(phone ringing)
- I don't really ever get nervous,
I always get like really anxious,
like right before I go on, I get butterflies.
Lately I've been a little more nervous,
like depending on if I'm in a new city,
but I think mainly it's just 'cause I'm exhausted.
(laughs)
(gentle orchestral music)
(mid-tempo techno music)
Holy (bleep), we're here.
My name is Detox and I am 27 years old.
I can do everything: I act, I sing, I rap, I dance.
Let's send the rest of these clowns home,
where is everybody?
The rollercoaster rise of Rupaul's Drag Race was awesome.
To sit back and see, here's where the direction
of the show is going and here's the broadening horizon
of the pop culture phenomenon that it was, and is.
I got to sit back and watch people (bleep) up,
honestly, and see what not to do.
That was super rewarding for me.
I was first approached to do
Rupaul's Drag Race the first season.
I made it pretty far in the casting process
and it just wasn't my year, and I'm thankful for that,
honestly, 'cause season five is when it really started...
Season four is when it started taking off, for sure,
but season five, we put it on the map, okay?
- [Group] Rolaskatox in the house!
- Rolaskatox is Roxxxy, Alaska, and Detox.
Rolaskatox!
At the time when Rolaskatox was happening,
I didn't think it was gonna be a thing.
I don't think any of us did.
Except for Alaska, 'cause that bitch is smart.
Roxxxy and I, at least, we were the smokers of the group.
Any time that you needed a cigarette
would be your escape from filming.
We would go out, kiki, hide our mics, talk about (bleep),
talk about the other girls, so it just kind of happened,
and I didn't realize what a clique it looked like.
I'm gonna cry if we talk about Roxxxy Andrews.
Roxxxy, I know everyone has their opinions on Roxxxy Andrews
but to me she is the epitome of a drag queen.
She is the best drag queen in the world, hands down.
Creates everything head to toe, is brilliant,
and one of the kindest, sweetest people in the world,
and is (sighs) just my heart and soul.
(laughs)
- Ladies, I hate to end on a sour patch,
but I have one final question.
Which one of you sweethearts
does not deserve to be in the Top 3, and why?
- You know, that last episode, the whole time,
I remember just being like...
I think I was so frustrated
that I was not doing as well as I had anticipated,
not doing as well as I knew that I could've done.
I was very disappointed in that
and I was taking it out so much,
not necessarily aggressively, on Jinkx, to her face.
(laughs)
It's not really a school for girls,
it's a competition for the best of the best.
When it came down to that last episode,
and I knew that it was her and I in the bottom,
I was so frustrated because I was like,
I've been in the game a lot longer than her,
we're very comparable, I didn't perform my best here,
she's been blowing it outta the park,
and that was frustrating to me.
I was more disappointed in myself and my performance
than this booger that was coming in
and taking my spot in the Top 3.
So, I wasn't disappointed in not winning,
because I knew that I didn't deserve it, you know?
And I knew that I was gonna win the the Reunion, so...
(laughs)
(crowd cheering)
- [Michelle] The totally addictive Detox!
(upbeat techno music)
- Before anything went down, like before I even
went to film it, I knew I wanted to do that for the Reunion.
I was like, either things are gonna go really well,
and I'm gonna do amazing and I'm gonna be in the Top 3
and I'm gonna show out with that look
and they will have no choice but to crown me,
and then if things won't work out, I wanna show up
and blow everybody away and still win the (bleep) Reunion.
(laughs)
It was my plan from day one.
I put more thought into that look
than I did anything else on the show.
I had hives the last like three weeks of filming,
they thought I was allergic to something,
and no, it was just stress.
I was like, "Get off my (bleep), I'm fine."
I totally still feel like I wasn't present during season 5,
especially watching reruns.
I don't really watch the show that often,
like my episodes 'cause I hate watching myself on TV.
I think every artist is like that,
they don't like looking at their work.
I wanted it for so long, I was so in my head,
was so ready for it, but everything leading up
to the process of getting there was exhausting.
My father was just getting sick, we weren't really sure
what was happening with him yet,
but we just knew there was something wrong.
That was very difficult, to make the decision
of whether I should pursue my dreams
or figure out what was going on with my family situation.
I asked him before I left, I was like,
"Look, I have this opportunity.
Do you care if I go?
We don't know what's going on with you,"
and he was super encouraging of it,
but I just never felt like I was there.
I know I was doing well and I lasted 'til episode...
Whatever, I was the Top 4.
Which is amazing to not be that present
and to know that I wasn't there mentally
and to still make it that far is awesome.
I just wish that I would've been more present.
(laughs)
♪ Remember your na-ame ♪
♪ Feel your pulse down deep in your soul ♪
I love drag, I love what I do.
I'm so (bleep) lucky to be able to have a career
and to make a living off of something I love to do.
I hate getting ready.
It's the one thing I can't stand to do.
