>>> I HAD THIS WHOLE DREAM LIFE I ENVISIONED FOR MYSELF, A REAL
CAREER.
I WOULD MARRY A MAN LIKE DAD, BE A MOM LIKE MOM. MAN LIKE DAD, BE
A MOM LIKE MOM. BUT LOOK AT ME, KEV.
LIKE I ATE MY DREAM LIFE AWAY.
>> PART OF THE MAGIC OF THAT
SHOW.
CHRISSY METZ AUDITIONED FOR "THIS IS US" WITH THAT SCENE
RIGHT THERE, SHOWING HER
CHARACTER KATE HAVING TO CALL
HER BROTHER FOR HELP AFTER SHE
FELL OFF THE SCALE IN THE
BATHROOM.
BATHROOM.
HER HONEST RAW PERFORMANCE WHONO HER THE JOB AND CHANGED HERWHONO
HER THE JOB AND CHANGED HER LIFE.
LIFE.
YOU HAD NO MONEY.
BEEN IN HOLLYWOOD FOR NINE YEARS.N HOLLYWOOD FOR NINE
YEARS.
>> 12 JEERS.
>> -- YEARS.
>> AS AN AGENT FOR NINE. >> NOT HAPPENING.R NINE.
>> NOT HAPPENING.
>> YOU GOT ONE ROLE. AND THEN YOU GET THIS ROLE.
ONE THING I TAKE AWAY IS YOU
HAVE SOME THINGS IN COMMON WITH
KATE.
I WOULD SUGGEST YOURE MUCH MORE EVOLVED AND OKAY WITH YOURSELFE
EVOLVED AND OKAY WITH YOURSELF THAN KATE IS, AM I RIGHT?
>> THATS EXACTLY MY RESPONSE
WHEN PEOPLE ASK.
THATS EXACTLY -- IM GLAD THAT
WAS PERCEIVED. YEAH, I SORT OF USED TO BE KATE.
SHES NOT QUITE COMFORTABLE,
STILL IDENTIFIES WITH HER BODY
IN A DIFFERENT WAY THAN I DO.
I KNOW MY BODY IS NOT MY
IDENTITY.
IDENTITY.
ITS WHO I AM AND HOW I TREAT
PEOPLE.
SHES GETTING THERE.
>> YOURE OPEN IN THE BOOK ABOUT
THAT EVOLUTION.
>> YEAH.
>> ABOUT BEING OVERWEIGHT AS A
KID, AND ONE THING I WANTED TO
ASK YOU ABOUT WAS THE TREATMENT BY MEN. ABOUT WAS THE TREATMENT
BY MEN.
>> UH-HUH.
>> THERES A THEME OF THERE WAS A BOYFRIEND NAMED DEREK, YOURS
A BOYFRIEND NAMED DEREK, YOUR BEST FRIENDS MAYAS BROTHER,
AND THEN LATER THE GUY IN THE
SUPERMARKET.
SUPERMARKET.
>> RIGHT.
>> THE GUY IN YOUR INDUSTRY.
>> RIGHT.
>> AND THE THEME WAS THAT THEY WERE HAPPY TO BE WITH YOU THEY
WERE HAPPY TO BE WITH YOU
PRIVATELY.
>> RIGHT.
>> BUT --
>> BUT NOT PUBLICLY. ITS NOT AN UNCOMMON THING.
I KNOW A LOT OF MEN AND WOMEN
WHO GO THROUGH THAT.
AND IT HAS MORE TO SAY, OF
COURSE, ABOUT THEM THAN ME.
AND THEYRE CONTENDING WITH
THEIR OWN STUFF.
AND ITS JUST AMAZING HOW MUCH
SOCIETY -- HOW MUCH WE ALLOW
SOCIETY TO PRESSURE US TO DO
THINGS THAT WE KNOW WE WANT TO
DO, BUT WE DONT FEEL LIKE WE
CAN DO PUBLICLY.
AND NOT TO CAST JUDGMENT, BUT --
>> IM JUDGING THEM.
I AM.
I AM.
>> YOU KNOW, I DONT BECAUSE,
YOU KNOW, ITS THEIR
INSECURITIES AND THEY -- WE
PROJECT OUR STUFF ON OTHER PEOPLE. OUR STUFF ON OTHER
PEOPLE.
