Time To Get Serious
It's Time to answer the question
that SO many people have asked me
not just, online but my entire life
AM I GAY?
It seems no matter what I post online
there's gonna be a comment asking me "If i'm gay"
or telling me that "I'm gay"
or telling me that something that I did was "gay"
I'm assuming that the thing that I did was not actually gay
"to be sexually attracted to one's own sex"
I don't see anything in that definition describing the way someone looks
or acts
It's the first thing that comes up on google!
Is anthony ... gay
there's an answers dot com article
that should hopefully, clear this all up for us.
click to see answer
what the fuck?
Its... why is this picture..what is that, Mark Walhburg in the background?
That he's... Okay-
There's a fuckin pop-up --I've had to click through
six pages
just to find out if I'm gay or not.
not gay.
Well Answers.com says I'm not gay
So I'm, uh, that must be right
...right?
....Right??
Wait now I'm really confused, I thought you weren't gay
Why are you, why are you making me
now question?
I want you to realize that
it doesn't...
matter.
What people think of me has always been on my mind
And, I think it stemmed
from this
one time --I must've been 7 years old
And, I show up to school
With my favorite lunch box ever
This kid comes up to me and he's like
"Yo what is that?"
"What it's my new lunch box.
It's pretty cool right?"
"No! It's fuckin PURPLE!"
And I'm seven years old!
And this kid is throwin the F-Bomb out there
But I'm like, "Yeah, it's, uh,
it's a purple lunch box.
It's also got Mickey Mouse on it.
Pretty cool, right?"
And he's like, "NO! It's PURPLE!
Purple is GAY!"
I didn't know what that word meant, but
I knew that it had a negative
connotation based off the way he said it
And, I
stopped bringing that lunch box to school
I didn't want to be "Gay"
I think from that point forward
I... started really caring
about what people thought
about me. And as I got a little bit older,
I learned what the word "gay" meant
And I learned all the
stereotypes of what
a gay man
looks like, what a gay man
talks like, what a gay man likes.
I decided I didn't want to be
any of those things
because I --it was seen as
negative! So I was like, "No!
I like CARS.
I like SPORTS. I'm into all
this stuff that isn't GAY."
I like flowers! I like the color
pink! All these things
would be seen as gay
if I were to publicaly talk about
liking these things.
I don't know why I care if
some random person on the internet
calls me gay. I've even had girlfriends
ask me if I was gay.
Because they've never seen a straight guy
care about his hair or
the way he dressed or
want to keep his room really clean
or... you know
I walked a certain way or
I danced a certain way
I'm tired of changing
my behavior for other people
I'm tired of making sure that I
dress a certain way, don't
cross my legs too tight,
or hold my hands in a certain way
I just want to be me!
I just, I wanna embrace that!
I know it's easier said than done.
Fuck it.
Let's just
be ourselves. We can't be
anything better
than ourselves.
... this is --that was
really fuckin cheesy.
Look I know the struggles that I just mentioned are
minuscule
compared to SO many other struggles out there.
If you ARE gay, and you're struggling
with that, I know that's so much harder
than me being like,
"Oh! I'm straight, but
people are CALLING me gay!" I mean
if people are using
your actual sexual orientation
as a negative slur,
it's definitely way worse than anything
I've dealt with.
What's the point if we're all just trying to
fit in?
Well, I'll see you next week with something
Considerably less serious. [laughs]
Alright, bye.