AJ: Whoa.
This is crazy.
It's a little high. - Little high?
Come on.
AJ: I haven't had the opportunity to go in the tower,
and I thought it would be a good way to have
a conversation with Alexis.
The last conversation that we had was kind of rocky,
so I kind of want to see where she's at today.
ALEXIS: Beautiful!
AJ: Yeah, is nice, right here.
Except, I can't look down.
You can't look down?
Yeah, I have vertigo.
AJ: Man, this is nice.
Could you live out here?
I don't know if I could live out here
but I could definitely vacation and take like a month
off when I need to get away. - A month?
I like the hustle--
maybe a month.
If I can get a month, if you work for yourself.
[LAUGHS] You want to do that?
Three days, I'm ready to go home.
You ready to go home?
Like a hot weekend, I'm good, most places.
I'm glad we're up here because I wanted to first,
apologize to you because coming here yesterday,
I was really heavy.
I had a lot of things on my mind that nobody here knew about.
I definitely didn't know about a lot of that.
And so once I was able to express myself and get it out,
then the weight lifted.
You just lucky that I don't just fly off the handle,
you know what I'm saying? - I am lucky.
Yeah.
But that's one thing that I love about you.
I've told you this before, that I've been wanting to come in,
wanting to express my high emotions to you,
and you just, you know, you bring me down.
AJ: OK. - You know what I'm saying?
And you don't get defensive.
It makes me respect you more and it
makes me want to be more caring towards you
because that's something that I need that you give to me.
AJ: I appreciate that because I'm not like that,
or I haven't been that way all the time.
But I think it's not all me.
The way that you bring me things and the way
that you tell me about stuff, isn't hard.
With me and Alexis, I feel like she understands
where I'm coming from.
And I can acknowledge where she is, as well.
I know she feels like she tries to come in with guns blazing
all the time, but I'm glad that I'm able to calm her down
and to just relax.
Once the pressure was released and I was able to get out,
I was good. AJ: OK.
And then I was back balanced and centered,
but I want to stay in that place.
Sure.
And one thing I feel like we do very well together
is there's peace between us, I feel like.
Yeah.
ALEXIS: It's not a lot of conflict.
Everybody says it's not a lot of drama, no.
ALEXIS: It's not and I don't want that.
Not to be talking about anybody else
because this is our moment, my concern for you is for you not
to yolk up with somebody that is going to cause you to continue
on in dysfunction instead of the thing that you really need--
AJ: Hm.
that would help change you and help move you out of that.
Man, I think everybody having to battle between what they
want versus what they need. ALEXIS: Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
But I just want to honestly ask you--
Mm-hmm.
--you know, where your heart is right now?
This was my, what I assume, my last opportunity
to see, again, where he was.
Based off of that night and Kyra's focus on Jason,
I was hoping that maybe he was leaning more towards me.
I think that a lot of times what you need
ain't necessarily as exciting--
Mm-hmm.
--like, one being exciting versus one being safe.
Safe is you.
Yeah.
AJ: Like, you know what I'm saying.
Yeah.
And that's something that you kind of
hit the nail on the head.
You was just like what it is that you used to doing versus
what you should be doing--
ALEXIS: Absolutely.
--to actually make some progress.
You've shown me, like, a lot of that and those qualities
in there.
So I'm really appreciative of that.
I'm appreciative of you.
That's sweet.
I'm glad to hear that.
I enjoyed every moment with AJ but I still did
not feel secure in his answer.
To be getting so close to the end of the process
and having chosen someone who still
don't know what he wants to do, it
was very disappointing to me.
I'm glad that we had an opportunity to get
to this level of understanding.
And before your hat, you know what I'm saying, flies away.
- That would be terrible. - Are we good?
Then come get a hug.
Yes, hug, hug.
Hmm, come here.
Me and Alexis have been working through things
and I think that we're in a good space now.
But the only thing that I'm thinking about
is I have two women here and I don't
know which one really supersedes the other at this point.
So I'm definitely torn and worried about what that's going
to mean for me moving forward.