>> YOUVE BEEN STRONG WITH IT. I MEAN, YOU ADMIT TO GOING TO,
YOU KNOW, A CAMP TO TRY TO LOSE
WEIGHT.
WEIGHT. AND THE WEIGHT -- SOME WEIGHT
CAME OFF AND SOME WEIGHT CAME
ON.
ON.
TALK ABOUT WHY YOU THINK YOUVE OVEREATEN? WHY YOU THINK YOUVE
OVEREATEN?
>> WELL, FOOD, GROWING UP, FOOD
WAS LOVE.
I SPENT A LOT OF TIME WITH MY GRANDMOTHER WHO WOULD PICK ME UP
FROM SCHOOL AND TAKE ME HOME AND
MAKE LUNCH FOR ME.
IT WASNT ABOUT THE FOOD, IT WAS
ABOUT THE QUALITY TIME I SPENT
WITH HER.
WITH HER.
BUT I ASSOCIATED THAT WITH THE
FOOD, WITH THE LOVE.
WE ALL FILL THE VOID WITH SOMETHING, SOCIAL MEDIA,H
SOMETHING, SOCIAL MEDIA, RELATIONSHIPS, GAMBLING, YOU
NAME IT, WHATEVER.
BECAUSE WERE AFRAID TO FEEL
LIKE REAL FEELINGS.
WE STUFF THEM WITH OTHER THINGS.
AND SO ONCE YOU PUT THE FOOD
DOWN, YOU PUT THE THING DOWN,
ALL THESE FEELINGS COME UP.
YOURE LIKE, OH --
>> SPEAKING OF SOCIAL MEDIA,
SHES GOT A GREAT LINE IN THERE
ABOUT DEALING WITH SOCIAL MEDIA
TROLLS.
TROLLS.
CHRISSY HAS TAKEN MORE THAN HER FAIR SHARE. TAKEN MORE THAN HER
FAIR SHARE.
>> EVERY FAT JOKE MAN TO MAN
GETS TROTTED OUT LIKE ITS
SOMETHING NEW AND EXCITING IN
ITS NASTINESS. I COULD GET CAUGHT UP IN THEM.
THEY DONT KNOW ME, I KNOW ME.
I LOVE THAT LINE.
AND YOUR FASHION, LETS TALK FOR
A MINUTE ABOUT BEING A FASHION
ICON DESPITE ALL THE SHAME
PEOPLE TRY TO PUT ON YOU, THEY
SUGGEST THERE ARE RULES FOR
OVERWEIGHT PEOPLE.
OVERWEIGHT PEOPLE.
DONT SHOW YOUR ARMS.
>> DONT WEAR COLOR, DONT SHOW YOUR ARMS, YOU DONT WANT TO BE
SEEN, OH, AGAIN, THATS -- THEY
FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE SEEING, YOU
KNOW, PLUS-SIZE PEOPLE.
WHETHER THEYRE COMFORTABLE IN
THEIR SKIN OR CLOTHING AND BOTH.
I CANT ATTACH TO THAT.
OUR PERCEPTIONS, ARE OUR
REALITIES.
REALITIES.
>> IM WEARING LATEX.
>> WHO CARES, ITS LATEX, JUST A
DIFFERENT MATERIAL.
WHY -- EVERYBODY WAS UP IN ARMS.
>> LOOK AT THIS, ITS SO GREAT.
>> I DONT UNDERSTAND IT.
WHAT IS OFFENSIVE -- COME ON.
>> CAN YOU TELL THE STORY YOU
WERE AT THE AWARDS SHOW, AND WHO
WAS COMING OVER TO KISS YOU AND
WHAT DID YOU SAY TO HIM?
>> WE WERE PRESENTING HUGH
JACKMAN AN AWARD FOR "LOGAN," AND I WHISPERED IN HIS EAR.,"
AND I WHISPERED IN HIS EAR. MY DRESS IS LUBED UP.
HES LIKE, WHAT?
>> ITS LATEX, AND ITS LUBED
UP, AND I DONT WANT TO GET IT
ON YOUR SUIT.
HES LIKE, RIGHT, RIGHT.
I DONT EVER WANT TO SAY THAT
AGAIN BECAUSE IT WAS AWKWARD,
AND HARD TO HANDLE.