I procrastinate, I don't wanna get up and shave,
I hafta give myself at least 30 minutes to cry
before I get ready, because I know it's gonna happen,
'cause I just don't wanna do it.
But once I'm in it, I'm in love with it.
When I first started, I was so much more of a club kid,
super androgynous and crazy colors and I had no filler.
(laughs)
Once I started getting filler,
I started becoming a little more like a lady.
You know what it is about the getting ready process?
It's monotonous, and then especially
when you're city to city to city,
I can't have that much fun anymore,
getting ready in drag, you know what I mean?
I used to get ready with all kinds of people
and get to experiment, now it's just like paint-by-numbers,
which is great, 'cause I still look beautiful,
but I miss that fun, just starting out, excited drag.
♪ Feel your pulse down deep in your soul ♪
God damn it.
(crewman laughing)
("Kitty Girl" by Rupaul playing in the background)
(laughs)
It's gonna be stuck in my head all day now.
♪ Feel your pulse down deep in your soul ♪
(upbeat techno music)
Well, this is hauntingly familiar.
Here we go again!
- Rehab is back in session.
My name is Detox and I am from season five,
where I can in fourth.
(bell chimes)
When I got the call about All Stars, it was...
I mean, it was an immediate yes for me mentally
because I felt like I had grown so much,
I felt like I had something to prove,
I felt like I something to say, but it was the scheduling.
I honestly was so freaked out about scheduling,
so concerned about whether or not
I could get my stuff together in time.
You can go in there thinking that you're super prepared
and then once you get there,
you realize it's its own monster.
That was the only thing that I was hesitant about,
is whether or not I was physically ready for it, but I was.
- Detox! Oh, oh, okay!
Oh my god!
- Ahhh!
- It's really telling that half
of the cast is from season five.
Season five's cast was brilliant.
You had all kinds of characters
from all kinds of different walks of life
in the drag community and you also had
some really huge names in the drag community.
Roxxxy Andrews, multi-title holder, legend.
Alyssa Edwards, multi-title holder, legend.
Coco Montrese, multi-title holder, legend in the drag realm.
I feel like that season is when people
who are drag aficionados finally looked at Drag Race
like, "Okay, bitch, this is about drag."
The drama that you were thrown
with eliminating each other, crazy.
The challenges, crazy.
The fan base, crazy.
The judges, the prizes,
everything about it was just amazing.
♪ Eyes on the chalkboard, I'll spell it out for you ♪
♪ D to the E to the T to the O to the-Hold it! X ♪
(Michelle laughs)
♪ Naomi Campbell-ing the hoes to the crown, next ♪
Read U Wrote U was amazing!
Nobody heard each other's lyrics,
nobody heard each other's verses
until the night before we went to do
the rehearsal for the blocking and the choreography.
When they have us our iPods with that track on it,
we were all sitting around this little table
with an umbrella, smokin' cigarettes,
dying, because we just knew.
It wasn't even finished.
None of them had been tweaked,
they just had everything so we could learn our parts.
Everyone on set was like, "This is gonna be (bleep) epic."
And it was.
I feel like I have shown such an amount of growth,
and maturity, and humility,
I want to just travel around the world and share that
with everyone and say that it will get better,
no matter how crazy or weird you may be,
that I could be some kind of beacon of hope
for all those weirdos out there.
It was harder not to win season two of All Stars, for sure.
It hit me really hard.
I know that Alaska killed it, that she murdered it,
but I know that I went out there and I killed it.
What kind of breaks my heart about the whole thing
is to be considered the third runner up...
Well, the second runner up instead of the first runner up,
because statistically I did better than Katya.
I walked outta there thinking, you know what,
Alaska's probably gonna win this
but if she doesn't get it, it's mine.
That's how I walked out feeling.
I was able to showcase me at my best,
do you know what I mean?
My best then, I feel like I've grown
even more since then even.
- Detox's sister, Heather.
- Oh my god!
Seeing my sister walk into the Werk Room
is stirring up all these emotions because just last week,
it was the anniversary of my father's passing,
so that's been on my mind a lot lately,
and to have my heart and my soul,
my best friend, it's like a godsend.
(crying)
God damn it, I hate when...
Here's the funny story.
Here's the little backstory about that All Stars moment
when Heather came out, is it was a week after my father
had passed away and luckily for me, my sister's my attorney,
so they allowed me to call her on the day that he passed
just to check in on the family, to say hi,
I'm doing really great,
everything's going really well,
I miss you guys, I hope you're feeling well.
It's been a year.
And she knew on that conversation
that she was coming and I had no idea.
So, when she walked in, I could not be consoled.
I lost my mind.
It was such an important moment for the both of us, I think.
Clearly, it still affects me now.
I couldn't have imagined sharing that
with anyone else but her.
(hums)
Oh my god, it's so nice out today!
- [Heather] I know!
- My sister, obviously, is a huge part of my life.
She moved to Chicago six month after I moved to LA,
after she convinced me to move to LA.
