and sad that aspect really is I
could never imagine doing that to
someone so I think to kind of go back to
what I'm really trying to say here is I
want to let you guys know
that I am in love and I think that is so
funny to say on a video because I've
never felt these feelings before but you
know here we are two years plus later
and I finally feel accepted I can't
believe that someone accepts me for all
my flaws you all know I'm not perfect
you know we all have our personality
what we're gonna call them defects or
you know we have our issues and we've
had our pasts and we all come from
something and we all come from a you
know whether it's a good or dark past
and you know when you meet someone they
have to figure that out we have to
realize like oh my god can I really
accept this person for everything
that they are and also you guys being in
the spotlight or being in front of an
audience all the time can be difficult
for a relationship and there's always so
many factors from all angles coming in
whether it's negative or positive and
Nathan just loves me completely for me
he's accepted all of my flaws and you
know I'm not one to always get emotional
but it's crazy to sit here and think
about that like you know it took me 29
years to finally feel accepted by a man
that really is compassionate and has
real love and I get asked all the time
you know how to make parents feel about
you how does this family feel about you
and you know it's crazy that they are
all so open-minded amazing individuals
they don't look at me as anything but
just Jeffrey you know a normal person
who is you know dating their son and
they love me it's so fun to go to
Michigan you know me and Nate just
bought a house and Grand Rapids and
shout out to all my Michigan people in
the man I'll be there very soon on and
off all throughout the year and it's
cool to just you know go to Michigan and
you know go to the gun range and you
know go to restaurants and go camping
and hiking and all these fun things and
just be a normal person at the end of
the day once the makeup is all off and
I'm just sitting there they accept me
for me I don't know you guys I guess I
just wanted to share that and I don't
know if you know I don't really do story
time videos on my channel so if this is
a little jumbled I'm sorry but I just
wanted to say thank you to everyone out
there that watches my channels that
just my reviews in my makeup tutorials
and that trust me for my opinion you
know that's what I'm here for and I love
you guys so much thank you for watching
this video and of course if you guys
want more story time videos please let
me know in the comment section down
below and I just also want to say a side
note I know a lot of you have been
seeing snapchats with like jewelry
no me and Nathan are not engaged I have
been wearing rings for a while now he
has a ring on his right hand and I think
every time he like snapshots it like
flips it so you guys are like wait is
that his left hand are they engaged I
don't know if I ever want to get married
maybe I'll get married in a year maybe
I'll never get married I don't know yet
but I do know that we are happy how we
are right now and we don't need a
ceremony or a piece of paper to change
any of that besides that no kids no
marriage a lot more dogs and a lot more
adventures we do love traveling the
world and I really appreciate all of you
guys that watch our vlogs and everything
we do on the road it's just so fun to be
able to travel with your best friend and
you know wake up every morning to
someone that can look at you with no
makeup and a bare face and just say I
love you I think that is one of the most
rewarding feelings as a human being is
to actually experience that so alright
guys that is it for today and I don't
know I told myself we're not gonna cry
on YouTube we're not gonna require in
this channel so I am going to let you
guys go for now and I will see you on
the next one mwah bye guys