(laughs)
Which, granted, I was pissed at the time
but it was the best move I could've ever done.
I always thought about kind of moving here.
I didn't think it was gonna be as quickly as it happened,
but I was visiting, I was out in Boystown,
got a little drunk and came home and she said,
"The house across the street just came on the market.
It's been there for like two weeks, let's go look at it."
- [Heather] For marital bliss,
across the street--
- Marital bliss.
- [Heather] From each other. - From each other.
I fell in love with the house
and I drunkenly put in a really low offer.
Thinking, oh god, it's never gonna get accepted,
and the next day they called and said,
"Congratulations, we have accepted your offer."
So, I basically bought a house drunk.
That whole process was going on,
I was like, oh god, what have I done,
I'm not ready to leave LA, I don't know
how am I gonna make this work.
I've never lived on my own before.
What am I (bleep) doing?
I was like, okay well, that's fine,
I won't get approved for the loan.
I have no credit.
It's fine, I've been living off the books for years.
I'm good, DragCon weekend comes around in New York City.
We're setting up DragCon.
As soon as we connect to the wifi, I get an email.
"Congratulations, you've been approved for your loan."
(laughing)
Obviously, it's a little crazy right now
(speaking gibberish)
- [Heather] Some things never change.
- Okay, let's no go in here.
(laughs)
- [Heather] Woo, my house!
- Look, there's your house!
I think we really need to get Campbell's Soup cans.
It's so cliche but everything happens for a reason.
I was not expecting it to happen and it did
and I could not be happier.
This is the happiest I've been in years.
- [Heather] The pool's all set up?
- [Detox] Mmhmm. - Can you show it to me?
- Mmhmm. (squeals)
There we are, the pool!
We had a crazy electrical...
Oh god, the boxes.
Can somebody come and take care of this?
- Wow.
- Can we have your kids do it?
- [Heather] (laughing) I'll try.
- [Camera Man] How's the move been?
- The move has been dreadful. (laughs)
The room of carpets.
(laughs)
- [Heather] You have a lot of carpets.
- [Detox] I have a lot of carpets.
- [Heather] And a polar bear habitat?
- And a polar bear habitat.
I kind of wanna leave it the way it is,
but at least have the walls cleaned,
or at least repaint them white.
But I kinda like the fact that they're--
- [Heather] The texture?
- [Detox] There's texture.
- [Heather] You definitely need a lot of fur everywhere.
- I want a lot of fur everywhere.
Heather was an interior decorator, she was going to school
for that for a while before she decided to become a lawyer,
and we always had a passion for design, period.
This is just another expansion of me being able
to express my creativity in my own home.
I have all these beautiful things,
now I have a beautiful place to put them in,
and now I get to make it my own.
It's the first time I've ever lived on my own, ever.
I'm 33 years old and it's my first time...
Now I have a huge 3000 some odd square foot home
with a pool.
- [Heather] It feels warm. - [Detox] It does feel warm.
Watch your step, watch your step.
- [Heather] Exciting, members only!
- I know, members only. Okay, so here is...
I mean, you've seen it before, but now it's been cleaned
and drained and all kinds of things and--
- [Heather] Don't fall in.
- I'm gonna try not to fall in.
Are you coming up here?
Because I'm more concerned about you than me.
Oh god! It's too early in the morning
to be crying about this.
Okay. (sighs)
I probably would not be here
if it weren't for my sister Heather.
She is my life-saver,
she's my role model,
my icon, my best friend, my savior in Christ. (laughs)
She's everything to me, I mean...
There's a reason we live right across the street
from each other. (laughs)
I spend more time in her house than I do at my own,
because I get to hang out with her kids.
I wouldn't be here if it weren't for her.
She's the only person, the first and only person,
who has supported me fully as an individual,
as a gay person, as a queer person, as an artist,
is the only one who had given me
the wings to fly to where I am now.
("Kitty Girl" by Rupaul plays in the background)
Guys, I'm feeling my pulse down deep in my soul,
I don't know about you.
Show is at 11:30, right? Okay.
What is next for Detox?
Honestly, it's hard for me to tell,
because I feel like there are
so many opportunities out there.
I feel like the world is my oyster
and that I've just...
I have so many wishes to really pick from.
I don't have any regrets.
I think that this also may be a cliche thing to say.
The paths that I've taken in life have gotten me
to where I am and I'm so happy right now
and I think that that's an awesome thing.
It's been a hard road to travel,
but it's gotten me here and I've survived.
I think that no matter what I do, anyways,
that Detox is gonna be somewhat involved.
She's what got me here.
Detox is already immortal.
Detox, this is gonna sound like (bleep), Detox is happy
for the first time in a long time, and that means something.
(soft electronic music)
Okay, I haven't done this in a long time
and these pants are very tight,
so we'll see what happens here.
(pole creaking)
(laughing)
That's like the only move I know.
(laughs)
And I'm dizzy.